That night, I was lying in bed at home reading a book when I suddenly received a call from Bao Kangqi.
I was stunned, thinking that I didn't give him my number that day, where did he get it from? But when I thought about it, the only people he could contact were Su Mo and Su Yunjin. My heart sank, and I could only keep hypnotizing myself, sure that it was Su Mo who gave him the number.
He was still cheerful on the other end of the phone, but he hesitated several times. I got impatient and interrupted him, saying, "Just tell me what you want to do!"
"Hmm." He considered carefully, and spoke after a while, "This Saturday night, a few of my good friends and I are going to the riverbank to have some fun and have some barbecue. Do you want to come?"
I was a little speechless, thinking that I had only known him for a short time, why did he suddenly ask me out like this? So I refused without thinking too much.
In the following days, he asked me out several times, but I always declined with various reasons. Because I talked to him while singing that day, and I felt that although he was not a bad person, it was a pity that he had a childhood friend like Zhuang Yi who was annoying. Moreover, I felt that he and I were not the same kind of people at all. The only bond between us was Su Mo and Su Yunjin. If he asked me out alone, I had no need to go.
Yes, if we are not of the same kind, it is better to have less contact with each other, I thought.
It was March, and the cherry blossoms on Chunlai Street were in full bloom like clouds and rosy clouds. I thought that I hadn't seen Su Yunjin for a long time, so I planned to go find him.
The warm spring breeze made my nose itchy. I sneezed, rubbed my eyes, and opened them again to see Su Yunjin and Zhou Shiyun. She was dragging Su Yunjin somewhere, and when she saw me, she looked like she didn't want to bother with me.
I didn't talk to her either, just looked at Su Yunjin quietly.
In this kind of weather, with blue sky, white clouds, slightly warm wind, and his pursed lips, I suddenly remembered four words: "Life is just a dream." It was like a beautiful dream with no end.
"Xiao Di, is there something wrong?" He spoke first, leaving Zhou Shiyun feeling a little embarrassed.
I wanted to go see the cherry blossoms with him, but I looked at Zhou Shiyun and didn't say anything more. Zhou Shiyun smiled knowingly and said that they were going to participate in the drama club's activities. At the end, she asked me, "Xiao Di, do you want to go?"
She knew very well that the president of the drama club was against me... In short, I had already offended the president. Not to mention participating in their club's activities, he would probably want to tear me apart if I appeared in front of him.
I took a deep look at Zhou Shiyun, the culprit of all this. If it weren't for her... But she didn't care about my look at all, and was about to pull Su Yunjin away while talking and laughing.
Su Yunjin opened her mouth and wanted to say something to me, but at this time the president of the drama club came over. He glanced at me and said nothing, but a group of people were waiting for Su Yunjin and Zhou Shiyun, and urged them to leave quickly.
Su Yunjin was a little embarrassed, and finally nodded at me, motioning me to leave alone.
I forced a smile at him, nodded and said okay, but my heart suddenly fell into sadness again, just like that night when he didn't send me home. I didn't blame him, but I felt very upset.
I lowered my head, without chattering about Su Mo or Su Yunjin as usual, and walked towards the school gate alone.
It was time for school to be over, and there were many people at the school gate, but I saw Bao Kangqi at first sight. But I have to admit that he stood out from the crowd, with a thin and tall figure. I didn't know why he came here, but I vaguely didn't want to talk to him, so I didn't say hello and planned to avoid him.
But some people really can't be avoided. I just took a few steps and he saw me and suddenly called me: "Xiao Di, you finally came out."
The girls who were chattering around him suddenly fell silent, and all looked at me along his line of sight. He ignored them and walked towards me with a smile.
I frowned and felt very annoyed in my heart, because I really didn't like the feeling of being stared at.
But he seemed to think that other people's gazes were not ambiguous enough, so he came over and asked me: "Xiao Di, come with me to eat."
I looked up at him, he was showing his iconic white teeth, waiting for my reply with confidence. But I asked, "Where is it?"
"Fu Man Lou." He gave me the name, which surprised me. Because last time when we were singing, I mentioned it to him briefly, saying that I had eaten at Fu Man Lou with Su Mo and others before, and I liked the food there very much, but unfortunately the restaurant was always crowded and it was difficult to reserve a table. I didn't expect him to take it so seriously, and he remembered it after I mentioned it once.
Now I had nothing else to say. It would seem unkind to refuse him again, so I had no choice but to bite the bullet and go to Fumanlou with him.
Bao Kangqi kept chattering on the way, and I chatted with him from time to time, but I was thinking about Su Yunjin in my heart, and wondering what Zhou Shiyun would do next.
When we got to the restaurant and sat down, I realized that Bao Kangqi had ordered a table full of dishes that I liked. Anyway, I was still a little touched, so I thanked him quietly. Unexpectedly, he looked flattered, as if I had been abusing him before.
The two of us started eating. There happened to be a bowl of chicken soup on the table that I liked. I hurriedly scooped a bowl and started drinking. I didn't expect that the chicken soup was sprinkled with chopped green onions and a layer of oil was floating on the surface, so it didn't emit steam and didn't look very hot. I took a sip and shivered from the heat. But I couldn't spit it out or swallow it. My face turned red and I couldn't speak.
Bao Kangqi saw that something was wrong with me, so he quickly found a small bowl and motioned for me to spit it out.
After I took the bowl and spit out the soup, before I could say anything, he started scolding me and angrily asked me why I was so careless. His originally handsome eyebrows and eyes looked strange.
I was totally confused and shrugged my shoulders. I didn't know what was going on. After all, it was me who was burned, not him.
Finally, I had to pour myself a glass of lemonade, but the water was sour and cold. I guess I got burned just now. The sour taste in my mouth was unstoppable. Bao Kangqi got even more furious when he saw it, and left me and walked out.
I don't think something is right. Why did he suddenly become so fierce?
After a long while, he came back with the ointment in his hand and asked me to apply it immediately.
I rolled my eyes. How can I eat after applying the ointment?
Before he could even utter a word, he asked the waiter to take away the spicy and delicious dishes, and without blinking an eye, he ordered a few light and delicious but very expensive dishes.
At that moment, I was a little touched. It turned out that although he looked silly, he was actually considerate and gentle to others.
I mumbled "thank you" to him. He was stunned and didn't say anything. He crossed his arms and waited with me for the new dishes to come.
When the new dishes came, they were all watery and I didn’t like them at all, so I lost interest.
Bao Kangqi seemed to love spicy food just like me. He picked up a few dishes for me and ate a little bit himself. The two of us suddenly fell silent, and fell into an extremely subtle and awkward atmosphere. Finally, he said, "Eat less this time. Your mouth was burned like that, and you were not careful. Let's come to this restaurant again next time we have a chance."
I cried quietly in my heart, I didn’t want this to happen either! But in the end I didn’t say anything, my heart still felt sweet as if I had eaten honey.
"Kang Qi, you are here too?" A strange male voice suddenly came from behind.
I turned around and saw a boy I had never seen before, but he was also quite good-looking. There was a girl standing next to him. I could tell from her appearance that she must be from a wealthy family, just like Bao Kangqi.
When Bao Kangqi saw an acquaintance, he smiled his signature silly smile again.
The two of us talked for a few words, and the boy's eyes fell on me again, with a meaningful look, exactly the same as Zhuang Yi's annoying look. He raised his chin to me in a somewhat arrogant manner and asked Bao Kangqi: "Who is this? Why don't you introduce yourself?"
Looking at his expression, I no longer had any favorable impression of him. I didn't say anything, didn't say hello, and just lowered my head and drank the newly served warm soup in silence.
Bao Kangqi scratched his head, not knowing what to say, and finally could only say: "Ah, she is my friend."
The boy obviously didn't believe it, and pretended to be natural and pulled the girl next to him, saying with a smile: "Oh, is it the girl Xiaoyi mentioned last time who reminded you at the subway station?" Then he immediately added, "How can it be such a coincidence? I really want to go find that thief uncle and ask him."
My body stiffened. It was true that birds of a feather flock together. Everyone around Zhuang Yi was like this.
I stirred the soup spoon in the white porcelain bowl with a clinking sound. I suddenly raised my head, looked directly into the boy's eyes, and asked him word by word, "Really? Then you must take me with you."
Seeing that I was angry, Bao Kangqi hurriedly said a few vague words to get the boy away. The boy was not so tactless, but he stepped on my foot when he left: "Well, next time you encounter the same thing at the subway station, you have to remind me."
I held back my words, feeling a fire burning inside me. What had I done to offend anyone? Why was I being suspected over and over again just because I kindly reminded someone?
So from then on, I didn’t say a word to Bao Kangqi. No matter how he coaxed me, I remained silent.
As soon as I finished eating, I told Bao Kangqi that my mother was alone at home, waiting for me to come back, otherwise she would be anxious. He had no choice but to send me back. I didn't even want him to send me home, but he insisted again and again, so I agreed.
There were many people walking on the street at night. Passing Chunlai Street, the cherry blossoms were beautiful. I looked up, blowing the falling cherry blossoms and watching the moths fluttering under the dim street lights.
"Xiao Di..." Bao Kangqi seemed to have something to say.
"Don't come to see me again in the future." I spoke before he did.
He was startled, his expression showing panic, and he asked nervously, "Why?"
I closed my eyes, the taste of the ointment still in my mouth. Then I thought back to what happened after I met this young man, and I felt uncomfortable all over, like the doubts and even contempt of his friends, and the unwarranted hostility of the infatuated girls on the street towards me.
I have nothing to do with him, so I don't have to endure so much for him.
I have never been a person with a delicate and gentle mind, so I directly expressed my thoughts: "Because your existence has brought me a lot of troubles."
Unexpectedly, Bao Kangqi smiled slightly and said nonchalantly: "It's okay, I like you very much."
At that moment, I almost suspected that I had heard it wrong. After all, we had only met a few times and didn't know each other that well. How could he suddenly confess to me?
I blurted out: "You like me? What do you like about me?"
Bao Kangqi didn't expect me to ask this, and said to me slowly: "I like it, so why do you have to ask so many questions?"
I complained in my heart, this line was from many years ago, and you still use it on me, do you think I am still a pure girl? I rolled my eyes and looked up at him.
The dim light fell on the tops of our heads, and his tall and thin shadow easily covered me. At that moment, I saw his eyebrows and his face, which were actually no worse than Su Yunjin's. It was also the first time I looked at him so seriously, as if I had just met him for the first time.
He felt embarrassed by my gaze, and his face turned red. He closed his eyes with a flushed face and pressed his lips against mine. I saw that the situation was not good, so I pushed him away: "What are you doing?"
He didn't expect me to refuse. His face turned red like a tomato. It took him a long time to say, "I thought you..."
“What do you think…” I also felt a little embarrassed and turned my head away, not daring to look him in the face. “I was just looking…looking at how shameless you are!”
He walked up to me and grabbed my hand fiercely, like a little kid, and said in a coquettish tone: "Yes, I am very thick-skinned, what can you do to me?"
I was so shocked by his deliberate cuteness that I gasped, shook off his hand, and my face turned red.
"I'm leaving now. Don't come to see me again. I beg you!"
Before he could say anything disgusting, I quickly covered my ears and ran away. I ran home breathlessly. My mother asked me where I had been, but I didn't answer. I went into the house alone and locked the door.
Leaning against the somewhat cold door, I slowly calmed down and thought, if only it was Su Yunjin who said these words to me tonight.
At this moment, the wound in my mouth started to hurt again, reminding me not to daydream...
After that day, I stopped talking to Bao Kangqi. Whenever he called me, I hung up. When he called me again, I hung up again. Finally, I simply put him on my blacklist and ignored all his greetings and attacks. Sometimes, when the moon is bright and the wind is clear, I walk alone on the street where cherry blossoms are falling, and I think of the scene at that time.
I asked myself this question over and over again, and then thought about it .
Actually, how should I put it? I was happy in my heart, but that happiness only came from the vanity of being confessed by some outstanding boys at this age. I knew very well that it was not love.
On the other hand, I was a little uneasy. After all, although I'm not self-deprecating, I'm indeed an ordinary girl. I don't have the quiet and peaceful feeling of Su Mo, nor am I as ostentatious as Zhou Shiyun. There is no benefit in liking me like this.
At this moment, a tall shadow suddenly appeared in front of me and blocked my way. When I looked up, I saw Bao Kangqi's face, which was distorted because of anger.
"What for?" I asked knowingly.
He didn't say anything, just stared at me blankly. After a moment of silence, he suddenly reached out and grabbed my shoulder, and asked me viciously, "An Xiaodi, do you really want to hide from me like this?"
I closed my eyes, turned my head away from him, and said to the air next to me, "I made it very clear that night, right? We are not the same kind of people at all."
Without waiting for his response, I continued, my tone very calm and confident: "Look at what your friends around you think of me. I just happened to see you were about to be robbed at the subway station and kindly reminded you. How come your friends started to talk about it and made it seem like I was going to steal your things. I know that your family is very rich, richer than Momo and Yunjin's family, but it is precisely because your family is very rich that it is very tiring for us to get along with each other."
I said it very decisively, and my expression was definitely cold. Bao Kangqi was almost dejected by what I said, but he didn't give up the last bit of hope, and asked me with sparkling eyes: "What if Xiaoyi and the others didn't say that?"
I smiled coldly after hearing that: "You are too naive, Bao Kangqi. Your friends already have this view of me, so no matter how hard you try to change it, it will be difficult to change their minds. Besides, they already think this way about me, don't they? If you can change their future thoughts, can that alleviate my inexplicable grievances? The problem between us is that you and I are in different positions."
I forced him to the point where he was speechless. He just looked at me with unhappiness written all over his face.
But what can I do if I’m unhappy? I’m still unhappy.
So I turned and left without waiting for him to speak.
I originally thought that he would give up, but what happened in the next few days surprised me.
That afternoon, my eyelids were twitching. When I walked to the school gate, I found a group of girls gathered there, talking about something.
As expected, as soon as I got closer, I found that it was Bao Kangqi standing there, holding a bouquet of roses in his hand. I felt bad, and quickly turned around and went to the South School Gate. It took me three more stops to get home.
As a result, the next day, he showed up at the gate of our school on time again. This time, before I had time to escape, I suddenly heard Zhou Shiyun's coquettish voice: "Hey... Xiaodi!"
I rolled my eyes and tried to dodge, but she kept coming forward and tried to stop me. I got so angry that I pushed her away and turned around and walked away.
The climax of everything was on the third day.
That afternoon, the school gate was crowded with people. I could hear Bao Kangqi shouting from a distance with a common loudspeaker, "An Xiaodi, I like you."
What era is this? Such old-fashioned methods are still popular. Moreover, his broken voice and the inferior loudspeaker, I really can't afford to lose face in front of him, so I had to bite the bullet and push through the crowd to walk towards him. During this time, I also saw the angry dean of teaching, whose eyes made my scalp tighten.
"You're here as expected." Before I could say anything, he pretended to give me the rose.
"Are you annoying?" I finally couldn't help it. "Don't you have to go to class? You come to block me all day long!"
He smiled and didn't answer.
Seeing so many people here, I didn't know what to say, so I turned around and was about to leave. This time, he was smart and followed me. As a result, I saw Zhou Shiyun again. She looked at me with anger, gloating and complacency.
"Thank you. As soon as I did what you said, Xiao Di came." Seeing Zhou Shiyun, Bao Kangqi actually said, "I'll treat you to a meal next time I have a chance, haha!"
I stopped abruptly and turned to look at Zhou Shiyun and Bao Kangqi. He almost bumped into me. I looked at them in disbelief, then frowned and said to Bao Kangqi, "If you dare to treat her to a meal, you'll never see me again in your life!"
"Okay, okay." Zhou Shiyun said as if nothing had happened, "If you don't want to eat, then don't eat. I don't need this bite of food."
I was so angry that smoke came out of my head and I left without saying a word.
The two of us walked on the street for a long time. I saw that the number of familiar faces around us had gradually decreased, so I spoke to Bao Kangqi: "Hello!"
"Hmm?" He responded softly from behind me.
"What exactly do you want?" I know it's useless to ask this kind of question.
"I don't want anything..." He couldn't explain it clearly, "At least you don't hide from me all day like this."
"But..." I felt very annoyed, "If you are like this, Yunjin..."
Both of them fell into silence.
Finally, Bao Kangqi couldn't stand it anymore and gave in: "How about you stop hiding from me in the future, and I won't come to your school often to shout those nonsense. Actually, I am shy too."
"You don't come here often, does that mean you'll come again?" I was shocked.
"Well... it won't come."
"Okay, next time Momo and the others hang out together, I can come too." I said after thinking for a while.
So that evening, Bao Kangqi and I made a gentleman's agreement that although he was still certain that I would like him, he would not interfere with my normal life.
When we separated, he suddenly took out a tube of ointment and looked at me tenderly: "It definitely won't get better if you used it once that day, take it back and use it."
I nodded, took the ointment and said goodbye, but my face inexplicably turned red.
Before he could come to his senses, I had already fled from his sight at a rapid speed, not even daring to breathe, my feet feeling like they were on Hot Wheels.
That night, I held the stuffed doll anxiously, thinking wildly in my mind, I was very worried that Su Yunjin would hear these rumors. In fact, there was nothing between Bao Kangqi and me. But what could I do when I met such a person?
As a result, when I arrived at school the next day, it was clear that something was wrong with the way everyone looked at me.
Before I entered the classroom, I met Zhou Shiyun in the corridor. She was talking to several girls who usually liked to gossip about others. She looked so excited that she was like those bored old ladies. Only when I got closer did I hear that she was talking about me and Bao Kangqi.
"That Bao Kangqi is a very famous person in their school. You have seen his appearance. He is also very good-looking, but he has liked An Xiaodi for such a long time. Tsk tsk..."
"So long?" I frowned when I heard this, and a few girls saw me. Although I was the kind of person who liked to gossip about others, I had to be cautious when the person involved suddenly appeared, so I coughed to remind Zhou Shiyun.
Zhou Shiyun turned around and saw me, but she didn't care. She looked at me with a smile and went into the classroom.
I was so angry, but I had no place to vent my anger, so I had to go in and attend class.
After school was over in the afternoon, I waited for a long time on the path near the playground, because I knew this was the place where Su Yunjin had to go home every day. Finally, he came, but his expression was still indifferent. I hesitated for a long time before calling him: "Ah, Yunjin."
He seemed to have just noticed me at this moment. In the sunlight, his skin seemed translucent and the whole person looked hazy.
"Xiao Di, long time no see."
I muttered to myself, yes, it's been a long time since we last met, and you didn't come to see me. I couldn't find the beginning of the conversation, and the first sentence I said was: "There's nothing between Bao Kangqi and me..."
My face turned red after I said this, because I didn't know what identity I had to say this to Su Yunjin, and why I should say this to him.
But the next second, the indifferent aura of Su Yunjin hurt me again. He just said "oh" indifferently, as if he was eating something very ordinary or reading a very simple book.
Zhou Shiyun appeared at this time. Her coquettish look was like a jar of honey that made people uncomfortable. As soon as she saw me, she said, "Ah, Xiaodi, congratulations, and that Bao Kangqi, although he looks silly, he is still very handsome."
I glared at her and said nothing.
She was not afraid of making things complicated, and kept on giving hypocritical blessings to Bao Kangqi and me. Finally, I couldn't help it and blurted out, "Are you annoying?"
When Zhou Shiyun saw that I was angry, she didn't say much even though Su Yunjin was in front of her. She just stood aside and laughed secretly.
At this time, Su Yunjin spoke: "That... Xiaodi..."
"Hmm?" A glimmer of hope suddenly ignited in my heart. I looked up at him. I could even see my own anticipation in his ink-black pupils .
However, what he said next instantly extinguished all my enthusiasm: "Shiyun and I are going to participate in the drama club's activities."
I had nothing to say. I nodded and shook my head, watching Zhou Shiyun follow Su Yunjin away.
Looking at the two people's backs as they left, I felt angry and disappointed. In fact, I couldn't blame anyone, but I just couldn't convince myself.
At night, Bao Kangqi suddenly called me.
Since we made an agreement last time, I also pulled him off my blacklist. He said excitedly on the phone that he had a gift for me and asked me to go get it. I was actually not interested at all, so I refused to go out. As a result, he said that he was standing under the sycamore tree downstairs from our house, and threatened me that if I didn't go to get it, he would bring it up himself.
I opened the window and looked out, and sure enough, I saw him waving at me from downstairs. I thought that since my parents were at home, I couldn't let this guy into our house, otherwise I didn't know how much trouble he would cause.
So I changed out of my pajamas, put on my slippers and went downstairs.
When he saw me, he smiled happily and took out a silk scarf to cover my eyes. I felt weird, but I didn't dare to resist. After all, if this guy got crazy, he might confess his love to me downstairs with a loud speaker.
After waiting for a long time and he finished counting the cheesy "three, two, one...", my eyes suddenly lit up and I saw that he was holding a glowing bottle.
“This is…” I couldn’t think of what this was for a moment.
"Fireflies!" he answered me cheerfully.
I looked at the fireflies bumping around in the bottle, and suddenly, I felt so heartbroken that I actually shed a few tears.
Bao Kangqi didn't expect me to burst into tears, so he quickly put away the bottle, clumsily wiped my tears, and naggingly comforted me: "If you don't like it, then you don't like it. Why are you crying?"
I felt extremely wronged now, and I cried even more sadly with a pout on my face.
"Stop crying, or your neighbors will think I did something to you."
No matter how funny or stupid his words were, I couldn't laugh. I choked for a long time before I could finally utter a complete sentence: "Bao Kangqi... do you know... do you know... it's all because of you."
"Ah?" He was totally confused.
"I like Yunjin." I finally said it, and then tears burst out like a flood, "I like him, it's all because of you, he must think I'm with you now."
This time even Bao Kangqi didn't know what to say.
After waiting for a long time, he finally said sullenly: "I think you will like me, but now I can keep Yunjin from knowing this."
After saying that, he turned around and disappeared into the darkness.
My tears slowly stopped after I watched him leave. But I knew that it was not his fault. However, sometimes when I am angry or wronged, I have to vent. Facing Su Yunjin's indifferent attitude, I felt like my emotions fell on a soft pillow, powerless and without any way to deal with it.
The streets are so quiet late at night. All the likes and partings are shrouded in silence. No one knows in which corner of the world the turbulent stories and emotions are spreading.
I think that in many things and stories, even if you don't say anything or do anything, others can still feel your feelings. This is true for Su Yunjin and Bao Kangqi.
Later, in order to avoid seeing Bao Kangqi and to see Su Yunjin more, I went to Su Mo's house every few days. Her parents had known me for a long time, and they were not polite and happily helped me call her Su Mo.
Occasionally, I would see Su Yunjin. He was still very nice to me as before, but I couldn’t tell why. I always felt that this kindness was very faint, so faint that it made me feel like I was dreaming.
Once when I was doing homework at Su Mo's house, she suddenly mentioned Bao Kangqi and kept praising him, saying that he was good at studying and handsome, and popular in school, and that he would be a great boyfriend. I was lying on the table writing an essay, and the sharp tip of the pen accidentally pierced through the paper. I rolled my eyes and said nothing.
Seeing that I didn't respond, Su Mo continued to tease me: "Actually, I think he's pretty good, Xiao Di, why don't you like him?"
When I heard this, I put down the pen in my hand, turned my head and looked at her very seriously, then said word by word: "Su Mo, if you make such a joke again, we can break up."
Su Mo had probably never seen me so angry before, so she kept quiet and stopped talking.
After a while, Su's mother asked us to go eat cake together. Su's father was watching TV. Su Mo and I ate the cake made by Su's mother one spoonful at a time and joked. After looking at her for a while, I asked cautiously and pretended to be casual: "Auntie, why don't you see Yunjin again?"
Mother Su laughed. She looked very young in her thirties, and had a sweet feeling all over her body. This was different from Zhou Shiyun's affected beauty. Hers was natural, as if she had been raised in a honey pot since childhood.
After laughing for a while, she said, "He seems to be busy with the school drama club recently... Xiaodi, what clubs do you join? Look at Momo, she doesn't know how to do anything and just stays at home playing every day."
When I heard the word "drama club", my heart skipped a beat and I felt something was not right, but I still smiled and continued chatting with Mother Su.
Before leaving, I said hello to her, but I heard her mention to Su Mo that she would invite Bao Kangqi and the others to come and play next time. I didn't say anything and turned around and left the Su family.
Unexpectedly, I met Su Yunjin at the gate of the community.
Under the dim light, I was dazed for a moment, because I saw him smiling from afar, and that smile was completely different from the smile he usually gave me , or rather, it was exactly the same. I looked at him quietly without calling him, but he walked into the community with a smile on his face, without noticing me at all.
My heart seemed to have fallen into a vacuum world, empty.
I don’t know how long it has been, but when I occasionally think of Bao Kangqi, it feels like a dream. Since that day, he has rarely appeared in front of me. But I know that he is still asking about me intermittently through different people.
When summer was about to arrive, Su Mo suddenly invited me to a tea restaurant in the north of the city. I was full of doubts, thinking that there were delicious foods everywhere, why did we have to go there, but seeing her anxious face, I swallowed my doubts and followed her.
Soon after arriving at the tea restaurant, I discovered that the decoration here was ordinary, the taste of the food seemed to be very ordinary, and it was located outside a university, so I guess the food here is just about cheapness and not quality.
The reserved seat was on the second floor. Su Mo ordered a glass of lemonade and while drinking it, her eyes kept falling on the window. I followed her gaze and saw nothing interesting, so I asked her what she was doing.
Su Mo's face flushed, and she hesitated for a long time without saying anything. I knew something was wrong, but I guessed about 70% of it. Since she didn't want to say it, I didn't point it out. I sat aside, biting the straw of my drink and blowing bubbles.
After a while, Su Mo moved, and I looked out the window, and saw Zhuang Yi and Bao Kangqi. Two people came downstairs, and I felt a headache. I was about to ask Su Mo for help, but I saw her eyes sparkling, and she was concentrating on looking down.
I know she won't look at Bao Kangqi, so she can only look at Zhuang Yi. Although I saw last time that Su Mo likes him, his attitude... and his fiancée doesn't look like a good character either.
I grew up with Su Mo, and I know her very well. I was surprised that she would wait for a boy in a tea restaurant outside his school. Because she and Su Yunjin had good family education since childhood, even when we were alone together, she would tell me that she looked down on girls who behaved improperly to attract their brother's attention. Although the "chance encounter" with Zhuang Yi was not out of line, it also overturned the image of Su Mo in my mind.
Seeing that Su Mo, who has always been self-respecting and dignified, could do this, I began to think that her feelings for Zhuang Yi might be even deeper than I thought.
When I thought about it, I felt even more annoyed.
So I had no choice but to go to the bathroom to calm down.
When I came back, Zhuang Yi and Bao Kangqi were already sitting at our table. Although I didn't want Zhuang Yi and Su Mo to sit together, I had no choice but to sit next to Bao Kangqi.
Zhuang Yi saw me and smiled: "What a coincidence, I can meet you here. Now that we are gathered together, let's have dinner together."
In fact, I knew that he didn't want to talk to me, and he was just thinking about Bao Kangqi's face. But he used that weird voice to disgust me, and I didn't want to embarrass Su Mo, so I didn't get angry. At this time, only I knew in my heart that I was probably betrayed by my best friend, and she and Bao Kangqi colluded to "get what they wanted".
But Bao Kangqi was cheerful at this time, with a silly smile on his face, and he couldn't hide his little thoughts at all. But after not seeing him for a long time, I found that he actually had a little stubble. I stared at him, smiled inexplicably, and then lowered my head to start ordering.
After the meal, I didn't . I just felt it was tasteless. At the same time, I was torn between my conscience and my mind, all thinking about Su Mo and Zhuang Yi's affairs.
On the one hand, she was worried about why her best friend was so short-sighted as to like a bad guy like Zhuang Yi, and on the other hand, she was resentful that Zhuang Yi, who already had a fiancée, was still flirting with other girls and having an ambiguous relationship with Su Mo.
But it must be said that Zhuang Yi knew how to please Su Mo. He picked up food for her, helped her pick out fish bones, and from time to time praised her accessories, looking like he was very good at it.
But the more this happens, the more I feel that he is a smooth talker and just an old hand at playing emotional games. He is not as likable as Bao Kangqi's silly appearance.
So Bao Kangqi started talking to me enthusiastically, and I couldn't help but answer a few words.
After dinner that day, Bao Kangqi wanted to take me home as usual, and I didn't refuse. It was okay to talk to him since we hadn't seen each other for a long time. He asked me about my recent situation earnestly, and I answered him one by one. Even though I was very cold, when we said goodbye, I could still feel his joy and excitement as I watched his thin figure leave.
Is this what it means to like someone?
Even if you do nothing and say nothing, just seeing each other is the best.
I went home, opened the window, faced the bright starry sky, and let out a long sigh.