The final way of handling the fight was still the old routine. Li Ye and Gu Feng each wrote a letter of apology to admit their mistakes.
And I missed classes the whole afternoon.
Then, everyone has their own concerns.
When Gu Feng left the disciplinary room, he said that he would not let Song Jingyan go like this.
Li Ye guessed where I went.
Song Jingyan cut Gu Feng into pieces in her heart, and then told herself that she would never believe in love again.
As for He Xubei, he looked out the window from time to time. It was raining outside again.
In fact, I didn't go anywhere. I walked in the rain holding Li Ye's umbrella. The blue sky was inexplicably comforting. But doesn't blue represent melancholy?
I just suddenly didn't want to see He Xubei after I understood the emotions flashing in his eyes.
I don’t know why there were such emotions in He Xubei’s eyes, and I don’t know if those emotions were because of me.
I thought of the letter that had not been sent, which was still lying quietly in the drawer.
I was wondering if I should give it a second chance to be given away, and also put an end to my first secret love in my youth.
I called Sunshine out and told him I needed his help.
"Yangguang, do you still remember the classmate who helped us chase away the gangsters? His name is He Xubei. I wrote a letter. Can you give it to him for me? Come back after you deliver it, and I'll buy you some milk tea."
Yangguang held the letter in his hand and grinned, "Okay, Yangguang, Yangguang promises to complete the task!"
"Good sunshine, thank you!"
I told him how to get to He Xubei's house, and then calculated the time and hid at a corner. He Xubei just appeared, and Yangguang saw him and shouted at him from across the alley.
The accident just happened.
No one expected that a black car would suddenly appear in the alley where there were usually few cars.
I saw the body of the sun being thrown up hard, and then falling like an autumn leaf.
Every movement was like a slow motion motion picture stimulating my eyes. I was stunned there, and so was He Xubei.
At that moment, the world was blank and silent.
“No—Yangguang!” I ran over, crying heartbreakingly, kneeling on the ground and calling him, “Yangguang, Yangguang… wake up, don’t scare me!”
Yangguang was motionless, like a puppet that had fallen apart. He seemed to want to say something to me, but blood kept coming out of his mouth. I looked in the direction of his eyes and saw the letter lying in a pool of blood.
He Xubei called an ambulance and I was crying so hard that I didn't know what to do, with tears all over my face.
I followed him to the hospital. Doctors and nurses came in and out of the emergency room. I stopped them one by one and asked them questions, but their words made me disappointed and desperate again and again.
Two hours seemed as long as two centuries.
In the end, Yangguang could not be rescued and died of massive intracranial hemorrhage.
At Yangguang’s funeral, I saw his parents, honest mountain people, who had gained a few gray hairs overnight.
There was a photo of Yangguang in the mourning hall. The carefree smile on Yangguang's face was heartbreaking. I didn't even dare to cry. I rubbed my eyes hard, but there were still no tears. I cried hoarsely with a dry throat.
It turns out that it is true that when you are extremely sad you will have no tears left.
"An An, we know you are Yangguang's best friend. You are sadder than us when he left... An An, Yangguang is not a fool. Look how much God loves him. He made him an angel." Yangguang's mother cried and comforted me.
I didn't know how to face them and my heart was filled with guilt.
They didn't know how Yangguang got hit by a car. They thought Yangguang was just playing around. They didn't think Yangguang got into the car accident to help me. But I didn't tell them. I felt I was really cowardly and selfish.
I came under the big banyan tree and used a lighter to light the letter stained with Yangguang's blood. The flame burned my index finger, and looking at the place where Yangguang loved to come most when he was alive, my tears finally flowed down.
Sunshine, you will never come to me with delicious food again, right? But I really want to hear you stutteringly call me "An An" again.
Yangguang, I always knew you were not stupid. You know An An would protect you when you were bullied. But you are not by my side now. What should I do if you are bullied again?
Thinking that if time could go back to that day, I would never let the sunlight deliver the letter. I would face He Xubei and my own feelings by myself.
But now, because of my cowardice, I can never see the sun again.
It started raining again in June, and someone was holding up a clear sky above our heads.
I looked up and saw that it was He Xubei. He was also attending the funeral.
I didn't take the tissue he handed me. I wiped my tears with my sleeve and walked home in the rain.
The sun had gone for three days, and I felt like a soulless zombie in those three days. I rejected Jingyan's proposal to take me to the amusement park to relax.
I met He Xubei on the school road, and he seemed to have something to say to me. Since the incident with Yangguang, I figured out some things. Maybe God also thought that there was no possibility for him and me, so the letter could never reach He Xubei.
The last bit of hope I had for He Xubei disappeared with the sunshine.
During lunch break, I locked myself in the bathroom and cried because I missed the sunshine and also to commemorate my secret love.
Li Ye has been very quiet these days, attending classes and eating quietly, and accompanying me quietly after class. And now, he is quietly guarding outside the women's restroom, overbearingly not allowing anyone to come in.
The results of the final exam were posted on the bulletin board, and the students gathered around to look for their names. When Li Ye saw my ranking, he tore off the transcript and tore it to pieces.
When I saw the pieces of paper flying, it looked like snow falling in June.
The weather is so good, why do I feel like I'm in an ice cellar?