Chapter 40: Uneasy
The freshmen's military training ended early, so Dou Xun was able to stay at home for a while. He didn't have any boring hobbies to kill time, and his every day was very full - the first thing he did when he got up in the morning was to clumsily do housework according to the duty roster behind the entrance, then run around the community twice, buy breakfast, and read one or two books in the plan in the morning, and half a day was over. In the afternoon, he had to go to the boxing gym in the gym to participate in summer training, and he could have dinner when he got home after training. In the evening, he would talk to his grandmother and play with birds for half an hour, then take a short rest, and then go back to his room to do some translation materials, and the day was over.
When Xu Xilin was around during the summer vacation, Dou Xun always felt that he was busy and often had to give up one or two things in his schedule to spare some time to spend with Xu Xilin. But when that person left, his busy schedule seemed to suddenly go into slow motion, and his idle time suddenly increased.
Halfway through reading, Dou Xun thought of Xu Xilin, so he got up and walked around next door. Then he remembered that everyone had gone to school, so he had to walk around quietly for a while.
During the actual combat practice in the training camp, Dou Xun saw his partner and found a small triangular scar on the back of his hand. He remembered that Xu Xilin also had a similar small scar on his arm... and then he was knocked down by a newcomer who was one level lower than him.
He is "a person who has never felt lovesickness in his life, but now that he does, he suffers from it". Last year, when Dou Xun was in military training, he was away for nearly a month. At that time, he also missed her, but it was not as strong and unbearable.
Perhaps the more he gets, the more unsatisfied he becomes. The longing is like a cancer entangled in his bones. He didn't feel anything in the first two days, but the longer time passed, the more it broke through his skin and bones.
Dou Xun couldn't help but call Xu Xilin.
Xu Xilin answered the phone quickly. It was probably in the dormitory, and the environment was very noisy. There were shouting and yelling in the background. Before Dou Xun had time to speak, Xu Xilin asked nervously, "What's wrong? What happened at home?"
Only then did Dou Xun realize that it was almost ten o'clock at night.
After hearing him say that he was fine, Xu Xilin heaved a sigh of relief: "I was so scared. If I had received a call from you in the middle of the night, I would have lived ten years less."
So although Xu Xilin didn't tell him not to call at night, Dou Xun still took it to heart. From then on, he never called him at night again, and always called him during the day.
But maybe he was too busy, but during the day, Xu Xilin only answered one of the three or four calls he received.
There is a regular pattern in class time during normal times, but during military training it all depends on the instructor's mood. Dou Xun tried it at various times in the morning and afternoon. Sometimes he would listen to the phone ringing alone, and it would automatically hang up after a while. Sometimes Xu Xilin would answer the phone, but he would be in a hurry and could not say a few words before someone came to look for him, so he had to hang up.
Dou Xun was feeling lonely and puzzled. He felt that he was not so busy during the military training. He thought, "Maybe the requirements of each school are different?"
It’s not that Xu Xilin didn’t want to talk to him more.
In fact, the military training at Xu Xilin's place was not as strict as one might imagine. Apart from the fact that one could not leave school at will, the intensity was not very high. Lights were turned off at 10 pm, and students gathered at 5:30 am, with a long lunch break at noon.
It is said that there was a girls' company nearby where one quarter of the members collapsed due to ultraviolet allergy, and another quarter collapsed due to dysmenorrhea. There were also various minor ailments such as stomach upset, colds, and heat stroke. In short, after two weeks, not even a single member could stand in a formation.
Only children are precious, and the school cannot afford to take responsibility if something really happens. Halfway through the training, they first urgently sealed off all freezers in educational supermarkets and cafeterias, and prohibited the sale of cold drinks to students undergoing military training. Then, they changed the daily training time to morning and evening, and basically stopped training after the sun came out. The instructors turned a blind eye to this group of hopeless students, and took them to find shady places to sing and play all day long.
The future campus celebrities will usually emerge at this time. There are the academic masters who speak on behalf of the freshmen, the literary young men who come to school with a guitar, and the rich second-generation instructors who treat beautiful girls to drinks every day... The publicity team responsible for taking promotional photos will run around the girls they treat every day with cameras, and come back at night to discuss which one is prettier.
The school’s ideological and political education and counselors randomly selected a group of local students and asked them to report to the school half a day in advance. As the temporary convener of the class, Xu Xilin was among them.
As soon as he arrived at the school, the counselor's eyes lit up. He was a clean northern boy, tall and handsome. His clothes were carefully taken care of by Aunt Xu Jindu and others, and they were very pleasing to the eye. He was also good at chatting, and he was not as stupid as most boys who just graduated from middle school.
The counselor was a senior who stayed in school after being admitted to graduate school. She asked casually, "Where did you go to high school?"
Xu Xilin: "Sixth Middle School."
The counselor blurted out, "I'm from No. 6 Middle School, too! Oh, I didn't expect you to be my junior!"
The three words "dear junior fellow student" laid the tone for Xu Xilin's four years as a student leader and receiving scholarships every year. They also gave him the privilege of avoiding training during military training by running errands for the counselor. Soon, he became a familiar face in the whole grade.
Xu Xilin, who was helping the infirmary teacher sort out the students' injuries under a tree, quietly took out his mobile phone and quickly flipped through the call logs.
A teacher from the infirmary nearby said, "Want to call your girlfriend? No problem, go ahead. This isn't a training ground."
Xu Xilin smiled, said nothing, and put the phone back into his pocket.
Xu Xilin was determined to use the military training as an opportunity to cool down the relationship between himself and Dou Xun, but at the beginning, Dou Xun's calls were always as if they were about to kill him, so Xu Xilin had to control the frequency of his calls.
Gradually, Dou Xun may have sensed something, and the frequency of his calls decreased. When Xu Xilin remembered, he hadn't received a call from him for two days. Xu Xilin felt very upset, and wondered anxiously whether Dou Xun was angry. Whenever Dou Xun was angry, he wanted to comfort him, and it had become a habit.
When he first entered college, the counselor hit it off with him and asked him to help with everything. Xu Xilin could save seven or eight numbers in his mobile phone every day. After saving them, he went home at night and looked at them, but he didn't even remember their faces. But even though he was so busy, he couldn't help but think of Dou Xun from time to time.
After more than twenty days of military training, Xu Xilin was tanned into a chewy charcoal and he could finally go home.
On the way, Xu Xilin was still thinking about what to say to Dou Xun when he got back. He was so lost in thought that as soon as he pushed the door open, he and the grey parrot made eye contact, and they both got scared.
The grey parrot fell directly from its perch, and after flapping its wings for a long time, it finally stood still. It stared at him for a while, but couldn't recognize him, so it screamed, "Monster, take my stick!"
Xu Xilin: “…”
The regular summer program "Journey to the West" is indeed popular again.
A door upstairs was pushed open with great force. Dou Xun glanced at him from the stairwell and ran downstairs angrily.
Xu Xilin put his luggage aside, cleared his throat and was about to say something, but Dou Xun didn't give him a chance. He rushed over and hugged him. The two of them took two or three steps back together and bumped into the door with a bang. Dou Xun didn't say anything and just kissed him directly.
Xu Xilin was almost scared crazy by him.
Dou Xun whispered, "Grandma is not at home."
It is not okay even if he is not at home. For Xu Xilin, the second floor is his private territory. When he goes to the first floor, he always feels like he is in public, especially when the grey parrot is peeking around.
"I haven't had a proper bath in several days, stop hugging me." Xu Xilin pushed him, "I'm almost stinking... um..."
Dou Xun blocked his mouth.
Dou Xun was filled with a strong sense of uneasiness. The kiss was too passionate. Xu Xilin's tongue was broken by him and his mouth was filled with the taste of blood.
Xu Xilin's anxiety and bad feelings over the past few days suddenly flooded away. He felt distressed and guilty, as if he had done something wrong to Dou Xun. He could only stroke Dou Xun's back repeatedly and slowly comfort him.
Dou Xun gradually loosened his grip and stared at him for a while. Xu Xilin thought for a moment that Dou Xun would ask him why he didn't answer the phone, but Dou Xun didn't ask anything. His eyes were a little wet, with a little unspeakable fear: "I miss you."
Xu Xilin felt so overwhelmed that he could not breathe. He threw away his rationality and concerns and thought, "What am I doing exposing others for no reason? This is really a jerk."
He put his arms around Dou Xun and hugged him tightly. Just as he was about to speak, he heard the sound of a key unlocking the door.
The two of them were startled at the same time. Xu Xilin immediately forgot his words and they looked towards the door guiltily.
Grandma Xu slowly pushed the door open and came in: "Did Xiaolin just come in?"
The blood on Xu Xilin's body was still on his limbs. He smiled stiffly but didn't say anything at the time.
Dou Xun's expression darkened. He bent over, picked up his luggage and went upstairs.
The uneasiness in his heart was like a taut string before Xu Xilin came home, and it was only loosened after the kiss. At this moment, the string made a "buzzing" sound, and Dou Xun thought: "Hiding in secret, can't see the light."
Xu Xilin chatted with his grandmother for a while with his heart in turmoil, then ran back to the second floor on the pretext that he needed to take a shower.
He showered for a while in a state of confusion. Halfway through, he was startled by the sound of the door. Turning back, Xu Xilin found that Dou Xun had actually come in quietly.
Dou Xun's body was quickly covered with a layer of mist. He took out a plastic bag from his pocket, and then took out a bottle of lubricant from the bathroom locker, silently asking Xu Xilin.
Xu Xilin: “…”
When did you hide it?
Dou Xun is quick to accept everything, including shamelessness. He can learn a lot about something he knew nothing about in a very short time, including how to be shameless.
Xu Xilin wanted to say that grandma was still downstairs, but when he saw Dou Xun's eyes, he was speechless.
This time it went much more smoothly than last time, but even though they knew that their grandmother would not come up, and the house was well soundproofed, the two teenagers still felt like they were having an affair in public.
Dou Xun seemed to have the urge to vent and verify something, and he felt both repressed and intense.
Just like that, Xu Xilin's plan to "cool down" could not keep up with the changes and ended in failure.