Chapter 36: Forgetting (4)
Everything is said without words.
Originally, she should have pushed Zhou Cheng away, but Yin Yin could clearly feel Zhou Cheng trembling, and the tender look in his eyes when he looked at her. Yin Yin believed that the man in front of her should not be a bad person...
Not long after.
Zhou Cheng sent Xue Han and Wang Ye to diagnose Yin Yin, and the result was the same as he guessed, amnesia...
"Who are you? Where is this place? Why am I here?"
Yinyin's question made Zhou Cheng and others feel helpless. Zhou Cheng was speechless, Xue Han was disappointed, and Wang Ye felt very lost? The three of them were really helpless to different degrees...
"I've already told you that my name is Zhou Cheng, and you are Zhang Yinyin, the daughter of my country's prime minister. This is the imperial palace and also my bedroom. You were brought here for treatment for some reason. Don't you remember anything about this?"
"The Prime Minister's daughter? The Imperial Palace? Who are you?"
"He is the emperor of the Great Zhou!"
"What?"
Yin Yin was surprised by what Zhou Cheng said about his life experience, where he was, and his identity. She couldn't help but wonder, is this true?
"Have you really forgotten everything?"
Zhou Cheng asked Yin Yin with half-belief and even disbelief, but Yin Yin remained silent again. Her expression told Zhou Cheng and the others that she really didn't remember anything, including her, Zhou Yan, Zhao Ziheng, and even herself...
"My name is Yin Yin? Why can't I remember anything?"
Her mind was blank, as if there was nothing in it. There was only the conversation she had with Zhou Cheng and others from the moment she woke up to now. Even if she thought about it based on Zhou Cheng's words, her mind was still blank. Not even a fragment of memory existed...
"…Since you have forgotten it, forget it. Don't force yourself to think about it. Just take a good rest. I will tell you everything when you recover."
Zhou Cheng felt sorry for Yin Yin's discomfort after just waking up, so he thought it would be better not to tell her everything right away. In case he irritated her again, she might fall ill again. He also had to figure out what to say so as not to irritate Yin Yin. Perhaps because she trusted Zhou Cheng, Yin Yin nodded.
Afterwards, Yinyin fell asleep again after taking the medicine. Zhou Cheng sat by the bed, looking at the sleeping Yinyin, and reached out to caress her face lovingly...
"Your Majesty, if you want to explain the facts to the princess, please be sure to..."
"I know. You don't need to remind me."
Before Xue Han could finish expressing his concern, Zhou Cheng interrupted him without taking his eyes off Yin Yin.
"The princess has been in a long sleep because of some kind of great mental trauma. I think her current amnesia is also caused by it. Even if we can use words to hide things from her that she shouldn't know, there is no guarantee that she won't remember anything after seeing it."
"So do you mean to prevent her from seeing Yan for the rest of her life? Or to hide her for the rest of her life?"
"No, I just think that some things can still be revealed to the princess, regardless of whether she really forgot or remembered something. If I conceal everything, when the princess recalls it in the future, I am afraid that the stimulation will be more severe and lead to a worse situation-"
Wang Ye expressed his opinion based on the facts, even though he was just an outsider who had nothing to do with the matter. As a doctor, Xue Han agreed with Wang Ye's words, and Zhou Cheng also agreed with this speculation to some extent...
"It's best to let the princess recall things slowly and bit by bit, no matter what they are. Even if she really forgets, it means there is no painful past for her to recall, so there is no need to worry about her being stimulated. But if this is the case, she will forget what she shouldn't forget, and she will definitely live in a very empty world in the future. Even if we help her realize beautiful memories bit by bit, we can never fill the part that is missing in her heart. Everyone has their own memories, and memories are proof of everyone's existence. How much can be recalled , whether they are happy or painful memories, it all depends on the princess's attachment to those. If she deliberately closes her memories deep in her heart, no matter how much we say or do, it will be of no avail-"
To Zhou Cheng, Yinyin's experience is dual. How many times will she experience amnesia in her life? The first time she lost her memory, she forgot him and all the painful memories, and became a brand new Yinyin, who was unfamiliar but familiar to him and whom he loved deeply. What about this time? Will she forget all the painful things she had experienced and start over again like the last time? Then is her life long or short? If the memory that once proved her existence is lost, it is as if the life she has experienced is blank and starts over again. So does her previous life still have meaning to her?
Zhou Cheng did not want to identify with this kind of new life in which he had completely forgotten his past existence . If he had to start a new life with the proof of forgetting his past existence, Zhou Cheng would rather Yin Yin only had to forget the pain and continue her life with happy memories. Forgetting the past and starting a new life, as Wang Ye said, in another sense, is no different from being a walking corpse. There is no more cruel thing in a person's life than losing the memories that prove his existence.
"If you have to remember the painful past in order to recall the past memories, I just hope that at least in your dreams you will have a memory without sadness, only laughter, without pain, only happiness -"
I don't want Yinyin to be tortured by pain, nor do I want Yinyin to be ignorant of her past. Even if it is painful, for a person, being able to recall is everything. If you don't even have memories, then living for a long time will have no meaning...
What should be protected?
What should you get?
If it is just a body with only a shell, what good will it do if you get it?
Even though he knew that he wanted Yin Yin very much, he could not tolerate that Yin Yin had to forget everything to choose him. Whether happy or sad, from beginning to end, Zhou Cheng only hoped that Yin Yin could be happy. Even if he could not get her, he would not regret it. All he could do was to protect her with all his strength.
Forgot.
Lost.
Don't know who I am.
I don’t know what I have forgotten.
In the dream, Yinyin only vaguely remembered that she seemed to have forgotten something very important, but it completely disappeared after she opened her eyes. In the past, what she pursued, loved, and hated, she had now completely forgotten it, so completely that there was not even a trace of memory left...
Zhao Ziheng, whom she loved deeply and forever.
Zhou Yan, whom she hated and was irreconcilable with.
All her past love and hate, affection and hatred, are now blank, as if nothing had ever happened...
Everything I ever had.
For Yin Yin now, nothing really has ever existed.
All the joys, sorrows, loves, hates and vengeances that I have experienced.
She forgot herself.
At the same time, she also forgot the only person she had ever loved the most.
