Wu Tao used a body gesture to express the secrecy of "everything goes without saying", and then waited for others to take over the conversation so that he could continue to express his views.

But unfortunately, no one paid any attention to him.

Yu Yiran probably didn't understand at all. He was an old man who didn't like to talk about people behind their backs. Even Xu Xilin didn't give him face this time - Xu Xilin was concentrating on sprinkling cumin on a bunch of meat skewers, and he sprinkled it evenly and at a professional level.

Wu Tao was a little bored and was just about to make an excuse to smooth over his embarrassment when he suddenly heard Dou Xun say, "What's wrong?"

Wu Tao was stunned. Firstly, he didn't expect him to respond, and secondly, he didn't expect him to respond in this way.

"There's no one in the dormitory building during the holidays, and it's not in front of everyone. In your school, will you expel someone if they invite their girlfriend to spend the night when no one is around during the holidays?" Dou Xun said without even raising his eyelids, "If it were me, I wouldn't die, but I would go to the Education Bureau to ask which school rules I violated."

Wu Tao thought he didn't get the point and sneered, "Student Dou Xun, you were absent-minded in class just now and didn't listen carefully, right? If it was your girlfriend, it would be great. Who would have the time to report them? They are two men..."

Dou Xun glanced at him, and Wu Tao inexplicably saw a condescending look in his eyes.

"I heard it," Dou Xun said indifferently, "What's wrong with homosexuality? Did he rape you?"

"Dou Xun," Xu Xilin spoke before Wu Tao got angry, "Say it again and see if what you say sounds like human language?"

Dou Xun's neck was stiff for a while, but he finally lowered his head and remained silent.

Wu Tao was furious. He reached out and patted Dou Xun on the back a few times. "Brother, I know you have a cowardly temper. I don't want to argue with you. Don't do this outside, or we won't know where to save you if you get beaten."

After Xu Xilin said a few words to Dou Xun, his mood has been low. He ate two bites of the skewers and lost his appetite. He grilled a lot of them and handed them all to Dou Xun.

Dou Xun somehow suffered from his "territorial syndrome" again. He accepted all the skewers of meat handed to him by Xu Xilin. He ate as much as he was fed and did not say a word even when he was full. He just stretched out his hand to take the food and had no intention of sharing it with others.

Finally, Xu Xilin came to his senses and was shocked by the bamboo sticks on the ground. He asked him, "Did you eat all of them? How much did you eat?"

Dou Xun didn't answer, but just said, "My stomach hurts a bit because I'm so full."

"A little stomachache" was a euphemism. Yu Yiran roughly counted the number of bamboo sticks and felt that his stomach did not explode on the spot, which showed that his physical condition was good.

The others were also shocked. Lao Cheng said, "Is Tuan Zuo's cooking skills worthy of a Michelin three-star rating? Dou Xun... do you want to stand up and take a few steps?"

As soon as Dou Xun stood up, he broke out in a cold sweat. He could hardly straighten his back, and his face looked ugly and a little scary.

"What's going on? Brother, do people like you who are good at studying have some defects in other aspects?" Wu Tao gloated, saying with sarcasm, "Hey, I think you should go to the hospital? I'm not kidding. It seems that Zheng Laofu in the TV series died of gluttony."

Yu Yiran: "...Brother Tao, shut up."

A group of young people went out to play, and no one had common medicine with them. They couldn't even find a stomach-strengthening and digestion-promoting tablet. In the end, there was no choice but to hastily end the party and rush back to send Dou Xun, who had a stomachache, back home.

The driver, Lao Cheng, was not very skilled when he came, and it was unlikely that he would have mastered the quick driving skills when he left. The car was still jumping up and down, dodging left and right, and he would brake suddenly from time to time. By the end of the day, I'm afraid even Lao Cheng himself felt a little carsick.

Dou Xun was so frustrated by his excellent driving skills that he wanted to vomit, but he didn't want to embarrass himself in front of outsiders, so he had to concentrate and endure it.

One is diarrhea, the other is vomiting. These sound like minor problems and cannot be compared with real injuries. However, probably only the parties involved know where the "knife" is hanging over their heads, and it takes inhuman willpower to hold it back.

Halfway through the journey, Dou Xun felt so uncomfortable that he wanted to push open the car door and crawl under the wheel. He grabbed Xu Xilin's hand that was hanging by his side.

Xu Xilin asked hurriedly: "What's wrong? Do you want to vomit? If you want to vomit, ask Lao Cheng to stop the car by the roadside."

Lao Cheng quickly added: "Yes, yes, I may not be able to drive, but I am best at parking."

Dou Xun shook his head. He wanted to smile like him, but he didn't even have the strength to lift the corners of his mouth. Cold sweat broke out on his back and his ears began to buzz. He had to count his breaths to pass the time.

Wu Tao and Yu Yiran both turned to look at him and asked him how he was. Then Dou Xun felt Xu Xilin struggled slightly and pulled his hand out of his palm.

Dou Xun turned his head to look at him and saw Xu Xilin looking out the window.

The trees on both sides were lifeless and flew away in rows. A straight road stretched into the distance, getting narrower and narrower. Their tattered little Xiali seemed to be heading into a dead alley.

Dou Xun felt a sudden shock in his heart. His stomach, which had been churning just now, was suddenly frozen and became numb. It hung there heavily, like a lifeless dead bag.

The next moment, Xu Xilin seemed to realize that his previous action might have hurt someone. He came to his senses and gently patted Dou Xun's back with his free hand, as if he wanted to make amends before Dou Xun started to feel upset.

But it's too late.

After finally reaching home, Dou Xun got out of the car and turned to leave. Xu Xilin had no choice but to quickly say goodbye to his classmates: "I'll treat you next time. Let's get together again some other day."

Lao Cheng: "I know, go over and take a look."

Xu Xilin waved at him helplessly and ran away.

Dou Xun returned to his room, did not knock on the door, turned around and rushed into the bathroom, vomiting everything out. Not only did he vomit out all the food that he had not digested, but in the end he had no more food left and almost vomited out bile.

Xu Xilin was knocking on his door anxiously outside. Dou Xun supported his hands on his knees, stood there with his eyes drooping for a long time, listening woodenly to Xu Xilin calling him outside.

"Why did you lock the door in broad daylight? Are you sick? Open it now!"

"Bean filling, open the door!"

"Dou Xun!"

…

Dou Xun didn't move, as if he was deaf. Xu Xilin knocked for a while but couldn't get the door open. He kicked the door angrily and walked away. Dou Xun's breath suddenly dissipated. He bent down, his shoulders collapsed, and panted heavily for a moment. He staggered to rinse his mouth and wash his hands, then turned on the shower and cleaned himself up.

The shower in their house is powered by both solar energy and electricity, which can ensure sufficient hot water 24 hours a day. It was a sunny day with light clouds and a breeze. The water temperature was a little hot due to the sun, so Dou Xun didn't adjust the water to cold, he just took a bath in the hot water.

The hot water turned his whole body red, but his chest remained cold, as if he had swallowed a block of ice, which was blocking him.

In the past, Dou Xun could still understand Xu Xilin's expression. At that time, Xu Xilin would be happy when he was happy, and would quarrel on the spot when he was unhappy... Although he would quickly adjust himself to the reasonable channel after the quarrel. But in the past year and a half, Xu Xilin's face showed less and less joy and anger.

Do people change after going to college? Dou Xun is not sure, but he doesn’t feel any change in himself.

But ever since Xu Xilin started the military training at the beginning of the school year, Dou Xun has been troubled by a strong sense of uneasiness all the time. He still remembers that Xu Xilin didn't answer his phone calls at that time, and even gave Dou Xun a sense of strangeness the moment he just returned home. Dou Xun had an indescribable feeling that there was a very thin thread between the two of them, which seemed to be tied together on the surface, but would become longer and thinner in the future, and finally break, and he would never see where that person went again.

Now he is still in school and can barely be considered a "child". It's okay for him to live in Xu's house with a shameless face. What will he say after he graduates in three years... two and a half years?

What if one day Xu Xilin gets tired of him and can no longer tolerate him?

Who can tolerate sneaking around all their life?

Dou Xun had never thought about these things before. He would only subconsciously drag and dominate Xu Xilin, like a miser guarding his gold bricks relentlessly.

When it was getting dark, Dou Xun heard the sound of Xu Xilin's door. He knew that he was going to the senior citizen center to pick up his grandmother and buy some things on the way. So he stood by the window and watched. He left his room only after he saw Xu Xilin leave the hospital. As a result, he saw the pills that Xu Xilin had placed in the living room.

After Xu Xilin brought his grandmother back, he went to cook dinner. He could now prepare a decent home-cooked meal within half an hour.

Grandma Xu asked curiously, "How could Xiaoxun not come to eat?"

"Oh, he..." Xu Xilin paused, "He got sick from eating barbecue outside at noon."

Grandma stood up when she heard this: "I'll go take a look."

"Don't move, don't move, I'll go." Xu Xilin quickly pushed her to sit down, thought for a while, then served another bowl of millet porridge and brought it upstairs.

This time Dou Xun didn't use him to break down the door. It opened after two knocks.

Xu Xilin didn't know what to say for a moment, so he handed the porridge forward and said, "Drink some?"

Dou Xun was silent for a while, and finally stepped aside to let him in.

Xu Xilin glanced at the empty medicine box and found a place to sit down. Neither of them said anything until Dou Xun gently put the empty bowl aside. Xu Xilin came to his senses and blurted out, "I didn't mean that."

"You don't mean what?" Dou Xun asked, "You don't mean to prove that you are not gay, or you don't mean to cut off your relationship with me?"

Xu Xilin was stuck for a moment. By this time, he already knew the reason why Dou Xun had been in a cold war with him for the whole afternoon. He wanted to let the matter go tacitly, but Dou Xun continued to ask him questions.

Xu Xilin lowered his voice: "So what else do you want? Tell the world?"

Dou Xun's forehead veins bulged slightly, but he said nothing.

Xu Xilin sighed and said in a more gentle tone: "Does your stomach still hurt? Who are you angry with?"

Dou Xun said coldly: "I won't give anything you put in my hand to anyone else. If anyone touches it, I will chop off their hand."

Xu Xilin: “…”

He pressed his forehead tiredly, feeling that Dou Xun's second-year cancer might have spread. He pinched his knuckles again and again, counting his breaths, and only when he counted to ten did Xu Xilin feel his breathing become calmer. He stood up and walked to Dou Xun's side, stretched out his hand to hold Dou Xun's chin, and rubbed his dark cheeks: "When we are weak, no matter what we do, we always have to be a little cautious, but it won't always be like this. One day, when I am strong and have a say, and I don't have to sneak into the student dormitory during holidays to do what I want, who can still expel you? At that time, I don't have to worry about what others say, right?"

Dou Xun has always known that Xu Xilin's words are more beautiful than his singing, so he refused to listen to his words and said very simply: "It's open, the worst that can happen is that I can go back and take the exam again, and continue to study at another school. Is there only one university in the whole of China?"

For Dou Xun, all his success came too easily. He could easily go to the best university, get scholarships, and study abroad - as long as he wanted to. It came too easily, so he didn't know how to cherish it at all.

Xu Xilin was speechless and thought: "Let's coax her, what else can I do?"

He lowered his head, pressed his forehead against Dou Xun's, and kissed him gently on the tip of his nose: "Okay, you're right - do you want more porridge? I'll serve you another bowl?"

When Dou Junliang abandoned Dou Xun in his hometown and ignored him for many years, he still spoke so nicely. Dou Xun still remembers that Dou Junliang bought him an imported game console that was very expensive at the time. When he was leaving, he half-squatted on the ground, looking so reluctant to leave. He told him to be obedient and to take care of his grandparents on his behalf. He also said, "Dad is busy with work now, and your mom is not here, so she can't take care of you, but it won't always be like this. When I'm done with this, we'll go home right away. Dad promises."

But a person's promise is just a touch of the upper lip to the lower lip, how much credibility can it have?

Dou Xun was originally 50% angry, but Xu Xilin unexpectedly aroused his anger to the point of 100%. He suddenly grabbed Xu Xilin's collar, pressed him down with brute force, and threw him hard on the bed. Without saying a word, he started to tear off his clothes.

Xu Xilin just came up to serve a bowl of porridge, and the door was not closed yet. Grandma was still waiting for his reply downstairs. She didn't expect Dou Xun to go crazy as soon as he said he was crazy. She didn't even dare to speak loudly. She raised her arm to press down Dou Xun's hand that was inserted into his shirt: "Are you crazy? Let go!"

Dou Xun paused, then twisted his chest hard. Xu Xilin bent his waist, grabbed a pillow from the bed, and elbowed Dou Xun through the pillow.

Dou Xun was hit on the chin. Even with the pillow as a cushion, he was stunned for a moment. Xu Xilin angrily pushed him off, and he fell to the side, holding his chin.

Xu Xilin tidied himself up with a gloomy face, glanced at Dou Xun, and left without even taking the bowl.

"Same character as Dou Junliang." Dou Xun thought sarcastically.