Chapter 4 It turns out that I like you 03
After a long time, the birthday banquet finally ended.
Because his grandfather was drunk and he had classes early the next morning and didn't have time to run back and forth between school and home, Lin Mobai asked a neighbor to take his grandfather home and then planned to return to school.
Because she didn't want to trouble He Qingkong anymore, she left without waiting or saying anything.
Walking on the asphalt road leading to the bus station, feeling the cold wind, Lin Mobai's mind was still not clear from the birthday party.
Thinking of those sarcasms and Lu Yanqi's hatred, she couldn't help but let out a sigh of relief. Although it was very uncomfortable, when she recalled that time, her heart was not as panicked and uncomfortable as when she was at the scene. The most important thing was that although she was not liked, she at least got the understanding of Grandpa Ding and the protection of He Qingkong.
Thinking of He Qingkong, she couldn't help feeling fortunate.
Fortunately, amidst all the sarcasm and scolding, he still couldn't understand that past, and even though rumors were everywhere around him, he didn't ask any more questions.
Feeling thankful, she smiled faintly and when she looked up she saw the small park where she often played as a child, and she couldn't help but stop.
This is the only way from Pengyuan Restaurant to the station, and it is also the secret base of their "He Lu Shi Ding Lin". At that time, every time after school, the five of them would always gather here to play, until dinner time, when the parents of each family would drag their helpless and quick steps to look for them. Every time they faced the inexplicable scolding from the parents, He Qingkong and Ding Zhiyou could always come up with various tricks to calm the adults' pretended anger and save them from being punished.
When he thought of the past, Lin Mobai couldn't help but smile brightly.
However, just when she wanted to revisit the old place, Lu Yanqi and Shi Xujun appeared in her sight. Suddenly , Lin Mobai's smile froze, frozen at the most rigid moment, just because, in the bright lights, she clearly saw the resentment in the expressions of the two people.
Should she flee immediately, or greet him with a smile?
Lin Mobai had never expected that the two people who had left early would suddenly appear in this place full of memories. He was at a loss and could only stand there in a daze.
After a moment, when Lin Mobai realized that they were standing in front of her, she knew that they were waiting for her on purpose.
After taking a deep breath, she clutched the corner of her clothes and took the initiative to greet them: "Yan... Yanqi, Xujun, you... you haven't left yet?"
“Lin Mobai, put away that flattering face of yours, it’s disgusting!” As if she disdained her kindness, before Lin Mobai’s voice fell, Shi Xujun had already raised her head, staring at her arrogantly and indifferently, her tone filled with disgust, “We are waiting for you here. We don’t want to reminisce about the past with you. We just want to warn you for the last time. Get as far away from me as possible and don’t show up in front of us again. I feel sick when I see you! Why are people like you still alive in this world? Back then, it should have been you who should have died, not Youyou!”
As if a heart full of rage was burning fiercely, Shi Xujun stared at Lin Mobai, and the invisible fire in her eyes seemed to want to devour her.
What Lin Mobai didn't know was that half of his anger was because of Ding Zhiyou, and the other half was because of He Qingkong.
Just now at the birthday banquet, the scene of He Qingkong holding her hand in public has been lingering in Shi Xujun's mind.
Shi Xujun was caught off guard by He Qingkong's gentleness towards Lin Mobai. She had always thought that even if Lin Mobai could replace Ding Zhiyou in He Qingkong's heart, her past of not saving Ding Zhiyou from death was enough to deprive her of her qualifications. But that was not the case.
As a result, jealousy and anger filled every corner of Shi Xujun's heart, and the hatred in her heart was no longer just because of Ding Zhiyou.
However, for Lin Mobai, who only had a limited understanding of the matter, this was her fault and she could only bear it silently.
So, facing Shi Xujun's hatred as before, Lin Mobai pursed his lips, lowered his head and remained silent. He even lost the courage to say "I'm sorry".
The next second, as she trembled slightly and took deep breaths repeatedly, Lu Yanqi's anger followed closely: "Lin Mobai, if possible, I just want me, Lu Yanqi, to have never known you in my life. You are so despicable and shameless as to take advantage of Qingkong's kindness and gentleness. You think he can't abandon the poor and helpless weak, right? But, I won't do as you wish. If you dare to take advantage of Qingkong again, I won't let you go!"
Hearing this accusation, Lin Mobai subconsciously wanted to explain: "I didn't..."
"Here!" But Lu Yanqi did not give her any chance. He pointed at his left atrium, glared at Lin Mobai, and continued viciously, "I am full of hatred for you, and it will never go away! I think Youyou will also be in heaven, watching how God will deal with you!"
After saying this, he raised his hand angrily, punched the stone pillar beside him, then turned and left.
Then, Shi Xujun approached her and warned her again in a cold voice: "Lin Mobai, did you hear me? If you keep pestering Qingkong, I will never let you go!"
As she spoke, her warm breath blew on Lin Mobai's face, but it was like the cold wind in the twelfth lunar month, instantly chilling her heart.
Looking at the backs of the two people leaving, Lin Mobai felt as if the bright lights in his sight were gradually dimming.
Suddenly, a gust of cold wind blew, and then howled wildly in the empty small park. In the silence, the howling sounded like the strange cry of a ghost, which made people unable to stop feeling scared.
However, the boundless fear also made her suddenly remember the past.
She remembered that winter night when she accidentally broke her grandfather's antique vase and hid in the park alone, not daring to go home.
Later, Ding Zhiyou found her. At that time, there was a howling wind and the screams of ghosts and monsters, but the two of them snuggled up to each other and kept each other warm. At that time, they had never been afraid of any ghosts and monsters.
However, memories, however beautiful, are only fleeting.
When Lin Mobai vaguely saw Ding Zhiyou smiling sweetly and holding out her hand, waiting for her hug, she thought time had gone back to that winter night. So, despite hesitating for half a second, Lin Mobai still timidly reached out her hand and took a step forward.
However, before she could touch the other person, that bright smile suddenly disappeared in a gust of cold wind.
It was like a chill running down her spine, clearing her mind and robbing her of her warm memories.
At this moment, Lin Mobai squatted down weakly on the spot, holding on to the pillar beside him, tears quietly blurring his face.
She raised her hands slightly, covered her eyes, and finally couldn't help crying loudly.
“Youyou, I… I miss you so much… It’s… It’s my fault, I was wrong… I… I deserve to die, can you please come back? Can you… I’ll give you my life… in exchange for yours, in exchange for you coming back! Okay? No… Don’t… leave me… Wuuu… I deserve to die… It’s me who deserves to die… Why is the person who died… not… not me…”
In the endless emptiness, Lin Mobai's sobs echoed in the air for a long time.
Standing not far away was He Qingkong, who came to look for her after discovering that she had left alone. In such a big world, there was only Lin Mobai in his misty eyes.
Looking at the lonely and helpless Lin Mobai and listening to her words condemning him, He Qingkong could clearly feel the severe pain in his left atrium.
The heart-wrenching pain was a million times more intense than a heart attack, and he couldn't help but press his fist against his heart in pain.
He didn't know what she had experienced or what she had recalled. He only knew that her hysterical cries fell into his heart, and it hurt so much that he felt as if his whole body was about to be torn apart by the gusts of cold wind blowing in his face.
I took deep breaths over and over again, but there was no way to calm the pain.
He Qingkong only knew that even though the pain was unbearable, he still had an urge in his heart to hold her in his arms, to give her warm care, and to tell her that no matter what happened, he would always be her most reliable support.
However, such a strong desire to protect suddenly sobered his heart. Before he could understand it, a sentence he had heard before echoed in his mind -
If there is a girl who makes you feel extremely heartbroken when she is sad, then that is love.
He Qingkong suddenly opened his eyes and looked at Lin Mobai intently.
The feeling of heartache continued, but he understood his own feelings through these waves of heartache.
It turned out that I missed her so much, always wanting to see her, wanting to protect her, wanting to make her smile, I couldn't bear to see her suffer, couldn't bear to see her being treated indifferently, couldn't bear to see her being bullied, and couldn't bear to see her cry so sadly. All these accumulated heartaches and unspeakable emotions turned out to be love.
Then, He Qingkong clenched his fists, his eyes filled with a firm belief that the person he loved should be protected by himself.
——Xiaobai, I won’t let you get hurt again.
