Chapter 4: Date at the Amusement Park 3
There was a buzzing in my head, and the noise around me seemed to fade away in an instant, and I could no longer hear anything.
Only those words echoed in my ears again and again.
"I want a duck..."
"I want you……"
…
In front of me was the young man's angular face. His dark, star-like eyes were filled with genuine truthfulness without any affectation.
This was clearly the answer I had been expecting for a long time, but when I heard it, I suddenly didn't know what to do.
"Yashima--" A familiar voice came from a distance. I breathed a sigh of relief and turned around to see Lian Jianxi running towards us with his hands waving.
Before I could react, Hideki jumped up from the grass and started running with me.
We were dragged all the way to the small boat by the lake, and completely ignoring Ren Jianxi's calls behind us, Hideki drove the boat towards the center of the lake.
"What did you do, Hideki?" I coughed and questioned Hideki who was also panting opposite me.
"You haven't promised me yet." Hideki stared at me very seriously.
"Why?"
"I don't want to see you with other boys, not at all. Although I don't know the reason, I feel that Yaya is different from others to me, and I want to be Yaya's only one."
My heart was beating faster and faster, as if it would jump out at any time. I couldn't help but cover my heart with my hand.
"I want to touch you, I want to touch your face and your hands. Ever since I felt your body temperature for the first time, I can never forget that feeling..."
Whether I was shy or excited, it was all thrown out of my mind the moment I heard these words, and all the beautiful fantasies in my mind were shattered .
I said I was different from others, but the only thing that was different was my body temperature?
"After all, you just want to find a 'hot water bottle' with the right temperature!" I snorted.
Hideki was stunned, his expression blank for a moment, like a child in class who couldn't answer the teacher's question.
He stuttered for the first time in front of me: "No, every morning when I open my eyes, I look at the ceiling and think of YaYa's face; when I soak my hands in the washbasin, I think of the cold temperature of YaYa's hands that night when she was afraid of the dark; when I want to be warm, and other girls hold my arm, I also think it would be better if it was YaYa... So, it's not a hot water bottle, it can only be YaYa."
A suspicious dark red appeared on Hideki's face. He turned his head awkwardly, avoiding my sight, and muttered, "Maybe I have a new disease, which is why I am like this!"
Hideki's words, with the faint minty scent emanating from his body, just like that, inadvertently, along with the waves of the lake, drifted into the lake of my heart.
"Then can I sit next to you?" Hideki said as he automatically sat next to me.
"No, don't come over." My mood, which had become secretly happy because of his confession, became complicated again.
Although I believe that maybe it is true as Hideki said, that I am special in his heart...but I still cannot let Hasunuma-senpai's words get to me. The curse of not being able to love is not something that can be easily changed.
And it's just a want, not liking or loving, right?
"Do you really hate me? Like you said, do you hate me so much that you don't want to see me, don't want to have any contact with me, and even find it troublesome to talk to me?"
"I……"
Xiu Shu stood up and faced me, his eyes full of determination, not allowing me to escape: "If you really hate me, let me give up now! Then... I will stay away from Yaya in the future."
The pain and fragility that flashed across Hideki's eyes made me uncomfortable, but what made me more painful was the determination in his words, both to me and to himself.
Whenever I thought about Hideki never coming near me again, never smiling at me again, my chest suddenly ached and I felt like I was about to stop breathing.
“It’s not that I hate you…” I said this with a trembling voice and reached out to grab Hideki. He was right in front of me, but for some reason, he seemed out of my reach.
Hideki's eyes were still cold, and I couldn't help but feel a little flustered: Has he really given up on me?
The next second, as if he suddenly came to his senses, Xiu Shu's face suddenly blossomed with surprise. He grabbed my fingers and said ecstatically: "Yaya, do you mean that you actually like me?"
I couldn't help but be attracted by the brilliance that blossomed on his delicate features. I couldn't help but feel a little fascinated, but Hideki's words made me shy.
How can you ask such a question? How should I answer?
Should I answer, "Yes, I like you!"
That's so embarrassing, idiot Hideki, why are you asking that?
I avoided Xiu Shu's gaze, but he kept moving closer to me, muttering as he got closer: "Is that so, Ya Ya? You like me, right, right, right..."
"Yaya, just admit that you like me. What's the problem? I've already said I want Yaya..."
"Duck, what are you going to say? Otherwise, just nod, okay?"
Hideki had an exaggerated smile on his face and his whole body was almost in front of me, and my face was about to burn.
When he moved forward again, I couldn't help but reach out and push him. The boat was shaking, and Hideki staggered twice before sitting down on the deck.
As if he hadn't expected this reaction from me, Hideki looked down at the floor beneath him, and when he looked up again, the smile on his face had faded, leaving only a hint of bitterness.
"Is it hard to admit that you like me? Yaya, what are you thinking? Why can't I understand?"
My mind was in a mess. I felt like I had hurt Hideki again. I stammered, "I'm sorry, I can't help it..."
"Why?"
"The current Hideki belongs to everyone, but what I want is a Hideki that belongs only to me." Although it sounds selfish to say this, I really hope that Hideki can be separated from the other girls and only be with me, with his beautiful black eyes only looking at me.
Sitting on the ground, Hideki looked up at me, revealing his full forehead and delicate features. The blue lake was illuminated by the sun, sparkling with ripples, reflecting on his body and face, making him look even more handsome.
He narrowed his eyes slightly, and his gaze seemed to become warm and gentle along with the swaying waves.
He said, "If Yaya doesn't like me being with everyone, I'll just be your Hideki."
This must be a trick. It must be another trick that Hideki uses to make girls’ hearts beat fast!
But I want to agree.
I know it's selfish to only think about myself, but I still want to agree!
I like Hideki.
There is no doubt about this. I had already fallen in love with him before this.
"Am I being selfish?" At that time, I felt the same way towards my mother. I knew that she was suffering from illness, but I still selfishly thought that as long as she was still by my side and we were together, everything would be fine.
I never thought about how difficult this torture was for my mother.
I don't know when Xiu Shu got up and gently held me in his arms. He rubbed my head with his chin and whispered, "How could it be? If this is selfish, then I am the most selfish person in the world who wants to hide Yaya and never let anyone see her again."
"Huh?" I looked up stupidly.
Xiu Shu chuckled and rubbed my head, then pulled me back into his arms again: "So, Yaya, don't look down on me or avoid me because of this, otherwise I will be very sad."
Would such an excellent Hideki also lack confidence in himself? Would he also be afraid of being looked down upon?
"I want to see Yaya smile, and I hope Yaya can be happy every day... So no matter what Yaya wants me to do, I will agree to it, as long as you are happy."
Hideki spoke slowly, his gentle voice causing his chest to vibrate, pounding and knocking against my ears again and again.
My heart was gradually filled with this warm emotion, and I was about to cry.
