Chapter 4: Want to end a relationship but afraid of losing it completely

"Tianhai, I heard that there is a concert in the Central Square tonight and many people are going. I have two tickets, would you like to go with me?" Ye Zixin tied the scarf given by Gu Tianhai around her neck. Although it was not her style, she liked it very much.
Gu Tianhai didn’t know why Ye Zixin liked him. He was obviously childish and immature, but she treated him like a treasure.
This is probably what it means to like someone, regardless of gains and losses, and for no reason. Even if the other person is a fool, a fool, you still want to protect his smile without hesitation.
"Tianhai, what are you thinking about?" Ye Zixin tugged at Gu Tianhai's arm, like a girlfriend acting coquettishly to her absent-minded boyfriend, expressing her dissatisfaction.
Gu Tianhai gently pulled his hand away. He didn't like the sticky feeling of Ye Zixin holding his arm.
"After all, we haven't confirmed our relationship yet, so don't tell others that I'm your boyfriend." Gu Tianhai is not good at rejecting people. Besides, girls always want to save face. It's just that his "considerateness" was misunderstood by Ye Zixin.
"Then let's start as friends. I went to see your sister yesterday." Ye Zixin recalled the scene when she went to Gu Tianhai's house yesterday. Because she brought gifts for Gu Zhenni and her uncle, Gu Zhenni liked her especially. "Your sister said that a girl as good as me is worthy of you... By the way, you haven't answered me yet, will you accompany me?"
"If you have nothing to do after get off work, I'll accompany you." Thinking of the scene when Yan Mo returned home yesterday, Gu Tianhai agreed.
Ye Zixin was very satisfied with the guarantee and always had a smile on her face while working, which made the company employees couldn't help but talk about her. They guessed the reason why she was in a good mood and discussed the relationship between Ye Zixin and Gu Tianhai in private.
Although Gu Tianhai was somewhat concerned about other people's gossip, Ye Zixin enjoyed it. Knowing that it would only make things worse, Gu Tianhai had no choice but to remain silent and continue to complete the tasks assigned by his superiors.
After lying at home for a whole day, Yan Mo woke up in a daze. Everything around her seemed to be spinning, as if all the heat was gathered in her head. The feeling of dizziness and nausea eroded every cell, but Yan Mo couldn't vomit because there was no food in her stomach.
"I feel so uncomfortable." Yan Mo walked towards the hall wrapped in a quilt. She didn't know whether it was because the quilt was heavy or because she was dizzy, but she was a little shaky when she walked. "Could it be that I have a fever?"
Yan Mo raised her hand and touched the temperature of her forehead, which seemed to be much higher than usual. But except for her forehead, her whole body felt very cold.
"Where is the medicine box?" Yan Mo, shivering under the quilt, stopped in front of the drawer labeled with the medicine box. She squatted down and opened the drawer.
Inside the drawer were various medicines with unknown purchase dates. Yan Mo was looking through the antipyretic medicine when she unexpectedly found a medicine bottle from a few years ago. Yan Mo paused and looked at the words on the medicine bottle: For idiots only.
"You keep throwing away medicine bottles all day long. What if you take the wrong medicine? Let me mark it for you." Li Hao sat on the sofa and wrote on the medicine bottle with a marker. "I've written down the dosage and the number of times to take it. Remember not to take the wrong medicine."
"What are you writing?" Yan Mo leaned against Li Hao and looked at him adding the words "Exclusively for idiots" on the medicine bottle. "You are the idiot!"
"You are always in a daze. If I am gone, who will take care of you?"
"No, you will always be by my side."
The memories of the past are still vivid, as if they happened just yesterday.
And now, all that is left is an empty medicine bottle and she no longer has a shoulder to lean on.
"That idiot Gu Tianhai, didn't he know to throw away these useless medicine bottles when cleaning up the clutter?" Yan Mo tightly grasped the medicine bottle, and then threw it into the trash can full of waste paper.
No matter how many memories of Li Hao there are in this house, she has to clear them out and not let this person control her emotions anymore. Yesterday was already an accident.
"When will Gu Tianhai get off work? What should I do if I feel dizzy?" Yan Mo supported his head and then fell on the sofa wrapped in a quilt.
Her breathing gradually became hotter, and her internal organs seemed to be burning. She picked up her phone, edited a text message to Gu Tianhai, and then fell into a coma.
After Christmas Eve, the city was gradually covered with heavy snow.
The number of vehicles traveling did not decrease as a result, and the snow-covered road was left with traces of wheel tracks.
A child wearing gloves hid behind a tall building and played a snowball game with his friends.
There were many couples making snowmen around the central square, and some tourists holding selfie sticks were excitedly discussing the next place to visit. The stage in the central square was covered with a red curtain, and below the stage were rows of seats. Outside the seats were winding walkways, and ticket collectors and security guards stood at the entrance of the walkway.
Gu Tianhai seldom comes to the central square because it is crowded and prone to theft.
"It's so cold, why don't you wear a scarf?" A couple in matching outfits were making a snowman in the square. When the boy found that the girl didn't have a scarf around her neck, he untied his own scarf and wrapped it around her neck. This intimate gesture reminded Gu Tianhai of yesterday - Li Hao also put a scarf on Yan Mo in such an intimate way.
"Tianhai, what are you thinking about?" Ye Zixin's voice brought Gu Tianhai back to his senses. Gu Tianhai was in a trance for a moment, smiled awkwardly, and continued walking forward.
For some reason, Gu Tianhai kept thinking about last night. It was something that had nothing to do with him, but he kept thinking about it.
A beeping sound came from Gu Tianhai's trouser pocket. Gu Tianhai took out his cell phone and checked text messages as he walked with Ye Zixin.
The text message was sent by Yan Mo. Before he opened the content, Gu Tianhai was planning to tell Yan Mo that he would not be home for dinner tonight. When he opened the message, he and Ye Zixin happened to be parked at the entrance. The screen showed two words: Help.
Help? Did something happen to Yan Mo? Are there bad guys at home?
Gu Tianhai thought about it with worry, and felt a little uneasy. He turned around and walked back without distraction. After getting into the taxi, he went straight to the villa, and even forgot to explain to Ye Zixin.
Ye Zixin, not knowing what was going on, stood at the entrance, watching the taxi disappear from her sight. It was a long time before she remembered to be angry.
"Gu Tianhai, where are you going!" Ye Zixin shouted at the disappearing figure, stamping her feet in anger.
The people around her gave her strange looks, and feeling ashamed, Ye Zixin left the central square in embarrassment.
After the taxi slowly stopped downstairs of the villa, Gu Tianhai paid the fare and ran upstairs in three or two steps.
Yan Mo was lying on the floor, wrapped in a quilt and unconscious. Gu Tianhai looked at her like a corpse and hurriedly ran forward to test her life form.
"Yan Mo? Yan Mo? Wake up." Gu Tianhai felt her breath under her nose. Her breathing was a little rapid and her temperature was a little high. Gu Tianhai put his hand on her forehead. Her temperature told Gu Tianhai that she had a fever.
"She was fine during the day, why did she suddenly have a fever? She must have caught a cold last night. What is this idiot doing squatting at the door of my room for no reason?" Gu Tianhai sighed helplessly and wanted to carry Yan Mo back to the sofa in one go. However, Gu Tianhai underestimated her weight and fell back to the ground before he could stand up.
"It turns out this guy is not light at all." Gu Tianhai sighed, and gathered his strength again to hold her horizontally. When Yan Mo left the ground, Gu Tianhai felt his arms tremble slightly because of the force. He carefully held Yan Mo and placed her on the sofa.
It seems that Yan Mo still had some consciousness and was able to walk when he was drunk last time, which caused him to misunderstand.
Yan Mo, whose consciousness was burned by her body temperature, could only feel someone walking around her. The cold towel absorbed the temperature of her forehead, and she could only let her consciousness outside her body observe everything. Everything in front of her seemed blurry.
Who is taking care of her at this time?
"Yan Mo, come and take some medicine to reduce fever." Gu Tianhai applied a cold towel to Yan Mo, covered her with a blanket, and went out to buy cold medicine. When he came back, the cold towel on Yan Mo's forehead had already reached a certain temperature.
He counted the number of pills, brought a cup of warm water, and carefully half-lifted Yan Mo, who was lying drowsy on the bed.
In Yan Mo's vague memory, Li Hao always took good care of her when she was sick. The fact that she was sick also made her mind a little confused, so she reacted instinctively.
"Asshole, don't bother me, get out of here!" Yan Mo overturned the hot water that Gu Tianhai brought and pushed Gu Tianhai away with all her strength. The glass shattered to the ground, Gu Tianhai trembled, and Yan Mo fell weakly back on the sofa.
Gu Tianhai took the cleaning tools and cleaned up the residue. Yan Mo lay there for a while with tears in her eyes: "Li Hao, why did you abandon me in the first place? Why..."
"Yan Mo, take a good look at who I am. I am Gu Tianhai, not that bastard who always makes you sad!" An inexplicable anger burned in Gu Tianhai's heart.
He was the one who was with her, but she always treated him as someone else. Was he just an insignificant person in her heart, a substitute for a jerk?
Gu Tianhai stepped forward and grabbed Yan Mo's arms, shaking them slightly, hoping that this would make her more sober and allow her to see clearly who he was.
"Why did you abandon me? Why did you tell lies over and over again? Why? Wuwu..." Yan Mo did not listen to Gu Tianhai's words. Tears kept falling from her eyes like beads with broken string.
Although she was weak and powerless, she still tried her best to push Gu Tianhai away, until her soft lips melted all the words.
Gu Tianhai suddenly came up and fiercely blocked Yan Mo's mouth. Hot tears were on his face. At that moment, he just wanted the idiot in front of him to stop and not mention the bastard who made her cry.
Tears and soft lips intertwined, Yan Mo closed her eyes with peace of mind, and the arm held by Gu Tianhai moved slightly and naturally fell on his waist.
When Gu Tianhai calmed down, he was naturally frightened by his own behavior. He hurriedly pushed Yan Mo away and stepped back a few steps. Yan Mo, who lost his support, fell headfirst onto the sofa again and continued to close his eyes and fell asleep.
"What on earth am I doing?" Gu Tianhai looked at Yan Mo lying on the sofa, his heart pounding. Before Yan Mo could wake up, he hurriedly put on his coat and ran out of the villa.
The wind with snow blowing on his face made him unusually sober. Gu Tianhai sat on a chair under a tree by the roadside, trying to calm his heartbeat.
Since when did everything about Yan Mo start to influence his emotions?
Gu Tianhai sat on the chair, hunched over and holding his head, his slender fingers running through his slightly long hair, his elbows supported by his knees. He stared blankly at the snowy ground beneath his feet, sorting out his disordered thoughts.
If the voice in his heart was correct, he should have fallen in love with Yan Mo.
But should I tell her?
After Yan Mo knows this, will he accept or refuse?
Gu Tianhai took a deep breath of cold air, looked up at the vast sky, not knowing what to do.
The next morning.
Gu Tianhai walked out of the supermarket. He bought some nourishing ingredients and planned to cook for Yan Mo.
On the way back, he kept thinking, if Yan Mo woke up and asked him about kissing her, how should he answer?
Should he tell Yan Mo that he liked her, or tell her that it was just an illusion she had when she was sick?
When Gu Tianhai walked to the door and was about to open it, he was surprised to find that the door was half-closed. Gu Tianhai stopped outside the door and heard the voices of Yaoyao and Li Hao from inside the house.
"Yan Mo, if I didn't have a key in your hand, no one would know that you died of illness here today!" Yaoyao said angrily. Because Yaoyao couldn't get through to Yan Mo's phone, she chose to open the door and come in directly.
"Yan Mo, you haven't answered my calls, so I was worried, so Yaoyao and I came to see you. I didn't expect you were sick. Why didn't you tell me that you were sick? You knew I would come to take care of you. You are such a fool." Li Hao's steady and magnetic voice came into Gu Tianhai's ears.
Through the crack in the door, Gu Tianhai saw Li Hao twisting a towel to apply to Yan Mo's forehead. Yan Mo seemed to have regained some consciousness, and her gaze at Li Hao pierced Gu Tianhai's pupils like a thorn.
That idiot must have thought that the person who had been taking care of her was Li Hao.
Perhaps, from the beginning to the end, he was the third party, a superfluous person.
Gu Tianhai lowered his eyes in disappointment. After putting the purchased ingredients outside the door, he turned and left.
"Yaoyao, if you want to go to work, just go. I will stay here to take care of Yan Mo." Li Hao, who was sitting on the edge of the sofa, raised his head and said gently.
"You just think that I'm too dazzling as a light bulb, right?" Yaoyao said, then walked towards the door with her handbag, and then said, "Then I'll leave first, you take good care of Yan Mo."
Although Yaoyao didn't like Li Hao very much, Li Hao made many explanations and confessions after coming back this time. Even if she really wanted to reject him, it should be decided by Yan Mo, not her. Moreover, she saw Yan Mo's sadness and grief in the years when Li Hao was away. Now that Li Hao is back, she naturally wants to help the two of them, and hopes that Li Hao's kindness to Yan Mo is sincere.
"Why is there a bag of food at the door?" Yaoyao saw the bag of fresh food when she walked out of the door. She remembered that she didn't see it when she came here. Could it be that Gu Tianhai came back? The junior tenant of Yan Mo's house?
"Yan Mo, Gu Tianhai seems to have bought some food and is standing at the door. Ask Li Hao to cook for you. I'm going to work first." Yaoyao brought the ingredients back from outside the door and then left Yan Mo's house.
Yan Mo looked at the bag of food, and the scene of Gu Tianhai kissing her that day suddenly emerged in her mind.
Could it be that the vague memory was not a dream? Before Li Hao and Yaoyao arrived, the person who had been taking care of her was Gu Tianhai?
Yan Mo looked towards the gate and lowered his eyes slightly, not knowing what he was thinking...
When Yan Mo was sick, Li Hao was always going in and out of her house on the pretext of taking care of her.
When Gu Tianhai came home from get off work every day, Li Hao had already prepared the meal. Li Hao, wearing his usual apron, showed a sly and unpredictable smile when he saw him, as if to say: I am the man of this house, now that I am back, you'd better be sensible and give up your seat.
Gu Tianhai had never eaten the food cooked by Li Hao. When Li Hao was around, Gu Tianhai would buy fast food or bread and eat in his room after get off work.
Although the sick Yan Mo didn't seem to like Li Hao coming in and out of her house, Yaoyao always wanted to help the two reconcile and always brought Li Hao over. In addition, Li Hao was now more "shameless" than before, so her general rejection could not hurt him at all.
Yan Mo often heard the sound of the door opening, not knowing whether she was waiting for Gu Tianhai or Li Hao. Whenever she saw Gu Tianhai push open the door and turn back to the room, her heart inexplicably became cold. Such indifference was in sharp contrast to Li Hao's enthusiasm, so when Yan Mo's fever subsided, she had a quarrel with Yaoyao. At that time, Gu Tianhai was in the room, and Yaoyao and Li Hao were in the hall.
"Yaoyao, if you still consider me your friend, don't bring this scumbag to my house all day long!" Yan Mo pointed at Li Hao, who was following Yaoyao with fruits in his hand. He was obviously stunned by Yan Mo's words.
"Yan Mo, are you sick and stupid? Who has been crying to me about the pain of a broken heart for two years? Who has been living in a daze? Who has been calling me to say they miss so-and-so? Now that the person you've been thinking about is back, I'm helping you out of kindness, why are you yelling at me!" Yaoyao is also a person with a bad temper.
"I don't miss it anymore. I just want to live my own life. Please don't show up anymore! Please leave my house!" Yan Mo pointed at the door and was hysterical. Gu Tianhai in the room held his breath and listened to the movement in the hall.
Yaoyao was stunned when she heard Yan Mo's words, and her originally angry mood quickly calmed down. She realized that she was doing something unnecessary and unpleasant. Although she was a little angry at Yan Mo's indifference, she also realized that she was "helping the evil".
Li Hao was clearly an unreliable person, but she still thought that he and Yan Mo could just quarrel and reconcile like they did in the past. She watched Yan Mo and Li Hao go through life, watched them quarrel, break up and get back together, and naively thought that the couple she once favored would go back to the past.
In fact, time has already widened the distance between them. As an outsider, Yaoyao is worried about them, but also feels ashamed of her own naivety and impulsiveness.
Yaoyao sighed, threw the key to the villa gently on the mat, and walked out of Yan Mo's house. Li Hao, who was ordered to leave, also lowered his eyes and left awkwardly.
The noise in the hall finally disappeared. After a while of silence, a soft sobbing sound suddenly reached Gu Tianhai's ears. After hesitating for a moment, Gu Tianhai opened the door and walked into the hall.
Yan Mo was sitting barefoot on the carpet next to the sofa in the hall. She curled up in a small corner, half buried her head and sobbed quietly. Gu Tianhai didn't know whether she was sad because Li Hao left or because she quarreled with Yaoyao.
When Gu Tianhai walked in front of Yan Mo, Yan Mo smiled and raised her head, but the tears in her eyes fell uncontrollably and splashed on her arms. Gu Tianhai sighed slightly, squatted down and rubbed her head.
"Has anyone ever told you that you look particularly ugly when you cry?"
"Gu Tianhai, do you have any sympathy?" Yan Mo, who had recovered his vitality in an instant, grabbed the pillow and smashed it at Gu Tianhai like a wooden stake. Seeing Yan Mo's full vitality again, Gu Tianhai couldn't help but smile.
At this moment, a gurgling sound came from Yan Mo's stomach. Gu Tianhai looked at Yan Mo who suddenly paused, and finally burst out laughing.
"You are really a pig that can never be fed enough." After laughing, Gu Tianhai turned around to check the refrigerator.
There were still a lot of ingredients in the refrigerator that Yaoyao had brought. Gu Tianhai picked a few and went into the kitchen to cook. Yan Mo leaned against the Japanese sliding door of the kitchen, half of her body out, and looked at Gu Tianhai, who exuded the aura of a house husband.
"Xiao Hai, I want to eat chicken stewed with mushrooms." Yan Mo blinked her clear big eyes, then walked happily to the dining table and sat down waiting to be "fed".
Gu Tianhai, who was still busy in the kitchen, sighed again: Yan Mo's mood really changes from time to time.
Time is like running water, passing by in a hurry. The New Year's Day after Christmas was more deserted than before. Yan Mo, who originally wanted to count down with Gu Tianhai, made a lot of preparations, but Gu Tianhai went to the West District for several days because of overtime work at the company, and missed the countdown time with Yan Mo. After that, Yan Mo was busy again because of the review of the drawings.
At the end of the year, everyone was so busy that they forgot the time. Yaoyao, who hadn't contacted Yan Mo for a long time, gradually forgot about the previous quarrel and cunningly told Yan Mo that she had a spare key to her house. Yan Mo was busy discussing publishing matters with the editor-in-chief and didn't chat with Yaoyao for a long time. Yaoyao muttered a few words and then started working hard for the year-end bonus.
Ye Zixin was still angry about the previous incident, so she didn't pester Gu Tianhai as much as before. In addition, due to work reasons, Ye Zixin was transferred to another project team. Gu Tianhai was relieved that he could no longer hear Ye Zixin's sticky voice.
This year's Spring Festival came earlier than usual. It felt like spring would arrive soon before the weather got completely cold. The heavy snow seemed to become much warmer in the red atmosphere.
Yan Mo and Gu Tianhai, who had been busy for nearly a month, were pasting couplets at the door. Because they did not choose the couplets according to the size of the door when they bought them, they felt that the couplets were too small after they had pasted them.
"Xiao Hai, do you think our couplets are too small?"
"It seems a little bit." Gu Tianhai, who was still standing on the ladder, also took a look and nodded in approval.
"Never mind, let's go buy some groceries. Today is Chinese New Year and we're going to make leek dumplings." Yan Mo's eyes lit up when she mentioned food.
Gu Tianhai came down from the ladder, washed his hands that were stained with red stains, and walked towards the supermarket with Yan Mo.
The heavy snow on the road covered the original appearance of the city. Sanitation workers were sweeping the snow on the ground with brooms. The warm sunshine sprinkled on people, and the snow on the street gradually melted.
Yan Mo jumped and skipped on the snowflakes on the road like a naughty child.
"Ouch!" Yan Mo stumbled over a stone and fell forward. Gu Tianhai hurriedly grabbed her wrist and pulled him back. Yan Mo bumped into his chest and blinked at his red cheeks.
People on the street cast their eyes over, talking about how the couple was showing off their affection in public. Gu Tianhai quickly pushed Yan Mo away, and the two continued walking towards the supermarket.
The sudden silence made the atmosphere a little strange. After a long time, Yan Mo couldn't help laughing and teasing Gu Tianhai, saying that he was like a young high school student. Gu Tianhai blushed, and after entering the supermarket, he hurriedly bought a bunch of fresh ingredients and quickly walked to the cashier to line up to pay.
"Xiao Hai, when you blush, you look like a shy little girl, haha." Yan Mo smiled heartlessly and continued to tease. The people queuing behind them couldn't help laughing at them.
"Your girlfriend is very cute." The cashier looked at Gu Tianhai and Yan Mo with a simple smile. Gu Tianhai paused and wanted to explain, but Yan Mo behind him had already put her hand on his shoulder and leaned out.
"I'm super cute."
Gu Tianhai did not refute, but walked ahead with the packed ingredients in his hand. Yan Mo also followed him happily, heading home.
"Xiao Hai, why do you blush so easily?"
"Xiao Hai, why are you walking so fast?"
"Xiao Hai, do you like me?"
Yan Mo, who was chattering nonstop, suddenly bumped into Gu Tianhai's back. Gu Tianhai suddenly stopped, lowered his eyes slightly, and his hand holding the eco-bag suddenly tightened. Just as he was about to turn around and express his feelings, an electric car slowly stopped beside them.
The owner of the electric car honked to get their attention.
"Yan Mo." The one who called Yan Mo was a SF Express courier riding an electric bike.
As a senior homegirl, Yan Mo receives express deliveries very frequently. The most familiar route for the guys in charge of express delivery in this area is to Yan Mo's home.
"I was just about to deliver a package to you, but I didn't expect to see you here."
The SF Express deliveryman skillfully tore off the barcode on the express box, then handed the package to Yan Mo and gave her a pen for her to sign.
Yan Mo remembered that she hadn't bought anything recently, so why did the courier boy stop her?
She was a little confused and looked at the address in the courier address column. It was indeed her address information. In order not to hinder the courier's work, she had to accept the courier first.
Gu Tianhai was not curious about what Yan Mo bought. After all, since he moved into this villa, it was not the alarm clock but the courier delivery man that woke him up during his nap every time.
Yan Mo and Gu Tianhai continued walking towards home. She curiously opened the express package and a delicate envelope slipped out of it with the words "Invitation" written on it. Gu Tianhai squatted down to help her pick up the invitation letter that had fallen on the ground and handed it to her.
"Invitation to a model exhibition?" After Yan Mo opened the invitation, his expression suddenly dimmed.
The person who sent this invitation was model designer Li Hao. Yan Mo stood there in silence, and the hand holding the invitation gradually tightened, as if he wanted to crush the card.
Since when did Li Hao's name become the reason for her uneasiness? This uneasiness was particularly strong when she woke up from a dream in the middle of the night. It seemed to imprison her and prevent her from moving forward.
"Who wants to go to the model exhibition?" Yan Mo lowered his head and walked towards the trash can.
"Yan Mo, avoiding the past is like trapping yourself in a cage of memory. People inside can't get out, and people outside can't get in." Gu Tianhai reached out and snatched the invitation letter when she was about to throw it away.
He looked down at her seriously, as if he had instilled all his courage into her. At the same time, his seriousness was in sharp contrast to her retreat, and her cowardice was clearly visible in his eyes.
"I'll go with you."
Yan Mo looked up in surprise and looked at Gu Tianhai who had a determined look on his face.
This was the first time she saw the masculinity of this little brat. The boy whom she had always regarded as a little brat actually had such courage.
Yan Mo couldn't help but slightly raise the corners of his lips and nodded silently in agreement.
After the Chinese New Year, the shopping malls are still hung with various red lanterns. After the Chinese New Year, more and more people start to come to the shopping malls.
Gu Tianhai dragged Yan Mo into the fashion store and gave her different styles of skirts to try on. The reason they were here was because when Gu Tianhai opened the door after get off work, Yan Mo was wearing a middle school student-style sportswear and said to him, "Xiao Hai, I'm ready. We can go to the model exhibition!"
Gu Tianhai, who had specially bought a suit, looked at Yan Mo in disbelief. He was shocked by her dress and was at a loss for a long time.
Could it be that Yan Mo mistook the model exhibition for a comic exhibition?
In response, Yan Mo replied righteously: "This is already the best outfit in my wardrobe."
Of course, Gu Tianhai ignored her and still forbade her to dress like that to go to the model exhibition. Yan Mo was disappointed and chose clothes again, and Gu Tianhai was surprised to find that Yan Mo's wardrobe was either old lady clothes or one-piece pajamas, and even some role-playing costumes that had been dusted for many years.
Sure enough, this sportswear is the best one...
"What can I use to save you?" Gu Tianhai looked at the clothes Yan Mo took out, holding his forehead and sighing.
With only two hours left before the model exhibition, he had to drag Yan Mo to buy a more "formal" outfit.
Yan Mo, who never dressed up much, followed Gu Tianhai, holding several dresses piled in her arms. Gu Tianhai was still choosing a suitable coat, and after choosing, he pushed Yan Mo to the fitting room to try it on.
"Xiao Hai, I think the clothes I wear on a daily basis are very good." Yan Mo said without confidence, and Gu Tianhai paused and sighed helplessly.
"Since this model exhibition is distributed in the form of invitations, it means that the people who come to participate are not ordinary people. You should choose a set of clothes suitable for attending public occasions. I don't want to be stared at and pointed at by everyone in a while." After Gu Tianhai made his choice, he pushed Yan Mo into the fitting room, "Take them all and try them on. I'll wait for you outside."
After Yan Mo entered the fitting room, she began a long journey of trying on clothes. Gu Tianhai, who was waiting outside, was a little bored. He wandered around the store casually. Finally, he stopped by the transparent glass door.
Outside the door is a bustling street, with hurried pedestrians and gradually lit neon lights, which constitute the most common night scene in the city.
A familiar figure walked out from a shopping mall not far away.
Gu Tianhai's scattered eyes focused on that figure. Through the glass door, he saw Li Hao walking across the street with another girl. They were holding shopping bags of different sizes in their hands, and their faces were filled with the sweetness of love.
Who is the girl next to Li Hao?
For a moment, a bold idea flashed through Gu Tianhai's mind: Li Hao might be playing both sides.
But such thoughts soon disappeared. After all, Li Hao entered the society earlier than himself and had experienced social baptism. It was normal to have a few friends of the opposite sex at work, right?
"Xiao Hai, does this outfit look good on me?" Yan Mo's voice brought Gu Tianhai back to his senses.
When Gu Tianhai turned around, Yan Mo was adjusting the hem of her skirt. The purple embroidered dress made her look more noble, and paired with a white long-sleeved short jacket, she looked like a lady.
It was the first time that Gu Tianhai saw Yan Mo dressed like this, and his heart beat faster.
"This suit suits you very well." Gu Tianhai smiled lightly and approved of the outfit. Yan Mo, who finally didn't have to try on clothes anymore, happily put them on and went to pay.
Gu Tianhai was unsure about the relationship between Li Hao and the strange woman, so he did not tell Yan Mo what he saw. After Yan Mo paid, he took her to buy a pair of frosted silver high heels.
Afterwards, the two called a taxi and rushed to the location on the invitation letter.
The taxi stopped at the destination. Gu Tianhai, who got off first, gentlemanly held the door for Yan Mo and lent his hand to help her out.
Yan Mo raised his head and looked at the buildings under the deep night sky.
The model exhibition is located in the city's art expo, a building with reflective glass exterior walls. Lamps embedded in the ground project light beams of different colors onto the building. The towering building looks particularly charming in the night with light snowflakes.
Yan Mo nervously pulled Gu Tianhai's arm and looked up at the building with flashing lights in confusion.
The taxi behind them drove away slowly, and people holding invitations walked past them, chatting and laughing, discussing about the exhibition or their own affairs.
Gu Tianhai took the hand of Yan Mo, who was standing still, and shook her hand, giving her the courage to move forward.
Under the light, Gu Tianhai was wearing a mature grey suit, and his profile was outlined by the light with a firmer line than before. Today, he was like a knight who cut through thorns for her, escorting her to the top of the palace.
Yan Mo withdrew his gaze with peace of mind, took a step forward, and the two of them walked into the model exhibition hall together.
The moment she stepped into the model exhibition hall, all of Yan Mo's courage disappeared. There were people from all walks of life in the exhibition hall, and there were also many so-called celebrities. Yan Mo didn't know the people here, but judging from their good clothes, they were all from the upper class under the bustling lights. Yan Mo, who had never participated in social activities, had an inexplicable uneasiness, as if the presence of these people made her look particularly insignificant.
"Xiao Hai, why don't we... go back? I..." Yan Mo was holding Gu Tianhai's hand and trembling slightly. This place made her feel scared and nervous.
Gu Tianhai turned to him, smiled, held her hand tightly, and said, "I'm here, you don't have to be afraid."
All the trembling disintegrated into endless tenderness when those words came out. Yan Mo looked at such a smile, and felt inexplicably palpitating and at ease. She raised her head and smiled confidently in return.
Gu Tianhai was slightly stunned, smiled lightly, took her hand and walked into the crowd.
This huge exhibition room is filled with models of various buildings and models of various character designs. Yan Mo gradually blends into the environment in front of her, looking at the models designed by Li Hao, and feels deeply about his growth and changes in the past two years.
It turned out that she was the only one who had been standing still.
Li Hao, who was holding a glass of red wine and chatting with the guests, soon saw Yan Mo in the crowd, and Gu Tianhai holding Yan Mo's hand. He couldn't help but frown slightly, put down the glass and walked in that direction.
"Yan Mo, I knew you would come."
Li Hao put his arm around Yan Mo's shoulders and took her away from Gu Tianhai with a smile. But when Gu Tianhai was about to pull Yan Mo back, Ye Zixin's voice suddenly came from not far away.
Ye Zixin was invited as the daughter of a builder. However, she didn't know that Gu Tianhai would also show up, so when she saw Gu Tianhai, she hurried over in her high heels.
"Tianhai, are you here to see me?"
Ye Zixin confidently took Gu Tianhai's arm, with a strange light flashing in her eyes. This light made everything around her dim, and it was like a glass of cold water poured over Yan Mo.
"Yan Mo, I have something to show you, come with me."
At this time, Li Hao put his arm around Yan Mo's shoulders and walked in another direction.
When Yan Mo turned around to look at Gu Tianhai, she saw that Ye Zixin was holding Gu Tianhai's arm tightly and pulling him away. When she turned her sight back, she had already stopped in front of a large model with Li Hao.
This is a European-style wooden house model, with a layer of glass on the outside and white snow on the ground, like a crystal ball that would snow if turned upside down. Seeing this, the memories of college days flooded into Yan Mo's mind like a tidal wave.
"Yan Mo, I will hold an exhibition in the future and design a happy house for you. Our home will also be like that in the future."
Li Hao, wearing a simple T-shirt, stood on the hill behind the school. He faced the sunset and talked about the future. Yan Mo smiled happily, nodded, and waited for that day to come.
But it turns out that some promises, once fulfilled, no longer feel the same as before.
"Li Hao, I have something to tell you. In fact, we have already..."
When Yan Mo was about to express her feelings, the exhibition staff suddenly called Li Hao away. As the matter was of great importance, Li Hao had to temporarily leave, leaving Yan Mo alone waiting in front of the model.
Yan Mo looked at his back as he left with the staff and smiled sarcastically.
Li Hao is still the same as before. As long as something more important than her happens, he will choose to let her go first, so what is there for her to let go of now?
Yan Mo looked at the wooden house model that symbolized happiness, then turned around to find Gu Tianhai.
"Tianhai, I was really angry when you left me alone before. You didn't even apologize to me and acted as if nothing happened."
"I'm sorry, I forgot by mistake. I had something urgent to do that day, so I left..."
"Since you showed up here today to find me, I will reluctantly forgive you."
"Ye Zixin, actually I'm here today because..."
Gu Tianhai was a little embarrassed when Ye Zixin dragged him to the dessert area. He felt a little embarrassed for leaving Ye Zixin alone in the central square. Later, he forgot about it because of work. He didn't expect to meet her here today. It was just that she seemed to have misunderstood something.
When Gu Tianhai was about to explain clearly, Ye Zixin leaned over and kissed his face.
Yan Mo stood not far away and suddenly stopped. Ye Zixin glanced at her with her peripheral vision and smiled softly, as if to declare her dominance. Yan Mo stepped back step by step, and turned away when Gu Tianhai did not see her gloomy expression.
There was a small open-air venue downstairs of the model exhibition. Yan Mo sat alone on a bench nearby, breathing in the cold air. The scene of Ye Zixin kissing Gu Tianhai kept playing in her mind. The look in Ye Zixin's eyes also made her feel ashamed.
In Ye Zixin's eyes, she was probably a third party, right? But why was she unhappy?
Yan Mo sighed, feeling confused. She came here to officially break up with Li Hao, but she was unhappy because of Gu Tianhai's matter. What happened to her?
"Yan Mo? Why did you come downstairs?" Li Hao's voice came from not far away. When Yan Mo raised her head, Li Hao had already walked in front of her. After finishing his work, Li Hao carefully took off his coat and put it on Yan Mo's shoulders, worried that she would catch a cold. "It's a bit cold outside, don't catch a cold again."
Yan Mo's eyes followed Li Hao, he smiled gently and sat beside her. They both looked at the snowflakes on the ground and were silent for a moment.
"Yan Mo, actually I have something to say to you." After a long silence, Li Hao spoke first, "In fact, I have been working very hard to make myself a better person, so that when I come back, I can give you a happy life and support you. You once said that no matter what I do, you will support me and believe in me. If I tell you that I miss you every day when I am abroad, will you believe me? I have my reasons for not contacting you, but I can't tell you. Yan Mo, I still love you as much as before."
Yan Mo held the hem of her skirt tightly, listening to Li Hao's touching love words. She didn't know whether she should believe the man in front of her, nor did she know whether she should let go of the past or accept it again.
A voice was buzzing in my head: Yan Mo, please forgive him. Maybe there is really a reason why he can't contact you. Maybe you can start over.
"Yan Mo, can you give me another chance? This time I will never make you sad again, and I will never leave you alone again. Let's start over, okay? Give each other a chance." When Li Hao looked at Yan Mo, that look made her lose all ability to think, and the palpitations that had disappeared came back again.
She stared blankly at Li Hao who was getting closer and closer to her, unable to say no. Her body seemed to be under a spell, unable to move, and could only let the man in front of her gradually approach. Finally, when their lips touched, she gradually recalled the desires that had once disappeared.
I want to end a relationship , but I am afraid of losing it completely. Humans are such contradictory creatures, they are afraid of being alone and being hurt.
When Gu Tianhai was standing by the window looking at the night view, he happened to see Li Hao kissing Yan Mo. A surge of anger surged in his heart like a flame. He turned and left, and Ye Zixin, who did not see that scene, followed him to another place...

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