Chapter 236 This is Me
“Big brother!”
"President!"
Zheng Xiuheng stopped, reached out his hand and rubbed Li Zhien's head, and said with a smile: "How about learning from the three teachers?"
Lee Ji-eun was very happy to see Jung Soo-hyung, but was surprised that the older brother looked more handsome than before: "Big brother, I am still studying hard. Teacher Yoo Hee-yeol said that I am doing well. Big brother, your new hairstyle is so handsome. Do you wear contact lenses?"
Zheng Xiuheng smiled and said, "It's just a new hairstyle. As for contact lenses, they are gone. My eyesight is actually very good. By the way, Jiyeon!"
"Ah, is there anything I can help you with, President?" Park Ji-yeon stared at with a red face. In fact, her thought was the same as Lee Ji-eun's. The current president looked so handsome. Perhaps this was the type that young girls liked more. Sunny was better than mature and steady.
"Come back home when you have time. Even though your father made mistakes, no matter what the reason, since he is willing to change, it is always a step in the right direction. Since we are family, please be more tolerant!"
"Both of you should work hard, whether you want to be a singer or an actor, especially Jieun, big brother has a lot of expectations for you, but now, you can do what you want to do most. Tomorrow I will tell the teachers to teach you what you want to learn most. Everything is determined by your preferences. Work hard and make music happily, understand?"
Zheng Xiuheng gently pinched Li Zhien's little face. Li Zhien blushed and nodded her head excitedly.
After saying goodbye to the two little girls, Zheng Xiuheng walked downstairs. Lee Hyori, who was following behind him, looked at Zheng Xiuheng in great astonishment.
When they got to the first floor, Zheng Xiuheng came to the practice room again and gave them pocket money so that they could eat good food. The five girls who were practicing hard were shocked by such a sunny president. When Choi Ji-na heard Park Ji-yeon say that the president had a twin brother, she wondered, could it be true?
Standing at the company gate, with the afterglow of the setting sun shining on him, Zheng Xiuheng stretched lazily, his eyes fixed on the sky. The evening sky made him a little dazed.
"Hey, aren't we going to eat? Are we just going like this?" Lee Hyori asked in a stiff tone, looking at Zheng Xiuheng with a sunny face, but her eyes were full of curiosity when she looked at Zheng Xiuheng.
Zheng Xiuheng turned around to look at Lee Hyo-ri, who was dressed gorgeously, then looked at his own white shirt and black trousers, and then smiled and said, "That's it. If you're not afraid, that's it!"
"ah?"
"that's all!"
Zheng Xiuheng grabbed Lee Hyori's hand and pulled her to the other side of the street, which scared Lee Hyori. But when she saw that there was no emotion except tenderness in Zheng Xiuheng's eyes and a smile on his face, and there was not even a trace of worry, she somehow used a little more force with her left hand.
Thinking about the scandal that might sweep the Internet tomorrow, Lee Hyori shook her hair, looked at the man next to her, and suddenly smiled. That kind of vitality was really fascinating.
The two were walking on the street, and people around them were already shouting "Lee Hyori". Seeing the two holding hands was even more crazy.
After walking a few hundred meters, the two entered a Western restaurant.
The two chatted and laughed in the western restaurant. Lee Hyori no longer said "mom" to Jung Soo-heng. The two were dating like a couple, and Lee Hyori cleverly took the opportunity to ask Jung Soo-heng many questions. Jung Soo-heng answered some of them, but for some he cutely said they were secrets.
After dinner, the Internet was already flooded with news about Lee Hyori and a mysterious man holding hands while shopping and having dinner, and the entire Internet was in an uproar.
But the parties went to the cinema after dinner, and after watching a romantic movie sweetly, it was not yet ten o'clock. Zheng Xiuheng seemed to use up all the time of the day, and Lee Hyo-ri was also influenced by Zheng Xiuheng and became devoted, her words became more unrestrained, and she also resumed the words of sister and mother, and occasionally stretched out her hand to pinch Zheng Xiuheng's cheek, while Zheng Xiuheng laughed back, and the two laughed and joked on the road, as if they had taken off all the shackles.
When we arrived at Myeongdong Shopping Street, although the flow of people had decreased, it was just the closing time for some shops.
The two were walking hand in hand on the commercial street, and behind them were many people taking photos with their mobile phones.
"There are so many people behind us, aren't you worried? I'm the pillar of the company. What will you do if it's ruined because of this?" Lee Hyori asked with a smile, holding Zheng Xiuheng's hand. The slippers on her feet swung as she walked, and she looked very happy.
Zheng Xiuheng also smiled and replied : "There are always many things that must be done in life, just treat it as an indulgence, some things must be completed!"
"So what exactly do you want to accomplish?" Lee Hyori asked curiously.
Zheng Xiuheng looked at the bright shopping mall around him, then looked at the sky, and then smiled: "Because, I didn't jump out of a stone, so I am not alone, so there must be something to do!"
"Tsk, fake mystery!" Lee Hyo-ri curled her lips and replied in dissatisfaction, but at this moment, her mood could no longer be described as excited. After so many years in the entertainment industry, she had never been so crazy. She was already a 28-year-old woman. To Zheng Xiuheng, Lee Hyo-ri felt that she was an old woman. She had gotten what she deserved, and now she was pursuing more things, which was different from before. Today, she did something that she would never dare to do before. The resentment and dissatisfaction that had accumulated in her heart also disappeared during the date with Zheng Xiuheng.
Looking at the boys and girls taking photos around her, Lee Hyori raised her scissors hands with a smile.
"Hyori, are you dating?" a girl shouted loudly.
Lee Hyori smiled and replied: "This is my cousin, handsome, isn't he? Haha!"
Zheng Xiuheng smiled slightly, thinking that his sister was really smart when she didn't give a direct answer.
Arriving at a shoe store that was still open, Zheng Xiuheng pulled Lee Hyori inside. When they came out, Lee Hyori was already wearing a pair of black flat shoes. Although it looked a bit ruining the overall fashion, Lee Hyori didn't mind, and the two happily wandered around Myeongdong.
They quickly walked around the shopping mall and the alleys, and kept circling around for several times. It was already eleven o'clock when they arrived at the rest square on the east side of Myeongdong Commercial Street. The people who followed them had basically dispersed.
"Are you happy?" Lee Hyori asked with a smile, looking at the smiling man.
Zheng Xiuheng nodded, his eyes sparkling. Lee Hyo-ri was a little surprised, and followed Zheng Xiuheng's gaze, only to find the band packing up after the street performance.
"Why, do you want to perform?" Lee Hyori asked with a smile. Suddenly she thought of something interesting and her eyes rolled around as if she was thinking of something.
Zheng Xiuheng did not hide his thoughts at all, and nodded directly, saying: "Now there are a lot of inspirations coming from all directions!"
"Yeah?"
Lee Hyori suddenly excitedly pulled Zheng Xiuheng and ran forward. Zheng Xiuheng did not resist. The two came to the band that was already packing up.
"Lee, Lee Hyori!"
Four boys who looked like college students screamed in fear, and then their faces became excited.
"Can I borrow your keyboard and equipment?" Lee Hyori asked with a smile, raising her head slightly.
"sure!"
"Wow, I must be dreaming, Lee Hyori wants to use my keyboard!"
Looking at the excited boys, Lee Hyori responded with a smile, and Jung Soo-heng did the same. In fact, maybe they are about the same age as themselves, and it is really nice to make music and perform together like this.
Soon, the four young men placed the keyboard, connected the microphone and speakers, and looked at Lee Hyori expectantly, thinking she was going to perform.
Lee Hyo-ri looked at Jung Soo-heng, who turned around and smiled, "Actually, today is the twelfth year since mom and dad left. Thank you so much, thank you for caring about me, and thank you for being with me for this period of time. Even if it's a lie today, even for just one day, I want them to know that I'm living a happy life. I didn't deliberately avoid you or do anything on purpose, because those are who I am now. It's not fake, I am just like this!"
"Thank you, my lovely cousin."
Zheng Xiuheng bowed 90 degrees to Lee Hyori. The smile on his face slowly faded. He turned and walked towards the keyboard not far away and slowly sat down on the chair.
Lee Hyori stared at Zheng Xiuheng blankly, the excitement on her face disappeared, and she suddenly bit her lower lip. She looked at Zheng Xiuheng with an extremely painful look and her nose felt a little sour.
"It turns out that it's not that he ignored me, but that I simply didn't understand him!"
Zheng Xiuheng has countless things to say to his relatives, whether they are his parents or Zheng's father and mother. But as for his biological parents, Zheng Xiuheng finally stopped avoiding the question at this moment, just like comforting the girl on the radio, maybe heaven is so close.
Zheng Xiuheng also wanted to let them know that he was alive and well, today, the twelfth year. One cycle of time was enough for him to walk out of the forbidden zone that he didn't want to touch.
Everyone has his or her own memories, which have happy and beautiful parts as well as sad and painful parts.
A small room, a piano, books, the sky outside the window, small trees in the yard, the sunlight shining into the cottage and onto the pale and weak-looking boy, who just stared blankly at the sky. This was Zheng Xiuheng's lifestyle for nearly half of the past ten years.
From a teenager to today, Zheng Xiuheng has experienced physical pain and suffering, and his heart has been surrounded by loneliness. Whether it is Lee Hyori or Han Ga In, Zheng Xiuheng cannot accept them, not because he deliberately rejects them or avoids them, but because this is the real him.
If Soo-jung was older, she might understand her brother better. If Soo-yeon wasn't so determined, perhaps Jung Soo-heng would have slowly melted into her heart two years ago.
But there is no if after all. Apart from his parents, no one has ever truly entered Zheng Xiuheng's heart. It has nothing to do with responsibility, it's just emotion.
Zheng Xiuheng put his hands on the keyboard. He had a lot to say, and perhaps it would be easier for them to hear him this way.
"bite!"
The soothing and emotional keyboard sound made the four young men who were still confused look over in amazement. Although it was not a difficult performance, just an ordinary code caught their ears and attracted their attention. The boy with glasses thought he could not do it.
Zheng Xiuheng had a faint smile on his face, his eyes seemed empty, or as if he was looking at the distant sky, and he sang along with the music.
"No matter what night
I'm not used to looking up at the sky.
Because it's like the whole world
Abandon me
I don't like that subtle mood.
The sun setting far away
It will rise again tomorrow
But it seems that it is no longer
The sun that once shone on me
Even if you go far away
New feelings will still come
But after that unforgettable separation
You still touch my heart deeply
Sometimes I laugh because I like it
And more often it is because of the feeling of happiness
You still
Still buried deep in my heart
When speaking to anyone
I have the habit of keeping half of what I say.
Because it's like it's all said.
will be thrown away
I don't like this subtle feeling.
That half-treasured mood
No one can give
I hate being discovered when I'm half broken.
Even if you go far away
New feelings will still come
But after that unforgettable separation
You still touch my heart deeply
Sometimes I laugh because I like it
And more often it is because of the feeling of happiness
You still
Still buried deep in my heart..."
Zheng Xiuheng looked at the sky with red eyes, his vision became a little blurry. Maybe one day he would be able to completely forget everything and would not be so painful anymore, but would he still be human at that time?
In the blurry vision, I seemed to see my mother's smiling face and my father's serious expression again.
In my mind, the boy lying on the hospital bed looked at the sky outside the window and slowly closed his eyes. Tears rolled down his cheeks again and he cried... I don't know how many times he had cried.
For the boy, perhaps his tears had really dried up long ago.
Many people were attracted by the singing, and some sensitive girls shed tears. Perhaps it was because Zheng Xiuheng sang too sadly, or perhaps it was because of her own rich emotions, but Zheng Xiuheng did not stop singing!
"Where are you guys?
Are you still worried about me?
You may have forgotten me
And I sometimes wonder
Clear all time.
But I still can't
Mention your names calmly
If it weren't for you
Who else will come to hug me
If it weren't for me
Who else will remember you?
Even if separated
I will go on forever and ever
There are still many things I can't say
There is still love that cannot be fully poured out in my heart
You still, still
You are still in my heart..."
Living with a mask, living cheerfully, living happily, or living alone are just a way of life.
People always choose how to live based on the life path they face, but most people cannot get the lifestyle they want most.
But everyone has the right to be willful, to give up all so-called paths, just to do something willful, boring, and uninteresting in the eyes of others...
This was the last time that Zheng Xiuheng acted like a willful child.
And tomorrow... let's leave it to tomorrow.
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Note: "Evening Sky" with slightly changed lyrics.
