Chapter 3 Contradictions 01
There were a few steps, he was at the bottom and I was at the top. We stood there gazing at each other, neither of us taking the first step. What lay between us were not those steps, but indelible scars.
Seeing Lin Feng again was both unexpected and not surprising. He was still sunny and handsome, while I was as damp and dark as the saproling fungi in a cellar.
"You...you are still using this phone, I thought..."
In the end, I walked down, stood in front of Lin Feng, and asked for my cell phone with a calm expression.
Lin Feng handed it over, saying something irrelevant with a forced smile.
"Don't get me wrong, it's not that I'm reluctant to part with it. You know my family's problems, and I don't have much money to buy a new phone. Besides, it's not broken. Human affairs have nothing to do with things. I don't care about feelings, so why bother about who gave me the things?" I grabbed the phone from Lin Feng's hand, staring at his still handsome face, and said lightly.
Some things must always be faced, and avoiding them is not the best way to solve problems.
There is indeed a lack of conversation between Lin Feng and I.
"Ai Ye, can we start over? Without Mo Beibei, without anyone else, no matter what you become, let's start over, okay? Do you know? It was Mo Beibei who lied to me that she was pregnant with my child, so I..." Lin Feng suddenly grabbed my hand and pleaded with a sad look, his eyes, which were originally black and white, actually turned a little red.
"So that's how it is? But if there was nothing between you, how could Mo Beibei frame you with the fake pregnancy?" I pushed his hand away with a headache and looked at the handsome boy in front of me seriously.
Now the so-called truth has no meaning to me anymore, and I feel very calm.
"Do you know what I fear most about seeing you? Just like now, wanting to start over. Many things are over and done with It's impossible to start over like playing cards by shuffling the cards. I'm not still blaming you for having someone beat me up, so I want to break up with you completely. I already know that it wasn't you who did it, it was Leng Yuting who did it. Do you think that after I know all this, I can forgive you? To be honest, when I first knew that you betrayed me, I really didn't give up. Even if I was ready to break up with you, I still felt reluctant..." At this point, I couldn't help but laugh at myself, paused for a while, and continued, "It wasn't until I was blocked in the alley and beaten by those people and injured like that, thinking that you had someone do it, that I finally gave up. But later, I found out that Not now. The real reason I left you was not because of your cruelty to me, but because I couldn't stand your indecision in love. You explained to me again and again that there was reluctance between you and Mo Beibei, and that you were set up. But since you have chosen to be with Mo Beibei, why can't you be firm? Why are you still lingering with me? Don't you know that this is very hurtful? It hurts me and Mo Beibei." I stared at him intently, "Lin Feng, you always make things sound helpless, but you never thought that all this helplessness is caused by your indecision. After that incident, I felt that you were a scumbag, and after hearing that you forced Mo Beibei to break up, I felt that you were even more of a scumbag, a scumbag who couldn't be firm in his heart. A scumbag who shirks responsibility even though he did something wrong."
I finally said out what was pent up in my heart, and I felt more relieved than ever about this relationship.
From time to time, people in the corridor looked back curiously, and neither Lin Feng nor I wanted to avoid them.
Some things, no matter how hard you try to hide them, will eventually be revealed to the world.
"Believe it or not, I have never betrayed you. What should I do so that you can treat me like you did before?"
"If you are responsible for Mo Beibei, I will trust you in everything! In that case, I will still believe that you are at least firm in your responsibility. Even if you are helpless, you are still a man who dares to do and take responsibility, instead of being like now, unable to be firm in both responsibility and love."
Lin Feng was shocked and let go of my hand. I quickly pulled away and never looked back.
My heart beats so slowly, without impulse or sadness. That immature love left me only the growth after the trauma, nothing else. I hope Lin Feng can learn how to live firmly from now on. Since I chose Mo Beibei and responsibility at the beginning, I shouldn't think about going back to the past.
For the past that has passed, turn around and be proud. After walking a few steps, I saw a tall and thin figure in the crowd. The clean aura was natural and the presence was so strong that people could catch it at a glance.
I smiled at Leng Zimo indifferently, without any emotion, just out of courtesy. Leng Zimo was stunned for a moment, but soon recovered his arrogant look. As I expected, he did not express anything, turned his head indifferently, and left with the person next to him.
Leng Zimo didn't want to have any interaction with me, and I just said hello. Maybe next time, I can even skip the hello, since we are not familiar with each other.
