Chapter 3: Anti-Crossover Hope No.20 Escape (Part 2)
Why can't I find the rose that never fades?
Why are the princes I meet not princes enough?
Why does the blue bird of happiness fly so high?
Why Apples and Hugs Can Be Poison
I never thought it would be so scary to be alone even if I had it
I suddenly remembered the doll that used to accompany me
I don't want to, ... grow up
There are no fairy tales in the world when you grow up
I don't want to, ... grow up
I would rather be dumb and stupid forever
I don't want to, ... grow up
I'll lose it when I grow up.
Why can't you see it changing in the crystal ball?
Why is the ending not full of laughter but tears?
Why do wishes made on shooting stars never come true?
Why a brave knight is more dangerous than a dragon
Let's go back to the past, okay?
innocent stupid happy beautiful
I don't want to, ... grow up
I do not want to grow up……
The horse galloped all the way without encountering any obstacles.
We didn't stop at all when we rushed into the gate of Tianzu Temple. The horses' hooves soared into the air, and my heart seemed to fall from the clouds into hell...
"Where are they?"
I heard myself say this, my voice was chilling...
"The Fourth Prince wants to see you." The man behind him always had a cold voice.
I suddenly turned around and kicked Guard Yang behind me!
He dodged lightly and got off his horse nimbly, like some large cat.
"Where are they?"
I pulled the reins and looked down at him. The horse under me also pawed the ground uncomfortably because of the coldness emanating from my body...
He looked at me calmly for a while, his eyes finally softened, and he said in an inaudible voice:
"The west wing."
He turned around without hesitation and galloped away on his horse!
Although the temple is spacious, it is not as big as the main road. The luxurious garden was thrown into chaos by the horse's kicking. All the servants along the way screamed and retreated. I couldn't see anything and didn't care about anything!
I saw the quiet West Wing from afar, but I didn't dare to approach it. I reined in my horse in panic, fearing that I would disturb the tranquility...
I got off the horse in a daze and walked behind the oleander outside the window, but I was too weak to take another step...
The carved window in the west wing was half-closed. Xiao Tao was sitting on the bed doing needlework, just like before, just like every time I rushed into her room, just like every time I acted like a spoiled child around her… Only the layers of fine yarn wrapped around her left hand indicated the changes. The bright red dots on it were so dazzling that they hurt my eyes, which were instantly surrounded by a bitter liquid, as if only this could alleviate its pain…
Xiaotao was sewing something very seriously, and when I looked closely, it turned out to be the apron I asked her to make last time.
Her hands were not flexible, and she kept sewing wrong, unstitching, sewing wrong again, unstitching again... But she would never give up, and continued to repeat this simple mechanical action seriously...
Sewing Wrong
open
Re-sewing
Dismantle again
Sewing
I stood outside the door in a daze, unable to move a step... Xiao Tao, she used to be the best needleworker in Cangchunlou...
My heart is entangled so tightly with the flying needle and thread!
My tears rushed left and right, desperately trying to find a way out...
My whole body was shaking and I could barely stand...
"Minmin..." A sigh, barely audible...
I turned my head slowly, stiffly. Qingqing was standing not far away, holding gauze and ointment, looking at me quietly.
I looked at her stupidly, trying hard to keep my eyes open to prevent the tears from bursting out...
Qingqing sighed again, turned around, pushed the door and entered the side room.
"Xiao Tao, stop stitching and change the dressing..."
"Just wait a moment, it will be ready soon..."
for a long time.
There was no sound in the room.
Suddenly I heard the crisp sound of needles and thread hitting the ground! Xiao Tao's hysterical voice came out without warning along with her crying...
"I can't sew it well! I can't sew... well! I... I can't sew it well! Qingqing, what should I do? I can't sew it well! I can't sew it well!"
I heard Qingqing hurriedly drop the things in her hands, and she took a few quick steps to hug the trembling Xiaotao.
"Xiao Tao...?"
But Xiao Tao just kept crying and repeating: "I can't sew well... What should I do? What should I do? My hands don't work well... What should I do?"
"It's okay, you can take your time, take your time...it's okay..."
"No, it's no use, what should I do? What should I do? What should I do... Apart from needlework, I can't do anything to help Minmin... I don't know anything..." She cried desperately, "This is the only thing... This is the only thing... It really won't work... No... What should I do? What should I do... Will Minmin not let me stay with her anymore? Ah? Qingqing? Answer me..."
"No, no, absolutely no, absolutely no..."
"I... I don't know anything... I can't help Minmin... Qingqing, teach me to sing! Teach me to dance! Ah? Teach me now! Teach me now..." Xiaotao desperately shook Qingqing's sleeves...
"I'll teach you, I'll teach you, I'll teach you everything..."
I can't hold back any more tears outside the window! Tears are pouring out! I can't stop them...
My whole body was shaking and I couldn't stop myself! I heard myself crying loudly!
"Xiao Tao! Xiao Tao... Xiao Tao... I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."
I don't remember whether I rushed in or they ran out, I just remember holding Xiao Tao tightly and not letting go! I hugged her and cried loudly, crying until the sky was dark and stars were in my eyes, crying until my fingertips were twitching and shaking...
When I woke up, I didn't know where I was. It took me a long time to figure out: I hadn't had a drop of water for a day, and I rode wildly all night. I was so sad that I cried so hard that I fainted in Xiaotao's arms...
"Xiao Tao..."
As soon as I opened my mouth, I was startled by my own hoarse voice...
"I'm here."
Xiao Tao held my hand warmly, put my head in her arms, gently pushed aside my bangs and stroked my forehead...
My nose immediately felt sore! I took her hand and
"Xiao Tao, please don't leave me from now on, okay?"
"good."
"Don't ever abandon me, okay?"
"good……"
"Xiao Tao, I just want you to sew the sportswear for me. You can sew it slowly, modify it slowly, no matter how slow it is, I am willing to wait! Because I only want to wear the clothes you sew for me in my life, so please don't stop sewing for me, okay?"
"Okay..." A cold tear fell on my forehead...
"Xiao Tao... I love you the most, please don't hate me, okay? I will definitely protect you well in the future and never let anyone hurt you again. Please stay my good friend, okay..."
"Okay... okay... don't say anymore, don't say anymore, Minmin..." Xiaotao hugged my head tightly, both of us were in tears... Qingqing beside me had already burst into tears...
I fell asleep again in a daze, waking up several times in the middle of the night. I didn’t know if I had a fever, and everything around me was not very clear...
Qingqing Xiaotao came to see me...
Guard Yang came to see me...
The Fourth Prince came to see me...
Xiao Shou also came to see me... He stood at the window as the sun was setting, his sleeves fluttering as if he was about to disappear with the sunset...
He turned around and looked at me with a smile that was blurry and unreal...
His words were so soft but so clear and frightening:
"Minmin, I'm leaving." He said, "I can't protect you now. Wait for me. Wait for me for five years. I will definitely come back."
He gently picked me up, as if he wanted to kiss me, but he finally sighed and put me down. I don’t remember what he said next, but I only remember that his figure when he left the house looked lonely and desolate, even a little sad... It vaguely melted into my unclear dream...
It was two days I became much quieter and spent most of the day in a daze, watching over Xiaotao and Qingqing.
Xiaotao's injury gradually healed, but the severed finger could never be restored. Every time I saw her empty left hand, I would feel a pang of heartache. Xiaotao wanted to hide it, but I refused to let her, because it was a reminder - a reminder for me to remember:
I have people to protect, I can't continue to be reckless.
I have always seen something as if there were a barrier between me and the world, because in my heart, I do not belong here. I am just a passer-by in history, watching from the sidelines. Nothing can hinder me, nothing can restrain me, I can do whatever I want, play as much as I want, and make trouble as much as I want!
I thought that what the world was like had nothing to do with me, but now I was wrong, so wrong!
My heart has long been bound by the people around me. I will be sad when I see them sad, and I will be heartbroken when I see them heartbroken. If I hurt them because of my recklessness and willfulness, I will never forgive myself in my life. I will no longer be a spectator in this world. I can't do it...
Perhaps, when a child realizes that he must be responsible for his own actions, he grows up.
grown up……
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After the Fourth Prince sent Xiao Shou to the north to learn how to lead an army from General Lou, he summoned me on the third day.
I was waiting for his whip and candy, and I wasn't nervous at all.
When Guard Yang brought me over, he was having dinner in the pavilion, with Jiwen and a group of beautiful women serving him.
When I went in, I bowed obediently. Qingqing and Xiaotao were both in his hands. It would be unwise to go against him now.
"sit down."
I sat down obediently.
He stopped talking, and the atmosphere at the dinner table became frighteningly solemn.
He didn't tell me to eat, and I didn't dare pick up my chopsticks. It was boring just sitting there, and soon I fell into a daze.
"You are being honest today."
"Um……"
"Now you know who is the master!"
"Um……"
"If you dare to run away again, don't blame me for being rude!"
"Um……"
"You keep running away, don't you take me seriously?"
"Um……"
"Um?"
"Hmm～～～!" I shook my head quickly!
"I thought you had learned your lesson... Humph!" He snorted coldly and stood up.
I sat still, looking up at him calmly: "I have never been obedient , and I will never be - you know... Qingqing and Xiaotao are in your hands, as long as you treat them well, I will help you. But you are not my master, never - please remember this."
He looked down at me for a long time, and I looked up at him, without wavering or fear. Now I understand that the key to whether a negotiation is vigorous is not actually the height.
"All right," he said at last, "but one day you will come and ask me to be your master."
"That person must not be called Minmin." I said lightly.
He sat back down again, picking up his chopsticks elegantly.
"You have recovered enough. Pack up and go to Prince Luo's Mansion today."
"Yeah." I answered expressionlessly. What is meant to come will always come, right?
He looked up at me, as if surprised at my indifference.
"If there is anything you like in this house, just pick one and take it away."
What is this? Compensation?
"Then I..."
"Qingqing and Xiaotao are not good enough." He interrupted me immediately, paused, and then slowed down his tone, "Let Qingqing go with you. It's always better to have someone you know to serve you. What else do you want?"
"Anyone in this mansion will do?"
"All right."
"Then I want him!"
Everyone was stunned, and I raised my finger firmly and decisively pointing at Guard Yang.
So many people's faces were changing, but the ones that looked the best were those of these two men.
I stood up and said goodbye with a sneer.
"Don't break your promise. I don't need to remind you, Fourth Prince! I still have to go downstairs to take care of the formalities. Minmin will take her leave first."
Then he no longer cared about the colorful scene in the pavilion, turned around and walked out quickly, wishing he would never see that person's face again!
“Minmin… It’s a pity that I didn’t get to eat the food you cooked for me… I don’t know if I will have the chance again in the future…” The man’s sigh came faintly from behind, so low that it was almost inaudible .
I paused for a moment, then continued walking, leaving without looking back...
After saying goodbye to Xiao Tao, I was like a lifeless doll, and the expressionless ladies under Ren Jiwen fiddled with me:
Cleanse, change clothes, put on makeup, style your hair...
The colorful figure in the mirror is not Zhao Minmin, but an offering to King Luo.
The face of King Luo went from clear to blurry in my mind. Qingqing stood in the corner and looked at me worriedly. What should I do in the future? Should I charge forward recklessly or take every step with fear?
When the last ray of light was swallowed by the night, I climbed into the prison-carriage-like sedan in a graceful and standard posture under the flickering candlelight in the Fourth Prince's mansion.
Qingqing held my hand nervously. My cheeks were abnormally red due to my overly gorgeous clothes and heavy makeup. I smiled at myself and thought, what does it matter how beautifully I dress?
This sedan chair will eventually enter through the back door of Prince Luo's Mansion.
but me,
It's a beautifully dressed up dark chess move.
"Get up--the sedan--!"
My body swayed a bit, and I started my unknown journey...
There are no fairy tales in the world when you grow up
I'll lose it when I grow up.
Why can't you see it changing in the crystal ball?
Why is the ending not full of laughter but tears?
Why do wishes made on shooting stars never come true?
Why a brave knight is more dangerous than a dragon
Let's go back to the past, okay?
innocent stupid happy beautiful
I do not want to grow up……
