After returning from the United States, Han Zhou began to keep a diary to record what he saw and heard.
The reason why Han Zhou kept a diary was that he discovered something very special.
I gradually lost my photographic memory.
The ability to get into any role at any time still exists.
The memories of the previous life are still clear, and the memories of the three years before this life are all still there.
But from this period of time on, Han Zhou indeed lost his ability to remember everything he saw.
It all started that day when a group of people went shopping in Los Angeles Chinatown and bought dried persimmons to eat. Wang Xiya asked Han Zhou, "Did you have crab porridge this morning?"
Many things cannot be eaten together, such as persimmons and crabs.
This question tested Han Zhou.
The hotel was specially booked, the meals were also Chinese, and there were many different porridges in the morning.
When asked this question suddenly, Han Zhou couldn't even remember what kind of porridge he had eaten in the morning.
Although Han Zhou soon remembered that he was eating fish porridge.
But it was from this moment that Han Zhou began to recall what he had been doing these days.
Han Zhou discovered that from the first day he arrived in the United States, his brain no longer had 100% backup of memory.
I still remember the more important things very clearly, but I can't remember the unimportant things.
This basically means that the hyperthymesia phenomenon has disappeared, although Han Zhou's memory is still far beyond that of ordinary people.
But Han Zhou also had doubts.
This kind of memory loss starts from the hyperthymesia state and ends at the normal state.
Or will it continue to decline, from hyperthymesia to amnesia or even Alzheimer's?
This is a problem for Han Zhou.
This marks the beginning of a new life for Han Zhou.
Having the ability to remember everything at any time, but still unable to remember some unimportant things, gave Han Zhou some sense of crisis.
In the past, Han Zhou knew every employee in the company.
Once you have read their onboarding information or met them once within the company, you will remember them forever.
With this extraordinary memory, many employees feel that their boss pays attention to them and that they are important, which greatly improves the management ability of technical leaders like Han Zhou.
But from today on, it seems that this is a thing of the past.
In the past, Han Zhou remembered every detail of his life very clearly.
But that’s not the case now.
After the plane landed, Han Zhou asked Alin to buy a notebook.
Arlene bought the best notebook on the market, with a gold border.
Han Zhou wrote his first diary entry on it.
May 4, Youth Day, Sunny
I found that my memory started to deteriorate. Now I can't even remember what the hair that fell out when I combed my hair in the morning looked like, and I can't use this image to count how many hairs fell out.
Although I still remember that there was an extra ink dot on the word "能" in the second row from the left after reading the customs information, my memory has indeed begun to decline.
Will I go from remembering everything to not remembering anything, and finally even the memories in my brain will disappear? 】
Then, Han Zhou began to use his diary to record the most important things in the day, or the most interesting things, or the things he could not forget.
May 7, sunny
Xia's birthday was on the 20th of last month. I was in military training at the time and didn't buy her a gift. When I asked her in Los Angeles, she said she wanted a flower I planted as a gift.
I have to remember to get a sunflower seed this weekend to plant. Although sunflower seeds are best planted on April 20th, which is more than two weeks ago, it's still not too late.
Today Liu Sanqi left the garrison and set out for peacekeeping. He will be back before Youth Day in two years. Then I will go and find him to get the armband he wanted.
Today I finally completed five sets of push-ups, 200 each, and finally caught up with the first group with the most abnormal physical fitness. 】
May 10, cloudy
Fourth uncle said, 'No! We're talking about a lifetime. One year, one month, one day, one hour less, it doesn't count as a lifetime!' This line was well written. When he asked me which girl I wanted to say this to, I said it was Han Jiaxin. Fourth uncle chased me for three blocks but didn't hit me, hahahahahahaha.
I found that the guy named Zhang Qiu in the photography team is quite good, and we can try to send him to Hollywood. 】
[June 1, Children's Day, sunny
Today, my comrade Xiao Lei asked me why I didn’t direct this year’s Children’s Day Gala, and asked me if I had any programs to give to my little fans this year.
Seeing that he couldn't get up because of the log, I tricked him into thinking that the party was pre-recorded and that I was the director this year, and asked him to finish it quickly so that I could go watch TV.
I weighed myself today and I still weigh 121 pounds, which is still too heavy. I need to lose another 10 pounds. 】
June 13, Rain
Last time during the log training I laughed at Xiao Lei, and today Xiao Lei laughed at me.
Now I still weigh 114 kilograms, and I can no longer complete the training course of two people lifting a log.
The instructor asked me to slow down the weight loss rate, thinking that it would be dangerous to continue training like this.
June 23, sunny
At 11:30, the police came to the crew, took me away, and sent me to the hospital to be tested for drug residues.
Someone reported me for taking drugs.
However, although I have lost weight, it is not caused by drug abuse. Lao Jiu found out that it was Zhao Qigang who reported it. I used to think that this person just had a different stance, but now I sneer at him.
But I didn't lose out either, I reported the second male lead in Zhao Qigang's new movie as a prostitute, and the report was successful. 】
June 27, Rain
It’s so hot, it’s finally raining.
Good news came from Teemo. The box office of "The Twilight Saga 2" has reached 230 million US dollars so far, and it is expected to reach nearly 400 million within the period.
The New World American branch is back on the right track.
With Chen Dayong's current ability, it is a waste of his talent to prepare one movie a year. In addition to "Final Destination", I have to write a script for a new series first, and prepare to make Chen Dayong the godfather of horror movies.
A'er recently broke up with his boyfriend, and Laojiu said that he deserved it. However, A'er said that he wanted to go out and try his luck, so he planned to go to the US branch to take a look.
I granted him two weeks' leave.]
July 1, cloudy
Yang Hong found the leather case making experts I needed in Gongshi, Shu Province. Currently, 90% of the world's dinosaur models and giant electronic dinosaur exhibits are made by them.
In order to recruit this person, he spent 7 million yuan in annual salary and a house in Shanghai, and promised that when the movie was filmed, the name of Gongshi Paleontological Research Institute must appear in the plot. This matter cannot be forgotten. 】
July 2, Rain
I tried to recall whether the rifle fixed-point shooting training or the assault shooting training came first at 3 p.m. four days ago, but I couldn't remember.
But four days ago, I finished reading "Combat Japanese Encyclopedia", and I still remember it very clearly.
Now, my memory in normal times is no different from that of ordinary people, but when I am working, my memory is still much better than that of most people. This state seems to have stabilized.
July 3rd.
A scene that had been shot many times in a row had to be shot again.
In front of the fire, the King and Concubine Yu were pressed there.
Through the fire, the camera looked at the people on the opposite side, and they all looked distorted.
When Han Sisheng saw this scene, he had to admit that he was getting old.
At the beginning, Han Zhou and Han Sisheng discussed whether to shoot this segment.
Because the fifth-generation and sixth-generation directors, whom Han Sisheng hated the most, all liked to shoot this kind of film.
Han Sisheng was very determined. He believed that if he could shoot, he would shoot and he must shoot.
The meaning is completely different.
Showing the times is not the same as just showing the times.
Showing darkness is not the same as showing only darkness.
Some people make movies about China, which are about the backward countryside, sad stories, miserable life, and the darkest era.
Whenever you shoot a movie abroad or a period drama, it’s all about the young masters and young ladies, all gorgeous and charming, like scholars who can’t wait to touch three bottles of hairspray.
This is what Han Sisheng despises most about those people.
But this play must have this part, but some things have been changed.
After adding some, everything can be restored.
Wu Liwen, who plays Duan Xiaolou, is very good at acting and was a little trembling at this moment.
Someone in the crowd shouted: "If Duan Xiaolou doesn't surrender, he will die!!"
The crowd suddenly started shouting this slogan.
Duan Xiaolou said unconfidently: "When the war of resistance against Japan just started, he sang for the soldiers of the Sakura Army."
Once these words were spoken, Pandora's box was opened.
Although Duan Xiaolou had tui Cheng Dieyi back then, he knew clearly that Cheng Dieyi was performing in the hall to save him.
But today, in order to save himself, the bully Duan Xiaolou broke down and revealed the secrets of Cheng Dieyi.
After saying this, the timid Duan Xiaolou changed.
He was full of confidence, just like singing an opera, speaking righteously: "He sang for the Kuomintang soldiers, for the reactionary leaders in Beiping Park, for the capitalists, for the landlords, for the ladies and wives..."
"I just don't want to play for my army!"
This sentence was added by Han Zhou, and it is also the actual situation.
Every word is true.
However, Duan Xiaolou shouldn't say these words out of consideration.
The degree of shock to the audience is the same as the original version, but it will not cause smear campaign.
Because Cheng Dieyi really didn't want to perform for our army.
Amid the calls to overthrow Cheng Dieyi, Duan Xiaolou continued, "In order to please the great drama tyrant Yuan Shiqing, he acted as...did you know, he acted as...he acted as, did you know..."
As he spoke and asked, he was crying.
Duan Xiaolou also wanted to know.
At this moment, Cheng Dieyi felt mixed emotions and was completely hopeless.
It’s hard to see clearly under the mask.
All I know is that it’s not a good expression.
On the other side of the crowd, Juxian tried to stop them: “Xiaolou!”
Juxian didn't want Xiaolou to continue talking.
Duan Xiaolou threw Yu Ji's hat and sword into the fire.
Juxian rushed out of the crowd, took the sword out of the fire, and held it tightly in her arms.
Cheng Dieyi has also gone crazy.
"I want to expose it too!"
A classic line that is hard to replicate.
At this moment, a play is being performed, not sung, but at this moment, the crowd is watching the "play" and also "watching the play".
Half a year has passed and I can no longer tell the difference between on and off the stage.
"retribution!"
"Do you think it's the villains who are in power?"
"We have come to this point step by step!"
"retribution!"
Cheng Dieyi's madness here is a scene that many people did not see clearly.
Many people think that it was Cheng Dieyi’s disappointment in Duan Xiaolou that caused him to lose everything.
Actually not, because the last scene of the movie, Cheng Dieyi commits suicide, which is the greatest sorrow than a dead heart.
Such a top-notch movie that fully expresses the art of film does not need two scenes to express the same thing.
There is actually a hidden psychological process in this place.
And the key is the sentence 'You all lied to me'.
Master once said, 'Everyone must watch a play,' and he also said that this play must be performed for a lifetime.
Life is too complicated, people are too complicated, Master doesn’t understand.
Not everyone needs to watch the 'play', but everyone has to 'watch the play'. When there is a chance to 'watch the play', watching the 'play' is no longer important.
And a play cannot be performed forever. A play will always be a play and can never become reality.
Cheng Dieyi has always been very resistant to Juxian. In fact, he is not resistant to Juxian at all. Cheng Dieyi has just thought about something from his own perspective.
Duan Xiaolou will not be with Cheng Dieyi for his whole life, so will Duan Xiaolou be with Juxian for his whole life?
Won't.
Cheng Dieyi, or the mother of young Xiaodouzi, was a female branch girl in the old society. Xiaodouzi's mother was abandoned by his father.
Xiaodouzi didn't know why.
But Cheng Dieyi knew.
During the argument, Cheng Dieyi was very concerned about one thing: since his parents could separate, would Duan Xiaolou and Juxian also separate?
At this moment, Cheng Dieyi was no exception. He was not an immortal with ethereal air.
The evil in his nature was also fully revealed at this moment.
Cheng Dieyi cursed Juxian as a stinky bitch and a nymphomaniac.
The people who were "watching the show" around immediately asked to verify the matter.
Duan Xiaolou did not disappoint Cheng Dieyi at all.
"yes."
"No, no, I want to draw a clear line between us!"
Sure enough, Cheng Dieyi guessed correctly. Duan Xiaolou and Juxian were just like his own parents.
Love in this world cannot stand the test at all.
Cheng Dieyi wants to monopolize Duan Xiaolou.
But after realizing clearly that he could not have her all to himself, he had to settle for the next best options: Duan Xiaolou and Juxian, and Xiang Yu and Yu Ji.
The reason why Cheng Dieyi turned his attention to Juxian after Duan Xiaolou gave up on him was to break them up.
He succeeded.
But he never expected that Cheng Dieyi was the fake Concubine Yu at this moment, and Juxian was both the real Overlord and the real Concubine Yu.
Juxian is the one who loves drama the most.
Under the plaque of "Teacher of All Ages", in front of the Confucius Temple.
When the flames burned out, Juxian returned the sword to Cheng Dieyi and left.
When Cheng Dieyi felt something was wrong, he ran to Duan Xiaolou's house.
All I heard was screaming.
Then he rushed in and saw Juxian, who was wearing a red dress and hanging herself.
Duan Xiaolou wrestled madly with Cheng Dieyi.
All this was destined from the beginning.
Everyone is different, and Duan Xiaolou is a person who can distinguish them very well.
Duan Xiaolou knew that he was acting and that he was a fake Overlord.
Duan Xiaolou knew that if he said he had drawn a line between himself and Juxian and satisfied the "spectators", he would not die, and neither would Juxian.
Duan Xiaolou even knew that Cheng Dieyi could accept it and would not die because of this.
But Duan Xiaolou never expected that Juxian couldn't bear it. Juxian refused to see Ba ​​Wang become a cowardly Duan Xiaolou. Juxian was extremely disappointed. Juxian felt that Duan Xiaolou was someone who could protect her, and even if he couldn't, he could die with her.
But Juxian was wrong.
In this game, everyone is disappointed.
Xiao Si reported Cheng Dieyi and got Yu Ji's costume, but after putting it on, he was found by the "spectators".
Abusing public power will still lead to a dead end and will backfire.
This story has hardly changed much, but it is very subtle.
No one told a lie, not even a word that was unnecessary.
However, there are some things that people should not say, but someone forces you to say them.
There are some things that people shouldn't do, but someone forces you to do them.
The most terrifying thing is that the reasons he uses to force you are not wrong.
Once people get involved in something that is not wrong, mistakes are bound to occur.
Constantly, at every level, there are people who want you to use this right thing to seek personal gain. The end result is that countless people who should not have been affected by this matter have become sacrifices.
Is Duan Xiaolou a good person? No.
Is Cheng Dieyi a good person? No.
Is Juxian a good person? Not at all.
But! Duan Xiaolou is a good person, Cheng Dieyi is a good person, and Juxian is also a good person.
This logic is difficult to understand, but once you understand it, you basically understand human nature.
No one is perfect, but there are indeed people who will find fault with you.
It's useless for you to be as open-minded as Duan Xiaolou.
It's useless for you to not understand it like Cheng Dieyi.
It's no use even if you let go of it like Juxian.
This is the most shocking part of the expression of "Farewell My Concubine".
When people are swept up in the tide of society, tragedy is inevitable no matter what choices you make.
Although "Farewell My Concubine" did not propose a solution, it is touching enough.
Just feel it, don’t think too much. When you can’t grasp all the conditions, your thinking will inevitably lead to wrong answers.
The answer was actually said by the ancients many years ago: doing is more important than thinking.
Keep trying, erroring and correcting to move towards the right path.
If you are wrong, you won’t dare to leave, and then the tragedy will have happened in vain.
At the end of the story, Cheng Dieyi and Duan Xiaolou returned to the stage again after eleven years, and everything seemed to be back on track.
I haven't acted in a play for twenty-three years, and I haven't seen you for eleven years.
Duan Xiaolou suddenly made a joke: "The little nun is only 28 years old!"
Cheng Dieyi was stunned and then subconsciously gave the following sentence: "Zheng Qingchun had his hair cut off by the master."
Duan Xiaolou: "I am a man."
Cheng Dieyi: "She's not a girl."
Duan Xiaolou: "Wrong, wrong again."
This was originally a joke to ease the relationship after many years. Although Duan Xiaolou did not love Cheng Dieyi, he loved Xiaodouzi.
It's not love between men and women, it's love between brothers.
Cheng Dieyi was stunned. Yes, he was wrong again.
The mistake is that I am a man, not a woman, so I can't be the real Yu Ji.
However, while singing, Cheng Dieyi drew his sword and committed suicide just like Yu Ji.
Now, yes.
Duan Xiaolou: "Dieyi!!!"
"Little Bean..."
On July 5th, the filming was completed.
At the wrap-up scene, everyone breathed a sigh of relief.
This movie was so difficult to make.
Han Zhou’s requirements are too high.
Han Sisheng's requirements are even higher than Han Zhou's.
Han Sisheng knew that this would be Han Zhou's masterpiece, so he had to set high standards.
At the wrap-up scene, with Han Sisheng present, there was no one to vent the depressed feeling.
And Han Sisheng vented his anger.
Han Sisheng shook the skinny Han Zhou and said, "We're done! We're done!!"
Han Zhou leaned back on the chair weakly and said, "We're done."
Han Zhou had just gone through the entire filming process of "Farewell My Concubine" and suddenly remembered the elegant man .
The story told in Farewell My Concubine has a premise.
That is, the trick is more important than anything else.
If Duan Xiaolou and Cheng Dieyi had started rehearsing another play, such as Taking Tiger Mountain by Strategy, at the beginning of that era, they would not have encountered this incident.
But they didn't.
Because that's the only play they perform.
Because they can only live their own lives and cannot live the lives of others.
After my brother finished filming Farewell My Concubine, he must have realized that if you take the play more seriously than anything else, something bad will happen one day.
But he didn't regret it.
His life is just like Cheng Dieyi's.
In the subsequent plays, he found the one that best suited him and never left it.
However, Han Zhou's life is different from that of Yu Ji and Cheng Dieyi. Han Zhou's physical weakness reminds himself all the time that Dieyi is a thing of the past and Lu Shouyi is coming. All the roles are just a period of time in his life, not his life.
"I'm not as good as him."
…
One day in mid-July, Han Zhou ended his six-month military career, received a big red flower, and left the green military camp.
When Yang Hong showed up at the company, her first question was: "When will the album be made? Didn't you say it would be released at the end of the year? Why aren't you starting now?"
Han Zhou: "Album? Let's play it."
"Notify Wei Yuan and Han Jiaxin that filming of "Dying to Survive" has begun."
This summer has been really busy.