Chapter 3 Bubble five
I was in such a hurry to see him that I forgot to take my umbrella.
Seeing me running over in the rain, Xu Yun quickly came over with an umbrella and said, "Be careful not to get wet or catch a cold."
"I'm not that fragile." I smiled and wiped the rain off my face. "What do you want to talk to me about?"
"Hexue--" He called my name softly, and after a long pause, he seemed to have mustered up the courage to say to me, "Hexue, can I be your boyfriend?"
I stared at the blurry world in the rain behind him, blinking once, and again. The hazy and beautiful world did not disappear, and I knew that this was not a beautiful dream.
Song Hexue, look, your dream has finally come true.
But why is there a sour feeling spreading from the nasal cavity?
"Hexue..." Xu Yun looked at me nervously, even a little at a loss, "Is it okay?"
I sniffed and stared at a place behind Xu Yun.
He finally sensed something was wrong with me and turned around. One meter behind him, there stood a person in a white dress holding a red umbrella. It was Lian Mengsha.
I raised the corners of my mouth and smiled, looking at them with a shameless expression of gloating. In my script, they should have started quarreling without any image in the next second.
But I was wrong, Lian Mengsha is not an ordinary person.
She smiled at Xu Yun and said, "I thought I was seeing things when I saw your back from a distance, but now I know I'm not seeing things. Then, I'm going back to the classroom."
After saying this, Lian Mengsha didn't even look at me and walked past me gracefully, as if I was air, as if she didn't hear Xu Yun's words at all.
I looked at her slender back that was deliberately straight, and suddenly I felt sad. I used to be so proud, stubborn, and lonely...
I felt a little sorry for her, so I quickly called Xu Yun: "Xu Yun, Mengsha..."
Lian Mengsha, who had already walked a long way, suddenly turned around, walked quickly to my side and said, "Do you know why I'm not angry at all? Because people like you are not qualified to make me angry."
When she said this, she raised her chin slightly, with a look of contempt and arrogance. I knew how she usually treated "people like me", and the last bit of guilt in my heart was swept away.
I smiled at her: "Are you the only one who deserves love? Am I not worthy of it?"
"Dirty thief," she whispered with a sneer.
I stood under Xu Yun's umbrella, stubbornly accepting her insults one by one, and replied nonchalantly: "Yes, people like me are born dirty thieves. But you can't deny that I got what I wanted in the end."
Lian Mengsha probably didn't expect that I would admit it so straightforwardly and shamelessly. She was so angry that she lost her mind and raised her hand to hit me.
I looked up, closed my eyes, and didn't dodge or avoid. However, for a long time, the slap didn't fall. A cold wind blew over, bringing with it a few drops of rain, which fell on my face. I opened my eyes and saw Lian Mengsha's face flushed with anger. Her raised hand was tightly grasped by Xu Yun.
I know that Xu Yun stopped her from hitting me, which was the real reason why she, who was usually calm, lost control.
I suddenly couldn't make up my mind to hurt her. No matter what, I shouldn't use the weakness of someone who loves another person to attack. What's wrong with loving someone?
I was hesitant, but Xu Yun helped me make up my mind.
He turned his head to look at me and said to Lian Mengsha in a decisive tone, "Xiaosha, you misunderstood. It was me. I liked Hexue. Just now, I was the first to confess to Hexue. She...she hasn't agreed to me yet. Xiaosha, Hexue did nothing wrong in this matter. If you want to blame someone, blame me."
He spoke so seriously, and every word he said was so powerful. I should have been happy, but for some reason, I suddenly felt sad.
Perhaps it was because it was the first time he knew that a person’s rejection of another person could be so decisive and cruel; perhaps it was because Song Hexue had also been rejected in this way before.
I was so guilty that I didn't dare to look into Lian Mengsha's eyes. I thought that even the proud Lian Mengsha would be provoked by such cold and ruthless words. However, I was wrong. Lian Mengsha was still the calm, self-controlled Lian Mengsha who put her self-esteem above everything else.
She suddenly smiled, and her smile was so beautiful that it seemed to light up people's eyes in an instant.
She smiled and said to Xu Yun, "Xu Yun, who you like and who you confess to, what does this have to do with me? From now on, you don't need to tell me these things."
Lian Mengsha finished her words slowly, without even glancing at Xu Yun and me. She walked away gracefully with her chin slightly raised. Her white dress slowly blended into the rain, as if in the next second, she would turn into a cloud of smoke and float away.
I turned around and smiled at Xu Yun: "Aren't you going to chase her?"
Of course I'm not stupid enough to believe that Xu Yun really likes me at this moment.
Xu Yun looked at me in surprise, and a flash of panic appeared in his usually calm eyes. He probably realized that I might have seen through his intentions.
I quickly played dumb and said, "We can't let her get away alone like this, or something bad will happen. I heard that your two families are old friends, and it won't be good if things get too awkward. We can talk about our affairs later."
After listening to what I said, Xu Yun hesitated for only a second, then chased after me with an umbrella in hand.
I stood in the rain, staring blankly at Xu Yun's departing back, letting the rain slowly wet my hair.
Xu Yun ran out for a distance, then realized that I was still standing in the rain, and he ran back and handed me the umbrella. I didn't refuse, holding the umbrella he handed over, quietly watching him rush into the rain curtain again.
He was so anxious, even a little flustered. I was sure that Xu Yun didn't like me as he said, at least not now.
But it doesn't matter. One day, I will make him like Song Hexue. One day, he will like Song Hexue willingly.
Thunder rumbled, and the rain gradually got heavier. The raindrops hit the bluestone path, making a "ding-dong, ding-dong" sound, like a light music. My mood instantly improved. I threw away my umbrella and walked towards the classroom in the rain, so happy that I almost danced.
When I passed by the crabapple tree in front of the classroom, I saw Hua Ziyin. He stood quietly behind the tree, motionless, like a sculpture. The rain soaked his clothes and hair, and his hair hung down, covering his slender eyes. I couldn't see his expression, but I felt that his face was so pale that it made me feel distressed for no reason.
I guessed that his eyes were originally directed in my direction, but when I turned my head to look at him, he immediately turned his pretended to look away as if nothing had happened. He even frowned and pursed his lips to make a very disdainful look.
I just ignored him. This guy was really weird, and I was most afraid of weird people.
However, as I passed him, he suddenly reached out and grabbed my wrist.
I heard him question me word by word in a voice as cold as rain: "Are you satisfied with this?"
I suddenly wanted to laugh. This guy is so weird! He and I are just ordinary schoolmates. According to him, we have only spoken four sentences in five and a half years. With such a casual relationship, why would he care about my business?
I struggled hard but couldn't get his hand free, so I could only look up at him fiercely: "Yes, that's it, I'm satisfied."
Maybe my tone was too bad or my momentum was too strong, Hua Ziyin suddenly let go of my hand. I thought he was going to use the secret to threaten me as usual, but he didn't. He just looked at me deeply, then turned around and left without looking back.
I felt as if I was under a spell and stood there in a daze.
I remember the look in his eyes when he looked at me. It was not anger, nor disgust, but sadness. The sadness was as if he had already seen through me and found that I was the most pathetic and pitiful person in the world.
But I know that this is just my illusion. How could a stranger like him know the secrets hidden deep in my heart?
Without comprehension, how can one understand?
