Do you want to apologize to Qin Ye?
Su Yuwei hesitated for a whole week.
The English teacher's chattering pronunciation gave Su Yuwei a headache. He turned back several times and looked at Qin Ye without saying a word. Qin Ye noticed something was wrong and poked Su Yuwei with the tip of his pen and asked, "What's wrong with you?"
Su Yuwei bit his entire lower lip into his mouth, and took out a piece of chocolate that was about to melt in his hands from his pocket, put it between the cracks of the book and handed it to Qin Ye. Qin Ye took it and opened it, but he didn't understand Su Yuwei's intention, so he put it back in and gave it back to Su Yuwei.
Su Yuwei frowned, looking at the chocolate still lying neatly between the books, leaning against the back table and whispering, "Why did you give it back to me?"
Qin Ye wrote a note and slipped it into Su Yuwei's hand from under the table. She asked, "Why did you give it to me?"
"It's so sweet that it makes my teeth fall out. I don't want to eat it." Su Yuwei threw the book with chocolate in it on Qin Ye's desk again, then immediately lay back on his desk and ignored her.
Qin Ye was looking at the chocolate between the books, somewhat absorbed in it.
His father told him that he should not accept kindness from others casually, especially from strangers and the opposite sex. So, when the get out of class was over, Qin Ye returned a candy to Su Yuwei, which made Su Yuwei a little confused.
After school, Qin Ye habitually waited for Ding Shaocheng at the school gate to finish school together, but today, when the sun was about to set, Ding Shaocheng still hadn't shown up.
Su Yuwei, who was on duty, and Fatty Lin were walking down the stairs when they ran into Qin Ye, who was rushing upstairs. They subconsciously called out to her, "Qin Xiaoye!"
Qin Ye's mind was not here and he didn't hear it.
Su Yuwei felt strange and wanted to follow. Fatty Lin grabbed him and asked, "Su Yuwei, what are you doing? Zhuozi and the others are still waiting for us in the Internet cafe."
"Go by yourself, I'm not going!" Su Yuwei shook off Fatty Lin's hand and quietly followed Qin Ye.
Fatty Lin scratched the back of his head and muttered, "What a weirdo! You don't even want to go play games?"
Su Yuwei followed Qin Ye and came to the outside of Ding Shaocheng's classroom.
In the classroom, Ding Shaocheng was arranging tables and chairs. A graceful-looking girl with thick, black hair hanging down her shoulders was standing in front of the blackboard.
"Ding Shaocheng." Qin Ye stood at the door and called Ding Shaocheng's name weakly.
Ding Shaocheng and the girl turned their heads at the same time. Qin Ye pursed his lips, not knowing where to put his hands.
"Ah, it's over, it's over." Ding Shaocheng seemed to have thought of something and hurried over to explain, "Xiaoye, I'm sorry, I forgot to tell you that you don't have to wait for me today. You must be getting impatient, right?"
Qin Ye shook his head and whispered, "It's okay."
She raised her eyes and looked at the girl on the blackboard, examining her with some curiosity.
"Is this the Xiaoye you always talk about?" The girl came over and her voice was very pleasant. When God created man, he gave all the good aspects to this girl in front of him, right?
"Oh, yes." Ding Shaocheng introduced, "Xiao Ye, this is Qiao Shuanghua. I was doing her duty today and forgot you were waiting for me. I'm sorry. Can I buy you something delicious when I get home?"
"No, I said it's okay." Qin Ye asked cautiously, "Then...should I still wait for you?"
Ding Shaocheng glanced at Qiao Shuanghua and said, "I will go back with Xiao Qiao in a while. If you are in a hurry, you can go back first."
"Oh..." Qin Ye felt a little disappointed, but she was good at pretending, and her face was calm, "Then I'll go first."
"Then, be careful." Ding Shaocheng reminded.
"Yeah." Qin Ye turned around with slow steps and left the classroom.
When they walked out of the school gate, the sun had completely set. The city was shrouded in a dark gray, and Qin Ye's brows were also covered with a layer of gray. She herself didn't know, but Su Yuwei knew.
Su Yuwei followed Qin Ye stealthily, and saw her with her head hung down, clutching the straps of her schoolbag on her shoulders at the school gate, and rubbing the soles of her feet on the ground.
Then, she left alone, her back looking indescribably lonely.
For several consecutive days, Qin Ye couldn't wait for Ding Shaocheng.
Sometimes, Ding Shaocheng would go to Qin Ye's classroom and say, "Xiao Ye, go home by yourself today. I have something to do."
Or, he stuffed a candy into Qin Ye's hand and said apologetically: " I'm sorry, Xiaoye, I can't go home with you today."
It doesn’t matter, Qin Ye thought.
As long as I can see him every day...
But one day, Ding Shaocheng suddenly said to her: "Xiaoye, you don't have to wait for me to finish school together in the future."
It was an autumn evening with falling leaves, and a blush secretly gathered on Ding Shaocheng's face. Qin Ye told himself that it was just the setting sun that made his face red, and it was definitely not because of another outstanding girl who was out of his reach.
"What about school?" Qin Ye asked calmly.
"I will still wait for you to go to school. After all, I promised your parents that I would protect you well at school, hehe." Ding Shaocheng scratched his head and smiled as beautifully as the sunset.
Qin Ye smiled, and felt as if a cool breeze was passing through his heart.
She and Ding Shaocheng grew up together and followed his footsteps since they were young. She had never admired anyone, Ding Shaocheng was an exception, but this exception would no longer belong to her as time went by.
After school that time, Qin Ye did not wait for Ding Shaocheng, nor did he go home.
She came to the rooftop of the teaching building alone with her schoolbag on her back. Lying on the rooftop, she could clearly see Ding Shaocheng and Qiao Shuanghua talking and laughing as they left.
Because of Ding Shaocheng, Qin Ye lost three souls.
Mom and Dad noticed that something was wrong with Qin Ye at the table and asked with concern, "Xiao Ye, what's wrong?"
Qin Ye shook his head weakly and continued to eat.
Dad sat opposite and asked sharply, "Xiaoye, why are you so absent-minded?"
"Nothing." Qin Ye avoided his parents' questions.
The mother stroked Qin Ye's hair and said kindly, "Qin Ye, eat quickly. After eating, take a rest for a while because you still need to practice the piano."
Qin Ye lowered her head in silence, her chopsticks sticking to the bottom of the bowl. After a few seconds, Qin Ye frowned slightly and asked, "Mom, can I not practice the piano today?"
"No." Mom and Dad said in unison.
Dad pointed at the table with his index finger and said, "It's for your own good that I let you practice piano. Which child nowadays doesn't have a skill? Last time I went to Teacher Liu's house, his daughter performed a tango for us on the spot. His old face was so wrinkled that a flower could bloom among the wrinkles."
Qin Ye remained silent. She had heard this a lot. She had been compared with other children since she was a child, but now that she was grown up, she didn't even know what those children looked like.
"It's just an hour of practice. After practice, take a shower, go to bed and have a good rest." Mom comforted Qin Ye.
Qin Ye put down his chopsticks and said, "I'm full."
Then she ran into the piano room, closed the door, sat beside the piano and stared at the black and white keys in a daze.
There is a missing black key between the E and F white keys on the piano, just like Qin Ye's heart at the moment, empty, as if something is missing.
She had read through all the music she wanted to practice, but she still had no end in sight. If one day, Ding Shaocheng stood in front of Qin Ye, holding Qiao Shuanghua's hand and saying to her: "Xiao Ye, I'm with her, can you bless us?"
By then, the secret love will become a festered cocoon, and will the longing become a disaster that will never end?
After Qin Ye finished practicing, he lay on the piano, feeling a strange feeling in his heart.
Although he still goes to school with Ding Shaocheng, Qin Ye no longer has the expectations and joy of the past.
Ding Shaocheng's topic had been occupied by Qiao Shuanghua without him noticing, but Qin Ye still had to smile and chat with him.
She was actually very unhappy.
Sometimes, Ding Shaocheng even gave all his school time to Qiao Shuanghua, and Qin Ye went to school alone in silence.
That day, when she first arrived at the classroom, she saw Su Yuwei standing in the corridor with his hands behind his back, thinking about his mistakes. Qin Ye looked at him suspiciously and walked slowly into the classroom. Su Yuwei pouted and rolled his eyes at her.
What's going on?
Qin Ye sat in his seat, always feeling uneasy.
After a while, she stood up, walked to Fatty Lin, and asked in a low voice: "Lin Tianyang, why was Su Yuwei punished to stand?"
Fatty Lin almost choked on his own saliva. He was still wondering, everyone called him Fatty Lin, who would remember his name and call him by his full name? He looked up and saw that it was Guaiguai Sheng Qin Ye, which he could understand.
"Are you talking about Su Yuwei? He got into a fight and was punished by the teacher to stand in the corner."
"Fighting, who is he fighting with?" Qin Ye asked in surprise.
Fatty Lin waved at Qin Ye, and Qin Ye half-knelt down. Fatty Lin leaned close to her ear and whispered, "With a senior boy, I heard he's in Ding Shaocheng's class, his name is Peng Fei."
Peng Fei? Qin Ye remembered him. When he was in junior high school, he and Ding Shaocheng saw him bullying a kid in a lower grade. Then, for some reason, the teacher found out. Peng Fei was punished to write a 3,000-word self-criticism and to clean the toilet.
Qin Ye and Ding Shaocheng did not inform on anyone at all, but Peng Fei insisted that they were the ones who informed on the matter.
At that time, Qin Ye was excluded by her classmates because she was the teacher's little helper, so Peng Fei put the hat of accusation on her head, even though she did nothing.
"Why fight?" Qin Ye asked again.
"I don't know about that. You should ask him himself. Anyway, when Zhuozi, Lao Lin and I came here, we saw Su Yuwei and someone else getting into a fight. By the way, Ding Shaocheng was also there. Maybe you can find out if you ask him. Don't you have a good relationship?" Fatty Lin said.
Qin Ye nodded and sat back in his seat.
The teacher allowed Su Yuwei to enter the classroom only after the first class in the morning.
Qin Ye thought Su Yuwei would be very unhappy with the punishment given by the teacher, but he didn't expect that he looked indifferent. Fatty Lin, Zhuo Hao, and Ye Ming came up and teased him. He was too tired to deal with them and just kicked them.
At noon, after lunch, Qin Ye ran to Ding Shaocheng's classroom to find him. She did not meet Ding Shaocheng, but met Qiao Shuanghua. Qin Ye secretly wondered whether she should go and say hello to her. After hesitating for a while, Qin Ye decided to turn around and leave.
However, Qiao Shuanghua had already spotted her: "Qin Ye?"
Qin Ye stopped and had to respond to her greeting: "Ah... hello."
"Are you here to look for Ding Shaocheng?" Qiao Shuanghua walked over friendly with a pleasant smile on her lips.
"Yeah." Qin Ye lowered his eyes.
Qiao Shuanghua said: "He is not in the classroom. He should be in the sports department now. I will take you there."
"No need." Qin Ye said quickly, "I don't have anything to do, so I won't bother you."
"How is it a trouble?" Qiao Shuanghua is as beautiful and gentle as her name, like a spring flower. "Xiao Ye, you are Ding Shaocheng's best friend, which means you are also my best friend. You don't have to be so polite to me."
Qin Ye raised his eyes and looked at Qiao Shuanghua. Her middle-parted black hair embellished her delicate facial features, her skin was fair and clear, her eyebrows were thick and black, and her eyes were clear and lively. Such a beautiful girl with a gentle smile was really fascinating.
How can the difference between heaven and earth be compared?
Qin Ye stood in front of Qiao Shuanghua, like a lamp on the ground, and Qiao Shuanghua was the stars in the night sky. Even though they were both shining, the stars were always more noble and dazzling than the lamps.
"You guys..." Qin Ye pursed his lips and asked the question he had always wanted to ask, "Are you guys together?"
Qiao Shuanghua couldn't help laughing when she heard this question. She covered her face slightly and said, "Xiao Ye, we are not together. We are just very good friends now. As for being together, let's wait until after the college entrance examination. Ding Shaocheng and I will take the college entrance examination in two years. We don't have the heart to talk about other things now."
"Is that so?" Qin Ye didn't know why, but he felt a little relieved.
"Xiao Ye?" Seeing that she kept her head buried, Qiao Shuanghua called her curiously.
Qin Ye quickly raised his head and said, "Ah?"
"What's wrong with you?" Qiao Shuanghua asked.
Qin Ye shook her head and said, "It's okay. I'll go down first. Goodbye." She turned around and was about to leave, but suddenly she seemed to think of something and asked, "By the way, is Peng Fei in the classroom?"
"He's here. I'll call him for you." Qiao Shuanghua turned slowly and walked to the classroom door. "Peng Fei? Someone's looking for you. Come out for a moment."
After a while, a tall, dark-skinned boy came out. He looked at Qin Ye and asked, "Are you looking for me?"
"I heard that you had a fight with Su Yuwei this morning. What was the reason?" Qin Ye asked seriously.
Peng Fei rolled his eyes and said disdainfully, "Isn't that kid too gossipy? He's telling you this?"
"It wasn't him who told me, it was someone else who told me." Qin Ye said.
Qiao Shuanghua, who was standing nearby, heard something and gently pulled Qin Ye's sleeve, saying, "It's nothing. I was there this morning too. The two of them just fought over a small matter, but neither of them hurt the other. Xiaoye, let's go to the Sports Department quickly. Ding Shaocheng must be waiting anxiously."
Qin Ye looked at Qiao Shuanghua, who was winking at her. Peng Fei was arrogant, as if to say, "You're dead if you mess with me." Qin Ye realized what Qiao Shuanghua was up to, and left with her.
In the corridor around the corner, Qiao Shuanghua held Qin Ye tightly and said earnestly, "Xiao Ye, I didn't let you continue asking because I was afraid that Peng Fei would hit you."
"He's a boy, does he even want to beat girls?" Qin Ye asked back with a frown.
Qiao Shuanghua said seriously, "Ding Shaocheng said you were very well behaved, so I didn't expect you to come to Peng Fei for this matter. Peng Fei was spoiled by his family. He would beat people up if she was a girl. This morning, when Ding Shaocheng and I just entered the school, we ran into Peng Fei. Peng Fei said nonchalantly, 'Hey, Ding Shaocheng, isn't that long-mouthed gossiper who was trying to please the teacher following you?' As a result, before Shaocheng could even speak, Su Yuwei next to him rushed over and bit Peng Fei's shoulder, and then the two started fighting."
"Su Yuwei?" Qin Ye was shocked. How could this be?
Is it just because of this? Su Yuwei went up and fought with Peng Fei, who was so much taller than him.
But why did Su Yuwei fight with Peng Fei because of this sentence? The relationship between them is not that good?
Qin Ye quickly ran down the stairs and returned to his classroom.
Su Yuwei sat in his seat, rubbing half of his face in annoyance, his eyes full of resentment.
"Su Yuwei." Qin Ye walked up to Su Yuwei and called his name softly.
Su Yuwei didn't even raise his head and asked, "What for?"
When Fatty Lin and the other two saw this scene, they all looked over curiously. Qin Ye bent over and tried to look at Su Yuwei's face, but Su Yuwei almost turned his head behind his back.
"Does it hurt?" Qin Ye asked.
"You can try being beaten. That guy hits hard!" Su Yuwei was extremely angry when he thought of this, and slammed the table indignantly. Then, perhaps because he was pulled in a painful spot, he covered his face and frowned.
Qin Ye pried his hands apart and saw a barely noticeable bruise on his cheekbone.
"Come with me to the infirmary." Qin Ye said, pulling Su Yuwei's arm. Su Yuwei refused to move and shouted, "It's just a minor injury, what's the matter! Don't pull me, it's so embarrassing!"
"What's the point of saving face? Your face is already purple." Qin Ye retorted.
Fatty Lin next to him started to make a noise: "Su Yuwei, why don't you go to the infirmary quickly? Qin Ye will take you there personally!"
Su Yuwei yelled at Fatty Lin, "Shut up! If you dare to yell, I'll cut off your tongue!" He was so fierce to Fatty Lin and the others, but he couldn't help but blush as he let Qin Ye pull his hand and walk towards the infirmary. Behind him, he heard the teasing whistles of Fatty Lin and the others.
Su Yuwei's face turned pale and he said, "I'll settle the score with them when I get back!"
In the infirmary, the doctor applied medicine to Su Yuwei and said, "It's okay. Go back and roll it with hot eggs. The slight swelling will go away, and the color will also go away."
"Thank you, doctor." Qin Ye thanked on behalf of Su Yuwei.
Su Yuwei carefully touched the painful area with his index finger and sighed, "This guy is really hard."
"Don't fight anymore. I asked Qiao Shuanghua and found out why you fight." Qin Ye was standing while Su Yuwei was sitting. So Qin Ye looked down at Su Yuwei and Su Yuwei could see the worry on her face.
Su Yuwei said quickly, "Don't be too touched. I just don't want to owe you a favor. You spent so much time helping me mark the mistakes and problem-solving ideas in my homework book, but I didn't appreciate it and even teased you. I was wrong. Let's just call it a draw this time."
"Whatever you say." Qin Ye was too lazy to argue with Su Yuwei.
This somewhat stubborn Su Yuwei really is like a little child.
Sometimes, Qin Ye actually envied him. He was heartless and free to do whatever he wanted. He was free and happy. Unlike her, she was like a canary in a cage, living by the rules.
If there are no waves in life, can it still be called wonderful and fulfilling?
Qin Ye felt that it was impossible.
After school, Qin Ye saw Su Yuwei dawdling in his seat, so he asked, "Su Yuwei, aren't you going home?"
"I don't want to go back now." Su Yuwei supported his head and answered absent-mindedly.
"Won't your father be worried if you don't go back?" Qin Ye felt strange. If she didn't go back, her father would definitely call Ding Shaocheng to ask. If Ding Shaocheng didn't know where she was, he would call the school.
Su Yuwei gently stroked his cheekbone and said lazily, "He will be anxious if I go back. If he sees that I have a wound on my face, he will be furious and beat me up without knowing the reason. In order to keep him healthy, I'd better go back later."
Qin Ye was amused by Su Yuwei's description. She tilted her head and said, "Su Yuwei, go to the rooftop and wait for me. I'm going to get something."
Then, she picked up her schoolbag and ran outside. She turned around and repeated, "You must wait for me."
"Hmph... Who will wait for you? Idiot." Su Yuwei said contemptuously as he looked at the door where Qin Ye was leaving.
But the next second, Su Yuwei grabbed the strap of his schoolbag and threw it over his shoulder, put one hand in his school uniform pocket, and walked slowly towards the rooftop.
Qin Ye went to the teacher's dormitory to find Yang Xue, saying that he had some unfinished business and would be home a little later. He was a little hungry and wanted to cook an egg for her. Because Qin Ye was obedient, Yang Xue did not doubt him and warmly entertained him, cooking an extra egg for Qin Ye.
Qin Ye ran to the rooftop quickly with the eggs. Su Yuwei sat on the iron pipe on the rooftop, staring blankly at the rooftop in the distance with boredom.
"Su Yuwei." Qin Ye called him while taking off his school uniform jacket.
Su Yuwei stood up in shock and stammered, "Qin Xiaoye, what are you going to do? I told you that you can't do anything rash. I'm still a..."
"What are you thinking about?" Qin Ye wrapped the egg in his school uniform, tested the temperature, and said to Su Yuwei, "Sit down."
Su Yuwei quickly sat down obediently. Qin Ye sat down next to him and rolled the egg on his injured cheek.
Qin Ye looked at Su Yuwei's injured cheek, and Su Yuwei looked at her.
Qin Ye looked so clean that Su Yuwei's heart started pounding.
Maybe it was because of the sunset light shining on her face that Qin Ye did not notice Su Yuwei's red face. Su Yuwei's eyes were fascinated and stayed on her face, her clear eyes, and her bright red lips.
Feeling Su Yuwei's somewhat rapid breathing, Qin Ye stopped and looked at him in confusion. Su Yuwei retracted his gaze, sat up straight, hugged his arms and stopped looking at her.
Qin Ye took out the boiled egg, cracked it on the steel pipe, peeled it and handed it to Su Yuwei: "Here."
Su Yuwei took it and put it into his mouth bit by bit.
Qin Ye cracked another egg, peeled it and ate it himself.
Watching the sunset glow in the sky slowly being swallowed up by the night, the silence that had lasted for a long time was broken by Su Yuwei, who asked, "Aren't you going back either?"
"I'll be back soon. I don't dare to stay outside for too long." Qin Ye curled up. She didn't want to go back so early. For others, home is a warm place, but for Qin Ye, it is not the case.
There was no sign of any abuse from her parents, but the harshness with no respite and no room for maneuver left Qin Ye breathless.
The older I get, the more out of breath I feel.
Her parents only let her study and didn't let her do anything. She couldn't even snuggle up to her parents and act like a spoiled brat.
This made her feel suffocated.
"Are your parents very strict with you?" Su Yuwei asked, tilting his head.
Qin Ye smiled bitterly: "It's more than strict." She lowered her eyes, and Su Yuwei could not detect the emotions in her eyes.
"Sometimes..." Qin Ye whispered, "Su Yuwei, I envy you so much. Although the teacher doesn't like you very much, I think you are very free and happy. You also have your own dreams. You want to be a game designer when you grow up. I admire you very much. I don't even have my own dreams. I feel that my life is too pitiful."
Su Yuwei opened his lips and was about to say something, but no words came out.
Is he free? Is he happy? He actually doesn't know.
When Su Yuwei was just over three years old, whenever he made a mistake, his father would punish him by making him do squats or push-ups. His father was a retired soldier, and he thought Su Yuwei should be as upright and ambitious as a soldier.
But Su Yuwei was not what he wanted, naughty, playful, and had the wildness of a boy. Even when Su Yuwei grew up, even if he did not make any mistakes, his father would still ask him to run with weights in the morning, do 200 sit-ups every day, and do other exercises.
Dad often said to Mom, "Send Su Yuwei to the army when he turns 18. He should be trained well in the army. It would be great if our Su Yuwei could enter a military academy. He would have a promising future and bring honor to his father."
But who wants to be a soldier? Who wants to apply to a military academy? Su Yuwei doesn't like it at all!
Is joining the army the only way to bring honor to the family? Everyone's life and choices are different. Why does Dad have to pave the way for Su Yuwei according to his wishes? Is he a veteran? Does Su Yuwei have to join the army in the future?
Su Yuwei couldn't understand his father's thoughts, so he became more and more rebellious.
If Qin Ye knew about Su Yuwei like this, would she still envy him?
"It doesn't seem so obvious. When you go home, just say that you accidentally bumped into the corner of the table. Your father won't beat you." Qin Ye turned his head to look at Su Yuwei's cheek and gave him some advice.
Su Yuwei squinted at her and said with a smile: "Qin Xiaoye, you can lie too?"
Qin Ye was stunned for a moment, then reacted and said, "I'm not lying myself, I'm trying to find a solution for you."
"You don't have to worry about this. I know my father's temper very well." Su Yuwei said proudly.
He didn't want Qin Ye to worry about such a small matter.
"Then let's go back." Qin Ye stood up.
Su Yuwei followed her down from the rooftop, and then followed her through the streets and alleys until the two of them parted ways.
When he returned home that day, Su Yuwei was still punished.
Who is his father? It would be a miracle if he was hit by the corner of the table. So, regardless of his wife's dissuasion, Su's father asked Su Yuwei to stand upside down against the wall until the sweat soaked the paper on the ground.
However, Su Yu was willing to accept the punishment this time.
Later, Su Yuwei and Qin Ye gradually became closer, and Qin Ye also got to know Fatty Lin, Zhuo Hao, and Ye Ming because of Su Yuwei.
Although they were a group of rough men, they were considerate to Qin Ye. Su Yuwei often pretended to be stupid and left a blank question for Qin Ye to explain to him, and Fatty Lin and the others would expose his intentions and laugh at him without leaving any room for explanation.
If there were other students who were gossiping about Qin Ye behind his back, Su Yuwei and Fatty Lin would definitely stand up for Qin Ye. But when Qin Ye found out, instead of thanking them, he blamed them.
"Everyone doesn't like me in the first place. If you continue to speak up for me, everyone will hate me even more," Qin Ye said.
Ye Ming was puzzled: "Then let them say that about you?"
Qin Ye said: "I'm used to it. These fictitious things can't cause me any harm. Thank you for your concern."
Su Yuwei pondered for a moment and said, "From now on, listen to Qin Xiaoye and ignore those gossipy women."
Everyone agreed. They felt that Qin Ye was much better than that group of people. Qin Ye would teach them patiently and would not look down on them because they were having fun or playing games. During breaks or when playing football in physical education class, Qin Ye would sit in the audience and flip through a book. Her quiet and girlish appearance made them play football with more energy.
They felt that it was great to have Qin Ye as a friend.
Slowly, the weather turned colder. People always say that the coldest and hottest seasons are the most unbearable, but now it is the coldest season.
At home, Qin Ye was reviewing her lessons in her room. Her mother pushed an electric heater into her room and sat on the bedside. Looking at the warm yellow light shining on Qin Ye's face, Qin's mother asked, "Xiao Ye, are you confident about this exam?"
"Mom, I'm confident that I can get first place in the class, so you don't have to worry." Qin Ye said without even raising his eyelids.
"Of course I'm not worried about that." Mother Qin rubbed her hands on her thighs and said, "I want you to strive for the top spot in the grade. Your uncle said that he will bring your cousin back from the United States for a reunion during the Chinese New Year. Wow! That little girl is amazing. When she was studying in the United States, all the teachers praised her for her intelligence. As a big sister, you can't lose to your little sister, right?"
Qin Ye stopped flipping the pages of the book, turned his head and looked at his mother, and asked, "So?"
"So you have to work hard. We have to let others know that our child is also the smartest." Qin's mother said.
Qin Ye was silent for a while, and then she said, "Mom, can I go back to grandma's house for the New Year?"
"No!" Mom said sternly, her eyes suddenly becoming sharp, "Want to escape? Your grandma will spoil you. Don't be afraid to face anything that happens to you. What are you afraid of? If you are afraid, practice more and become fearless. Let others look up to the sky when they see you."
"Mom... I, I just miss grandma. I haven't seen her for two years." Qin Ye pleaded.
It's not that she doesn't dare to face her uncle and cousin, she just doesn't want to. She doesn't want to see her parents comparing her with others at the so-called gathering. Being their daughter, Qin Ye is like playing a game of chess against a sea of ​​fire and swords. She dare not make a wrong move.
"I'll take you back to see your uncle after we meet him. What's the big deal? Mom and dad have already promised your uncle. You can't let mom and dad go back on their word, right? You have to think about mom and dad." Qin's mother said earnestly.
You see, they put the responsibility on her again, whatever they do is right, and she has to consider them.
But even after growing up, they have never really considered her from Qin Ye's perspective.
Qin Ye didn't want to argue any more and said, "I understand. Mom, you go out first. I still need to take my listening test." As she said that, she put on her headphones.
Qin's mother did not disturb her studying, and left the bedroom with satisfaction and closed the door.
Inside the room, Qin Ye held her head and felt more and more irritated. Finally, she took off her headphones angrily and lay on the table, feeling sad.
It felt like there were thousands of ants scratching at her heart, making her feel anxious and uneasy.
The final exam was coming up soon. In order not to disappoint her parents, Qin Ye studied very hard and ignored everyone. She spoke less and less, and her smile became less and less every day.
Zhuo Hao said: "Is Qin Ye crazy? Why is he studying day and night?"
Fatty Lin also said: "I'm an excellent student. How can I not study ?"
"But she can obviously do well in the exam without studying so hard." Ye Ming felt confused.
Su Yuwei was silent, watching Qin Ye rubbing his brows from a distance. He remembered what Qin Ye said to him on the school rooftop that day, and he felt that Qin Ye must want to be the bird flying freely in the sky deep in his heart.
But now, something was holding her back, maybe a cage, maybe a rope, and she couldn't break free.
After the final exam, Su Yuwei stopped Qin Ye on her way home.
Looking at Su Yuwei, who was running out of breath and spewing out large clumps of white gas from his mouth, Qin Ye asked, "What's wrong with you?"
Su Yuwei unzipped her down jacket and took out two tickets from the inner pocket to show Qin Ye. Qin Ye took a look and saw that they were movie tickets.
"Do you want to watch a movie? Fatty Lin gave it to me." Su Yuwei said.
Qin Ye was worried that he would be scolded by his parents if he returned home late, so he quickly shook his head.
"Come with me." Su Yuwei ignored Qin Ye's refusal and pulled his hand and ran towards the cinema.
The scenery and people along the way were constantly receding, and Qin Ye's hand was warmly wrapped by Su Yuwei's gloved hand. She wanted to ask Su Yuwei to stop, but she couldn't wait to go to the movies with him.
She was afraid of her parents' blame, but she wanted to relax more.
In the cinema, Su Yuwei took off his gloves and stuffed them into Qin Ye's hands along with the movie tickets, and said, "Wait for me, I'll buy you something to eat."
When the leaves were falling, Qin Ye asked Su Yuwei to wait for her, and she gave him a cooked egg.
When it was about to snow, Su Yuwei asked Qin Ye to wait for him, and he gave her a bucket of popcorn.
"The show won't start for another half an hour. Let's sit over there." Su Yuwei took Qin Ye to the waiting area and sat down.
Su Yuwei was ready to take Qin Ye out for some fun, to make her forget her previous life which was so serious that she couldn't breathe. He talked about how wonderful and interesting the movie was, but Qin Ye just listened and didn't say anything, and Su Yuwei could make her laugh.
After a movie ended, Su Yuwei said, "We can go in soon."
Qin Ye nodded, then looked up and saw a very familiar face among the crowd of people coming out of the cinema.
Qin Ye sat there straight as if rooted, his hands holding the popcorn in his arms tightened subconsciously, and his heart began beating suddenly.
It’s Ding Shaocheng.
Next to him is Qiao Shuanghua.
Just after walking out of the theater and passing through the aisle, Qiao Shuanghua hugged her arms tightly due to the cold. Ding Shaocheng quickly took off his gray woolen coat and put it on Qiao Shuanghua.
Qin Ye's eyes were a little moist.
She remembered that last year when she and Ding Shaocheng went to a book fair, Ding Shaocheng also used this dress to protect her from the wind and rain.
At that time, Qin Ye had a slight cold and kept coughing. Ding Shaocheng took off his coat and put it on her, saying distressedly: "Your father is really a fool. He insisted that you come with me to the book fair even though you have a cold."
Qin Ye wrapped his small body in loose, warm clothes, covered his face and said nothing.
Ding Shaocheng didn't know that it was actually Qin Ye who insisted on going that time.
"The popcorn bucket is going to deform." Su Yuwei's words brought Qin Ye back to reality. She watched Ding Shaocheng and Qiao Shuanghua leave side by side, feeling heartbroken.
Qin Ye felt sad that they were together, but she also felt that they were a perfect match. Qin Ye had always felt that no matter how good a girl was, she was not worthy of Ding Shaocheng, including herself, but Qiao Shuanghua overturned her previous thoughts.
"Everyone has gone far away." Su Yuwei felt a little bit resentful towards Qin Ye. He had clearly invited her to watch a movie, but she was staring at others and was distracted.
"He really went far away..." Qin Ye murmured softly.
Su Yuwei stretched out her hand and waved it in front of Qin Ye's eyes, saying, "Qin Ye, stop looking. If you look again, Ding Shaocheng won't see you anymore."
"What does it have to do with you?" Qin Ye retorted with a red face when he realized that he had lost his composure.
Su Yuwei said: "Why is it none of my business? I invited you to watch a movie, but you stared at others and ignored me. Of course I have an opinion."
Qin Ye was a little unhappy when he saw Ding Shaocheng and Qiao Shuanghua together. He returned the popcorn to Su Yuwei and said, "Then I won't watch it."
"How could you do this, Qin Xiaoye? It's wrong to do this. It will ruin my mood!" Su Yuwei said angrily.
I invited you to watch a movie because I wanted to cherish the time I had alone with you, but your mind was not here, and I felt inexplicably sad. This is what Su Yuwei wanted to express, but his awkward and stiff tone did not express what he was thinking.
"I just don't want to watch it. What's wrong with that?" Qin Ye felt a little unhappy when he saw Su Yuwei speaking loudly to her for no reason.
"Qin Xiaoye!" Su Yuwei emphasized her name word by word, and the clouds on her face became heavier and heavier. "You have known Ding Shaocheng for so long, and he only treats you as a friend. You know this, right? So don't secretly look at her anymore. Qiao Shuanghua is better than you in every way. She and Ding Shaocheng are a perfect match. You, the ugly duckling, should stop daydreaming!"
Qin Ye's face turned red, and everyone around him looked over when they heard what he said.
"Su Yuwei!" Qin Ye gritted her teeth. She was so embarrassed that she wanted to find a crack in the ground to crawl into.
Why did Su Yuwei speak so loudly? Why did he say it out loud!
Su Yuwei realized that he had spoken too loudly, and his eyes darted around, and the situation became a little awkward. Qin Ye lowered his head, his fingers tugged at the corner of his clothes nervously, and his shoes kept rubbing against the ground.
After a while, Qin Ye lowered his head, squeezed into the crowd, and ran out of the cinema.
Su Yuwei didn't follow him. He grabbed the popcorn bucket in frustration and went into the theater alone. The seat next to him was empty. Su Yuwei didn't hear a word of the movie, nor did he remember a single frame.
Qin Ye returned home in a low mood. Before he had time to change his shoes, his parents asked anxiously, "How was it, Xiaoye? How did you do in the exam?"
"No big deal." Qin Ye said this lightly.
Then they watched her return to her room in silence.
"What's wrong with this kid?" The mother walked over and knocked on Qin Ye's door, shouting, "Xiao Ye, what's wrong? Come out and tell mom and dad how you did on the exam. Why did you go into the bedroom as soon as you came back? This child is so rude."
Her mother's chattering made Qin Ye even more irritated. She put on her headphones and turned the music volume to the maximum, then curled up on the bed and wrapped herself tightly in the quilt.
She seemed to be in another world, long and dark.
Qin Ye didn't get first place in the grade in that exam. When his father got the report card, he sighed and said, "You're not good at science, Qin Ye. Why don't you take extra classes before the New Year?"
Qin Ye didn't say anything.
"It's settled. I'll contact Teacher Liu and he'll give you more physics tutoring." Dad said as he took out his cell phone and walked to the window to call Teacher Liu without asking Qin Ye's opinion.
That’s right, when did they ask her?
But this time, Qin Ye gladly accepted it. If she took extra classes, she wouldn't have time to think about useless things. Even if she didn't want to live a constrained life, it was better than having random thoughts every day.
From numbness to fulfillment, that’s also called fulfillment.
Throughout the winter vacation, Qin Ye shuttled between his own home and Teacher Liu's home, until the day before the New Year, when his uncle and his cousin Ina flew back from the United States and many relatives gathered at his home.
Ina is lively, cute, good at singing and dancing, and has a very flexible mind. All relatives like her. In comparison, Qin Ye is introverted and dull. Apart from winning applause for playing the piano, he is far from the radiance emanating from Ina.
Ina is obviously two years younger than her.
But Yina was smart. After playing enough, she took Qin Ye's hand and said, "Uncle and aunt, you guys play first. I have something to tell Sister Qin Ye."
Mom and Dad were very tolerant of other people's children and just waved their hands and let her go.
Ina smiled and pulled Qin Ye into the bedroom, closing the door. The laughter outside the room finally died down.
Qin Ye sat down on the bed and said, "There's nothing fun here, Yina, my parents listen to you, why don't you tell them and I'll take you out to play."
"No thanks." Ina paced around the room, looking at the books piled inside, and said, "I've had enough fun, I just want to take a rest." Then, she lay down on the bed in a big letter shape, and said without hesitation, "It's really annoying to deal with adults."
Qin Ye was surprised that Ina would say such a thing. Wasn’t she having a lot of fun just now?
"Sister Qin Ye, you also hate dealing with those adults, right?" Yina stared at Qin Ye cunningly, climbed up and hugged her shoulders from behind, jokingly saying, "You have always been perfunctory. You can hide it from your uncle and aunt, but you can't hide it from me."
Qin Ye was stunned for a moment, and then her eyes darkened: "I'm used to it."
Yina leaned on Qin Ye's shoulder and said innocently, "I see your room is full of books. Don't you have any toys? Your uncle and aunt are still so strict with you. My parents are not so strict with me. I learned these things voluntarily. But I hate that every time they have guests, they ask me to perform and show off my achievements. I don't like it. I don't like others to interfere in my life too much, even if this person is my parents, sister Qin Ye, even if they are parents, they should respect their children, right?"
respect?
Qin Ye chewed on these two words carefully.
Isn't it true that whatever they say is what it is, and she has to do whatever they want her to do?
Even if she was unwilling or unhappy, she couldn't refute it. This is what her father taught her since she was a child. Her father said: "Xiaoye, the outside world is too chaotic. Just listen to your parents. Your parents will not harm you. They are all for your own good."
When she was young, she was ignorant. When she grew up, her wings gradually grew stronger. She wanted to fly out and experience life and all kinds of things in life. But at this time, she found that she had been waiting in the nest for too long and had forgotten how to fly...