Those years when I missed you alone, those years when I loved you deeply, one thought lasts more than one year, one love lasts a lifetime.

The long memories are like a slow-motion movie.
No matter how long it is, there is always a closing ceremony. If it has started, it must end. So, when the lights gradually dimmed, when I was the only reluctant audience member left in the theater, all the sweet memories turned into bitterness, and my heart was like a glass of cold water, bleak and cold.
There is no need to struggle hard to break free, all the ups and downs in the process will disappear without a trace.
It was like an absurd and bizarre dream. Every frame of the bizarre scene that was clearly remembered, or the increasingly obvious chill that surrounded the body, were so real that they made people sink into it.
Yes, Lin Qianliu just wanted to fall into a deep sleep and stay in the memories forever.
However, whenever Lin Qianliu wanted to reach out and touch him, Luo Qubai in his dream would always shatter and disappear in an instant, like smoke dissipating without leaving any trace.
Only the tear marks left on her cheeks cruelly revealed everything in every late night when her thoughts were in a turmoil, telling her coldly that everything was just an illusion and she could not linger on.
This time, it was probably just another disappointing dream.
Lin Qianliu thought about it, took a deep breath, and covered his eyes with his trembling hands.
She was hiding the tears in her eyes, and refusing to be deceived by the dream out of a guilty conscience.
She had never thought that she would see Luo Qubai again in such a situation. She was happy about the reunion, but also afraid that it was just a dream.
She was caught off guard and found it difficult to even breathe.
On the stage, Luo Qubai's speech was coming to an end.
Behind the stage, Lin Qianliu was still in a state of panic. Qin Shu, who had been standing silently behind her and accompanying her, did not come forward after all.
When Qin Shu received the list of replaced student representatives, he frowned and became alert.
Luo Qubai - this is a name that Lin Qianliu has been thinking about for many years, and he is also his love rival who has existed and not existed for the past two years. As expected, before he had time to think about it, Lin Qianliu was already panicking.
"Host? Where's the host?"
Just as Qin Shu was staring at Lin Qianliu, an anxious voice came from behind him. Qin Shu turned around and saw the junior student in charge of stage control running towards him in a panic. After searching for a while, he finally locked onto Qin Shu and immediately smiled.
"Senior Qin! Senior Lin!" The junior student breathed a sigh of relief after standing in front of the two. "Why are you all hiding? I was scared to death! I thought you eloped! Um, the student representative is about to finish speaking, you have to go to the waiting room."
The other party was joking, so Qin Shu gave him enough face, smiled, and said, "Okay, we'll be there right away."
After saying this, he turned his head and looked at Lin Qianliu through the mirror in front of her. At this moment, Lin Qianliu was still in an out-of-body state, with a pair of big empty eyes. He sighed slightly.
After taking two or three steps forward, Qin Shu was already standing beside Lin Qianliu, but she was still unaware.
"Qianliu." He placed his hand on her shoulder and called her softly and considerately, "It's time to go on stage."
"Ah? Oh..." Lin Qianliu came back to his senses, turned his face away in panic, and carefully wiped away the sad tears with the back of his hand.
Qin Shu didn't say anything else, nor did he expose her pretending to be strong. He just held her hand, smiled and pulled her up from the chair.
"Wait a minute!" As Qin Shu dragged him toward the stage, Lin Qianliu asked him with a guilty conscience, "Is my makeup smudged?"
"Don't worry, you're still very beautiful." Qin Shu smiled, his eyes filled with doting, but his pace did not slow down.
Lin Qianliu tried to calm down, took a few deep breaths, and soon appeared at the edge of the stage. The next second, Luo Qubai's tall and straight silhouette on the stage caught Lin Qianliu's eyes and settled in her heart.
At this time, Luo Qubai had just finished his speech. After saying "Thank you everyone", he bowed deeply to the audience.
The whole audience immediately became excited.
"Luo Qubai——"
Shouts, screams and applause rang out at the same time; even the autumn wind was repelled by the atmosphere that had inexplicably reached a climax.
The whole world was cheering for him, but Luo Qubai on the stage remained indifferent.
He was as calm and collected as ever, as if he could not see or hear anything, and he turned and left with an expressionless face.
It was not until he met a pair of clear eyes that contained all kinds of emotions that the cold expression on Luo Qubai's face softened for a moment.
When they looked at each other, a whole century seemed to have passed.
A mist rose from Lin Qianliu's eyes, and the pain was like a ferocious thorn that extended to the deepest part of his heart.
It hurts, my heart is aching so much.
Lin Qianliu gritted his teeth and pursed his lips, not noticing the strangeness in Luo Qubai's expression.
The next second, when Luo Qubai moved his lips slightly, Lin Qianliu took a breath, took a step, shifted his gaze, and resolutely walked past him.
At that moment, Luo Qubai's whole body stiffened, and the joy hidden in his eyes gradually lost its color.
He didn't know that Lin Qianliu was just afraid. She was afraid that if she didn't be more resolute, she would cry out loud on this stage where everyone was watching. She finally calmed down and would never allow herself to collapse like this.
Emotions were hastily packed and stuffed deep into the heart.
Lin Qianliu forced a smile and began his closing remarks: "It is true that listening to your words is worth ten years of study. I wonder what the younger students in the audience have learned..."
Just as Lin Qianliu was speaking with forced calmness, Qin Shu beside him quietly cast his gaze towards the edge of the stage.
There, Luo Qubai was slowly walking down the stage. His right foot was a little lame, and his whole body was shaking slightly when he walked. Qin Shu couldn't help but frowned, then quickly retracted his gaze and focused on hosting.
In fact, Qin Shu had noticed Luo Qubai's right foot as early as when he came on stage.
However, at that time, Lin Qianliu was stuck because of Luo Qubai's name on the list. He could not pay too much attention to Luo Qubai and could only rush to the stage to rescue Lin Qianliu. The speculation in his heart remained and was just confirmed.
He was not sure whether Lin Qianliu had noticed Luo Qubai's feet, but he was very concerned about Luo Qubai's defects.
Time passed quickly, Qin Shu and Lin Qianliu gave their final summary, and the welcome party ended successfully amid the cheers of the audience.
It was exactly eight o'clock in the evening.
The crowd dispersed, but the staff behind the scenes still had to clean up the mess.
When Qin Shu changed his clothes and was about to go look for Lin Qianliu, the director of the Sports Department who was directing the work put his hand on his shoulder, pointed at the red banner with white characters in the center of the stage, and said with a wicked smile: "Brother, I can't spare any help for the time being, this job can't be done without you."
Since the other person was ten centimeters shorter than Qin Shu, this "arm in arm" look was very funny.
Qin Shu looked down at the other person, and with a twitch of his lips, he said with a frivolous smile and a gentle tone, "You are just a manpower."
Obviously, the other party was hurt by this seemingly harmless remark, and he gritted his teeth and said, "If I were as tall as you, would I still need you?"
The teasing had the desired effect. Qin Shu shrugged, and the arc of pleasure on the corners of his mouth widened a little: "Haha, I'll do it, I'll do it."
With his tall stature, Qin Shu soon assisted others in easily taking down the banner hanging in the center of the stage.
Mission accomplished, Qin Shu, who was obsessed with Lin Qianliu, prepared to leave quietly while the Minister of Sports was not paying attention.
However, just after taking two or three steps, the carefree conversation between the two girls in front of him came into his ears accurately. Qin Shu, who wanted to pass the other party, could not help but slow down his pace when he heard the three words "Luo Qubai".
"The photo of Luo Qubai giving a speech was posted on Weibo. He's so handsome!"
"Let me see, let me see, this picture is so handsome, he has the aura of a male lead in an idol drama! I declare that Senior Qin Shu is no longer my idol from tonight!"
"No, you should still like Senior Qin Shu. Don't compete with me for Luo Qubai."
"Senior Qin only has eyes for Senior Lin. Sigh, I really can't have a good secret crush on her. It just so happens that here comes the prince-level Luo Qubai."
"He is more than a prince, he is a top student prince!"
"You seem to have inside information!"
"It's not really an inside story. Maybe you didn't notice it. This morning, our department just posted Luo Qubai's relevant information on the wall newspaper."
"I've been on leave for several days and just returned to school in the afternoon, so how could I notice it? Tell me quickly." The girl's voice was tinged with gossip and her tone rose several decibels.
"He was originally studying at Columbia University in the United States. He had excellent grades in every subject. You will know this if you ask around. The professors at the school all paid special attention to him. However, I am really curious. He was doing well at Columbia University and I heard that he had a bright future. I don't know why he suddenly returned to China. I heard that he gave up good retention conditions abroad in order to return to China."
"Is this true? I was wondering why the school suddenly changed the speaker. He must have a complicated background."
"Yes, the professional papers he wrote in high school were published in internationally renowned academic journals, which was a sensation."
"Wow, that's amazing! I didn't even know what I was doing in high school."
"Can you compare with him?" The girl rolled her eyes at him unhappily, then thought of Luo Qubai's biggest fatal flaw, shook her head and said regretfully, "What a pity, even the most perfect person has flaws."
"You mean his feet..."
"Yes, his right foot seems to be lame."
"Ah! No wonder when I saw him walking just now..." Another girl couldn't help but gasp and frowned and asked, "How did he get injured?"
"I don't know. It's still a mystery, but..."
The discussion continued, but Qin Shu no longer had the heart to eavesdrop.
He kept thinking back to the surprised, overwhelmed and confused look on Lin Qianliu's face after she saw the changed list. He had only seen the name on the list a second earlier than her. Luo Qubai, that was a name so familiar that it could be described as thunderous. Qin Shu had heard it countless times from Lin Qianliu.
Lin Qianliu had never concealed the existence of Luo Qubai. Her feelings for Luo Qubai were as persistent as when she first met him.
Even though Luo Qubai left without saying goodbye and left her alone.
Qin Shu had never imagined in what kind of scenario he would meet this love rival one day.
When his love rival returned and Qin Shu, who had once ignored Luo Qubai, thought of the signal "Luo Qubai is back", he became a little panicked.
He knew very well that Lin Qianliu's heart was still occupied by Luo Qubai. Luo Qubai was an irreplaceable part and also the biggest obstacle for him and Lin Qianliu to be together.
Qin Shu cared more about Luo Qubai's existence than he imagined, including his foot injury.
When he saw Luo Qubai limping on and off the stage, and when he knew that he was lame, Qin Shu made a judgment on his own - Luo Qubai had lost the qualifications to stand beside Lin Qianliu.
Among the countless moments when Lin Qianliu was obsessed with the memory of Luo Qubai, there were one or two moments when he thought about quitting.
He thought that if Luo Qubai came back, if Luo Qubai swore to never let Lin Qianliu down again, then he might be able to withdraw willingly.
However, how can a disabled Luo Qubai bring happiness to Lin Qianliu?
He has been with Lin Qianliu for two years, and his only wish is that she can be happy, but he will not allow himself to give Lin Qianliu to a disabled boy who cannot protect her.
Thinking of this, Qin Shu raised his head, and a hint of determination flashed in his dark pupils. This time, he was going to fight for it no matter what!
"Senior Qianliu, you are so happy!"
As Lin Qianliu walked out of the venue, a slightly familiar voice came from the side. She was stunned for a moment and stopped.
Following the voice, Lin Qianliu vaguely remembered that the other party was the schoolgirl from the Arts Department who helped her put on makeup at the party. At this moment, the other party was winking , as if hinting at something.
Even the other junior who was holding the arm of the junior from the Arts Department followed suit and said another joke: "I really envy you guys. I wish I could meet such a loving and considerate partner."
Lin Qianliu was confused and didn't understand what the other party meant.
Seeing that she was still in a daze, the junior from the Arts Department pointed at her as a hint.
Lin Qianliu turned her head slightly, her sight gradually moving in the direction the other party was pointing, and then she saw Qin Shu.
At this moment, Qin Shu was leaning against the wall three meters away, lowering his head and half-squinting his eyes, as if he was thinking about something. His whole body seemed to be covered with a layer of soft light by the cold light.
Lin Qianliu looked at him, his face expressionless.
The two schoolgirls next to them were understanding and said with a smile, "Then we won't bother you anymore. We'll leave first and see you later!"
Then, without waiting for Lin Qianliu to say anything, the two of them talked and laughed in low voices and slowly walked away.
Hearing the unusual movement, Qin Shu slowly turned his head and happened to meet the eyes of the two school girls. Then, he received a "come on" look from them. He blinked in response and walked towards Lin Qianliu who was standing there stupidly.
"Qianliu."
When he walked in front of Lin Qianliu, he posed deliberately, with a gentle and doting smile between his eyebrows.
Lin Qianliu frowned slightly, ignoring his "pretentiousness" and asked, "Why are you still here?"
She never liked the feeling of makeup left on her face, so she rushed to the bathroom to remove her makeup as soon as the party ended. The time she spent was enough for Qin Shu to change several sets of clothes, so she thought Qin Shu had left long ago. But as soon as she asked the question, she felt something was wrong. After all, she had been waiting like this for the past two years.
"Waiting for you. The teacher said that everyone has worked hard, and in order to reward the students who have worked hard to organize this party, he decided to treat everyone to a meal." Qin Shu still smiled smugly, and then, as if he noticed the retreat in the other party's eyes, he immediately added, "As the host, how can you miss this celebration banquet?"
"I..." The words that were about to come out of his mouth were abruptly cut off. Lin Qianliu looked at the other party's face that was beginning to act like a spoiled child, waved his hands helplessly, and said, "I didn't say I wouldn't go."
"Oh?" Qin Shu looked at her suspiciously, a smile on his face, "So you agree to go?"
Lin Qianliu glanced at him and realized that he had fallen into the opponent's trap, so he simply ignored him and raised his foot to leave.
"Hey, hey, didn't you agree? Why are you ignoring me again? They said that if I don't bring you there, they will post all kinds of ugly photos of me during rehearsals on the school's official Weibo..." Qin Shu followed Lin Qianliu relentlessly, even using the threat of the student union president as an excuse, pretending to be helpless and said, "So, you have to go this time, my dear Queen Qianliu."
Hearing this, Lin Qianliu couldn't help but burst out laughing when she thought of those ugly photos that the student union president had shared with her as a flattery.
"Now that you mention it, I think it would be more fun if I don't go." Lin Qianliu blinked, with a hint of gloating.
The development of things suddenly went out of his control. Qin Shu was stunned for half a second and had no choice but to decide to "perform" another script.
He suddenly raised his voice, grabbed Lin Qianliu's hand, and begged for mercy pitifully: "My aunt, my queen, my little angel, my little fairy, you can't just stand by and watch me die! Even for the sake of our two years of revolutionary friendship, you can't just stand by and watch me die!"
"Your aunt, the Queen, the little angel, just wants to watch the fire from the other side of the river." Lin Qianliu shook off Qin Shu's hand without any hesitation, looking at the other's depressed expression with interest.
"Don't be like this, my dear Qianliu." Qin Shu grabbed her hand again in a flash.
A boy who was 1.8 meters tall was actually hunching over and pretending to be a weak woman. Lin Qianliu couldn't help but cover his mouth, pretending to be disgusted, and pushed him away with disgust.
"you're disgusting!"
"Go save me, and I won't be so disgusted with you."
“Qin Shu…” Unable to get rid of Qin Shu who was clinging to him like a dog-skin plaster, Lin Qianliu was helpless and could only compromise, “Let’s go, let’s go.”
"Thank you, Your Majesty the Queen!"
"This won't happen again!"
"Yes, as ordered..."
The two of them walked out of the school along the school road while joking.
The celebration banquet was held at a restaurant near the school, which took fifteen minutes to walk from the school gate. When the two of them stepped into a private room in the restaurant, they once again became the target of everyone's endless teasing.
"Senior Qin, you really lived up to everyone's expectations."
The first person to speak was a junior from the Arts Department, the same girl who did Lin Qianliu's makeup. She looked at the two of them with interest. She had always been optimistic about Qin Shu and Lin Qianliu, a perfect match.
"Qianliu just gave me a favor." Qin Shu looked at Lin Qianliu's face with an expression of "here we go again" and "I can't stand it" and replied with a smile.
He doesn't mind at all that the misunderstanding continues.
"When has Senior Sister Qianliu ever shown favor to you? It was always because of someone else's favor." The junior brother who came over did not notice Lin Qianliu's depressed mood and interrupted.
"As expected, only Qin Shu can invite Lin Qianliu!" The next person to speak was the Minister of Physical Education.
"Minister, don't say that. If it were me, I would also agree to Senior Qin and not you." As the Minister of Physical Education finished his words, his junior high school sister in his own department gave him a critical hit.
Immediately, the whole audience burst into laughter.
"Alright, alright, are you guys annoying? You just make fun of us every day. If you keep doing this, Qianliu won't come next time." Amidst the laughter, Qin Shu calmly tried to cover up the situation before Lin Qianliu could clarify. In the eyes of others, this became a drama of Lin Qianliu being "shy" and Qin Shu "protecting" him.
“Oh, Senior Sister, we were just joking.” Because Lin Qianliu’s image of a cold goddess was deeply rooted in everyone’s mind, the junior brother who just interrupted was afraid of making the other party unhappy, so he carefully asked the two of them to take a seat, “Come on, come on, please take a seat.”
Qin Shu patted his junior fellow apprentice on the shoulder with an expression that said "well done".
Afterwards, after Lin Qianliu took his seat, Qin Shu also rushed to sit next to Lin Qianliu.
Just when the junior brother asked Lin Qianliu whether he wanted juice or beer, the door of the private room was pushed open. The next second, Mr. Luo, who was in charge of the party, walked into the private room. Before everyone had time to greet him, someone followed him in.
It’s Luo Qubai.
No one expected that such a "big-name" guest would come to the celebration banquet, and the whole place fell silent.
"Why, no one welcomes me?" Teacher Luo looked around with a smile and joked.
"That's impossible!" The president of the student union rushed to greet them, half flattering and half sincerely saying, "No one expected that Mr. Luo would bring Luo Qubai here. This is such a great surprise!"
"You, you only know how to say nice things." Teacher Luo rolled his eyes at him in disdain, and then introduced him to everyone with full energy, "Students, this is Luo Qubai. He just gave a speech on behalf of the freshmen on the stage. You have all seen him. Luo just returned to China not long ago, everyone should get to know him better."
applause.
The president of the student union stepped forward and extended his hand: "Student Luo, I am the president of the student union, Lin Sheng. Please give me your guidance!"
Luo Qubai smiled faintly, put his hand on his, and after a simple and polite handshake, he said lightly: "Hello."
"There are many of us here, so I won't introduce you one by one." After shaking hands, the president of the student union still smiled gentlemanly, and then looked at everyone, "If anyone of you wants to communicate with Luo, come and get to know him yourself."
No one agreed, everyone just smiled and nodded at Luo Qubai.
In fact, everyone was somewhat curious about this new student representative, but his cold expression made people feel that he was distant and difficult to approach, so everyone had to give up.
Upon seeing this, the president of the student union quickly pulled Mr. Luo and Luo Qubai to sit down: "Come on, Mr. Luo, Mr. Luo, take a seat."
Upon hearing this, Mr. Luo smiled and invited Luo Qubai, "Student Luo, come sit at the same table with me."
"No need, teacher. You know, it's quite uncomfortable for students and teachers to eat at the same table." Unexpectedly, Luo Qubai didn't appreciate it. After politely declining Teacher Luo's offer, he walked straight to another table.
Although the private room was very lively, Lin Qianliu could hear the approaching footsteps particularly clearly.
In fact, from the moment he walked into the private room, Lin Qianliu could no longer look away. Although her mind kept telling her that she should not get involved with him anymore, her attention was completely locked in the space where Luo Qubai was, and on Luo Qubai himself.
Just like the confinement I have been in for the past two years.
It was not until Luo Qubai sat directly next to her that Lin Qianliu woke up instantly and lowered her head in bewilderment.
The junior student next to him had already made way for Luo Qubai and was still busy at this moment.
"Senior?" After calling Lin Qianliu several times but getting no response, the junior student paused and couldn't help but raise his voice, "Senior, do you want juice or beer?"
"Beer." Lin Qianliu, who had woken up, gave up the juice he originally wanted to choose and said lightly.
Then, the glass next to her was filled with yellow liquid.
Lin Qianliu stared at the white foam that occupied most of the cup. It suddenly expanded and then gradually shrank.
"Qianliu, long time no see."
When my mind went blank, Luo Qubai's voice came from my left.
It was clearly a plain and meaningless sentence, but it brought back a flood of memories in Lin Qianliu's blank mind.
Suddenly, Lin Qianliu felt a sour feeling rushing from her nose to her throat, and then lingering in her eyes. She clearly had a lot to say to him, but every word was like a stone, stuck in her throat, unable to blurt it out but also unable to swallow it, making her feel extremely uncomfortable.
She lowered her head, not daring to let the memories run rampant at this moment, so she had to quickly close her eyes, take a deep breath, and hurriedly sort out the memories in her mind.
She didn't know whether Luo Qubai would come back to give her an answer.
She also didn't know whether Luo Qubai's words "Long time no see" contained a hint of "I miss you very much".
She didn't dare to ask, didn't dare to think, and didn't dare to open the wound in her heart in public , so she remained silent.
"Oh, two years and all you get is a 'long time no see'?" Qin Shu sneered and glared at Luo Qubai with disdain. He felt sorry for what Lin Qianliu had gone through in the past two years, and was angry at Luo Qubai's "explanation" in passing. He couldn't help but retort, "That's so easy to say!"
Hearing this, Luo Qubai frowned slightly and looked at him, then turned his head and remained silent. It seemed that he had no ability to resist Qin Shu's retort. But in fact, he just didn't want to talk to him. He also knew that a sentence of "long time no see" was too light for Lin Qianliu, but apart from this understated greeting, he couldn't find another opening line.
"Long time no see", although it's only four words, but for Luo Qubai, it's not a trivial thing.
Because, these four simple and plain words carry his longing for her every minute and every day and night over the past two years. His "long time no see" clearly means "I miss you so much."
But no one can hear the meaning behind it.
Luo Qubai thought the atmosphere would fall into an ice cellar, but unexpectedly Lin Qianliu raised his head.
She didn't look at Luo Qubai.
The air conditioner in the private room was facing Lin Qianliu directly. The cold air blew in waves, directly into her heart, causing her a slight pain, but also quickly pulling her back to her drifting thoughts. She frowned, glanced at Qin Shu, and said in a low but dissatisfied voice: "Can you say less?"
"No." Qin Shu was still indignant, "My mouth is on my face, and I have to say ."
"If you want to vomit, go to the toilet and don't make trouble here." Lin Qianliu was blunt, his eyes full of anger.
Qin Shu shut his mouth obediently and glared at Luo Qubai fiercely.