I agreed to play a game with someone, and the stakes of the game made me excited. I sat in the moonlight and looked at the night view, without any thoughts in my mind. I am too cold and indifferent, and I have too many concerns. Life has made me cold.
Xiang Qianlan01
Summer passed and autumn passed too.
For a long time, my life remained the same, that is, studying with peace of mind and working hard.
I once forgot that Qi Beichen was my boyfriend because I didn’t like him at all. It took me a long time to accept this.
I dated him until graduation, and he provided my mother with a year of free treatment, which was a great deal.
The fact is that we are not in love, the only meaning is that I helped him get rid of Yin Shuitong, and he helped me get rid of Chai Quan. I know Chai Quan is very good to me, he pursued me madly and did some considerate things for me.
I think they are weird. They are dismissive of girls who like them, but they want to conquer girls who are not interested in them. Qi Beichen and Chai Quan both want to conquer me.
Like a good student, I said goodbye to my mother with a bottle of milk in the morning, and then did boring test papers at school. Qi Beichen was not close to me at school.
We both gave each other enough space.
On weekends, sometimes he asked me out, and sometimes I stayed at home alone watching TV. And just like that, I spent another winter.
I didn't go to work during the winter vacation, but stayed at home with my mother.
In another four and a half months, we will take the most important exam in our lives, which will determine which university we will go to. When a person has a goal, time always passes quickly.
The gardenias are beginning to smell fragrant again.
When Qi Beichen came to see me early in the morning, I was surprised because he seemed a little uncomfortable.
I waited for him to speak.
He thought for a long time and said to me, "Let's break up." There was still a month left before our agreement. I nodded gently, "Okay."
After a while, Qi Beichen came up to me and said, "Don't you want to ask why? Don't you care about anything? Is your blood cold?"
I looked up: "What do you want me to ask? I haven't forgotten that we were just playing a game between us." "Good! What a good game," he said.
I watched his back disappear into the thick fog.
I told myself that I didn't care.
However, I soon found out why Qi Beichen was so eager to break up with me.
Wednesday was a very ordinary day. After school, I was walking on a quiet road. When I was about to turn a corner, I stopped.
The sound came from around the corner, and it seemed like two people were arguing.
"How do you know it's mine?"
"I don't care, it's yours, and no one would do this to me except you. Now my parents are forcing me to have an abortion, and you are responsible."
"You were drunk that day."
"You are responsible for me anyway."
Qi Beichen had his back to me, I couldn't see his expression, I could only see his back, Yin Shuitong stood in front of him, her eyes were red. I seemed to have heard something I shouldn't have heard.
I turned around and retraced my steps until I reached the next intersection, where I could no longer hear them.
Cars sped past me, the leaves rustled in the wind, and the wind instantly took away the warmth on my body and the light in front of my eyes.
I felt dizzy, and it took two minutes for the objects in front of me to slowly become clear. I looked up at the sky, and there was a deathly silence around me, and slowly the sound returned.
The vertigo made my head hurt.
My heart felt like someone had suddenly stabbed me with a knife. I covered my chest with my hands and squatted down in silence, feeling as if I was suffocating.
One drop, two drops, three drops...
Whose tears fell to the ground? I reached out to wipe my face, which was covered with tears.
It turned out to be my tears.
The movement and sound disappeared, leaving only the hot tears sliding down my face.
After a long time, I realized someone was shaking my shoulders.
I looked at the strange man in front of me with an expressionless face. His mouth opened and closed, and he spoke to me repeatedly. I tried hard to hear his voice clearly.
"Little girl, why are you crying? Is everything okay?"
The clouds above my head were moving slowly, and from where I was squatting, it looked extremely depressing.
"…It's okay." I stood up and loosened my clenched fists. My palms turned white from the force. I pushed the man away and walked forward as if nothing had happened.
"Hey! People care about you, little girl..."
I don't need anyone's care.
I hated myself for crying over a man I had nothing to do with anymore.
I walked towards home like a puppet, got on the bus, got off the bus, walked to Tongluo Lane, and arrived at my doorstep.
When my mother opened the door and saw me, I rubbed my red eyes and smiled nonchalantly, "It's so cold today." I turned my head away, walked into the room and locked the door.
Outside it was getting dark.
I began to rummage through the boxes and drawers, looking for things that didn't belong to me. I lowered my head and felt the gifts in my hands making mocking laughs. I tore up everything he gave me and threw them into the trash can.
The unopened perfume bottle in my hand, the liquid inside looks like blue tears, it is called "Butterfly Poison", a luxury item given to me by Qi Beichen.
I gritted my teeth and threw it away.
Delete the mobile phone number, delete the text messages, what else?
there is nothing.
Our ridiculous relationship did not actually leave anything worth remembering. Xiang Qianlan, you are such a failure, being sad for a man who doesn't love you.
Some misunderstandings are like a sharp dagger that cuts off the trust and warmth that are hard-earned between people.
A ray of moonlight shone through the unlit room, and everything around me stood out in black outlines. My mother knocked on the door and asked me to go out for dinner.
I opened the door and said to my mother with a smile, "I'm so tired." It was more like venting my inner unhappiness than saying it to my mother.
"You, if you are tired, go to bed early. Mom doesn't ask you to get into a very good school, just don't collapse." Mom turned her wheelchair to the living room, and I saw two dishes on the table.
"Mom, don't you want to eat?" I asked as we walked.
"I've eaten, so I cooked an extra dish for you because you are lacking in nutrition." Mom wore reading glasses and smoothed the gray hair around her ears.
A slight tenderness came over me, wrapping me layer by layer. I sat down at the table and ate the rice in the bowl with big mouthfuls.
In fact, Qi Beichen means nothing to me, and his life has nothing to do with me.
Steam slowly rose from the fish soup, and the room was filled with the aroma of food.
After dinner, I took a shower and lay down in the quilt early, covering my head. When I was a child, I used to hide in the quilt when I encountered unhappy things, telling myself to sleep and everything would be better tomorrow.
Well, everything will be fine tomorrow.
"Mom, I'm going out."
"There's milk on the table."
"Oh, I got it."
The rosy glow spread across the sky, a flock of birds flew across the air, and in the distance I heard hawkers calling out their wares. When I reached the alley entrance, I saw a boy standing there, staring at me intently.
It’s Chaiquan whom I haven’t seen for a long time.
He didn't ride his black motorcycle today.
He gave me a bright smile: "Hello."
I smiled and said, "Morning."
Then he walked slowly forward side by side with me without saying a word.
"I dreamed that you cried yesterday, so I came to see you." Chai Quan whispered while standing at the intersection waiting for the traffic light.
I turned around and was about to say something when the green light came on. Chai Quan took two quick steps and blocked the direction of the car.
"Dreams are the opposite of what they are." I suddenly wanted to answer him.
It can be said that Chai Quan is a little cuter than I thought. He hasn’t come to bother me recently. I wonder what he is busy with.
"Do you...drink milk?"
Walking across the street, I looked at the tall figure in front of me and held out my hand to him. He turned his head and looked at me, laughing: "Are you asking me?" "Yeah."
"I'll drink it. I like drinking milk the most, hehe." Chai Quan quickly took the milk from my hand and held it in his hand like a treasure.
He seemed to be in a good mood, and he smiled with his teeth showing. He asked me, "Lanlan, are you sure you can get into college?"
I said, "I'm sure."
Chai Quan smiled and tilted his head: "Yes, you are a 'top student', hehe, since you are sure, I think you should not be so tired during this period."
He shook his head and said, "I'm different. I can't pass the exam even if I try hard. I might as well do something else happily."
"Oh, I see." I nodded, walked to the bus stop and stopped.
Chai Quan moved the corners of his mouth and a slight smile appeared on his face.
I am not good at chatting with strangers. Ever since I rushed out and scared away those three hooligans in the factory, Chai Quan and I have never had a conversation like friends.
During the summer vacation when I worked in the milk tea shop, I treated him like an ordinary customer.
I don’t know if Chai Quan was on the same bus as me. When I got on the bus, he also jumped on, holding the bottle of milk, and stood behind me.
Amid the noisy voices, I smelled a faint scent of gasoline on him. Gasoline?
I felt somewhat confused, so I turned my back to him and said nothing.
I took out my phone to check the time. Chai Quan suddenly leaned over to me, scratched his hair, and said, "Well... the nickname 'Upside-Down Sea' is mine. Do you agree?"
"Huh?" I hadn't logged into QQ for a long time, and it took me a while to realize that he wanted me to agree to add him as a friend. I clicked on the penguin on the screen and found his request. "I agree."
In fact, at that time, I didn’t know that he was looking at my gray avatar day and night, waiting for my “approval”.
"Little hedgehog, you are so kind!" He smiled embarrassedly.
"It's... okay." I said.
Who says boys become clumsy in front of the girls they like? I saw his rascally smile and realized that his plot had succeeded.
Chai Quan followed me all the way, sent me to the classroom and then left.
I heard someone talking, looked up, and saw Qi Beichen standing at the school gate in his school uniform, his face blurry in the backlight.
I frowned, said nothing, and walked past him.
Only one month left, I told myself.
During this month, there were fewer jokes and fights in the classroom. For a while, all the students were studying hard.
The sky was dark and gloomy.
After the bell rang, no one rushed out of the classroom like a wild horse to get food. I looked at the time, took my lunch box and went to the cafeteria.
The leaves that were accidentally blown off by the wind fell to the ground.
A pair of white sneakers stepped over and the leaves were shattered into pieces.
I waited in a long line, and when it was my turn, I ordered my meal, picked a seat and sat down.
I lived like this for almost three years.
Waiting to be liberated.
"Xiang Qianlan!"
A girl walked in from the door. She squinted her eyes and looked at me for a while, her gaze like a venomous snake. I heard the sound of food being swallowed in the throat, and also heard Yin Shuitong's unscrupulous shouting.
I actually don't want to get entangled with a crazy woman. I didn't get involved in the affairs of Yin Shuitong and Qi Beichen, but Yin Shuitong has been causing trouble for me time and time again. I am really helpless.
Yin Shuitong put her hands on her hips and walked towards me aggressively.
"Yin Shuitong, what are you crazy about again!"
Qi Beichen rushed in from the door like a wild beast with red . They must have had a quarrel. Their quarrels always bring trouble to me.
Yin Shuitong's laughter made my scalp tingle. Qi Beichen had already caught up with her. He held her arm and looked at the unreasonable Yin Shuitong.
"Why didn't you agree to me!"
"Don't go crazy!"
"I know you like this woman! I know! I hate you! I hate you!"
"Qi Beichen, are you worthy of me and the child? You are not worthy of us!"
Bang—the cafeteria suddenly became quiet.