Chapter 196 You Are Right
After Chi Xia and Luo Xun left the hospital.
The nurse found Chu Yonggen and said that someone had helped them move to a new ward, a single room, and the fee had already been paid.
After much thought, Chu Yonggen decided that Luo Xun was the only option.
He accepted the kindness and moved his wife out of the three-person ward.
Ever since she learned about her son's death and her wife's fall, she hasn't spoken to him for a long time.
When we were transferred from the noisy ward to the quiet single room and everything was settled, his wife Qin Sumei suddenly opened her eyes.
She looked at him for a long time, sat on a chair with her back to her husband, opened her mouth and said, "Old Chu, I want to eat."
Chu Yonggen suddenly stood up from his chair , looked at his wife in shock, and was speechless for a long time.
"What are you standing there for? Go ahead," his wife reminded him.
Chu Yonggen was filled with mixed feelings of sadness and joy. He responded in a hurry, prepared food for her, brought it to her, fed her, and wiped her mouth.
"Where's Xiaobai?" she asked, "Why haven't I seen Xiaobai these days?"
"He's busy."
Chu Yonggen tucked the pillow behind her waist and said, "I haven't told him yet."
"Don't say it." She sighed, "Don't let him worry."
"Well, okay..." Chu Yonggen grabbed his wife's hand but was unable to speak for a long time.
In the end, it was his wife who held his hand. Chu Yonggen lowered his head and said to his wife with sobs, "It's my fault."
"What did you do wrong?" His wife squeezed his hand and said, "Old Chu, we are not wrong. Those bastards are wrong."
Her voice was so low that Chu Yonggen had to lean closer to hear it clearly.
"It's those bastards!"
His wife held his hand with one hand and his clothes with the other. She leaned on his shoulder and said, "Old Chu, it was those bastards who destroyed our family and killed our children."
The blood in Chu Yonggen's body was surging, and his flesh and blood kept expanding, as if it was going to break open his chest, turn into a sword, and pierce into the enemy's heart.
But even though his flesh and blood body was not afraid of wind and rain, now that he was holding the heavy sword, he didn't know who to stab with it.
He didn't know who his enemy was.
Twenty years of accumulated hatred could only be swallowed in one breath at this moment.
"I will avenge him." He comforted his wife with a determined look in his eyes: "Su Mei, I will avenge him."
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On the way back to the police station, Chi Xia and Luo Xun asked him, "What did you do just now?"
"I changed the ward for Uncle Gen's wife."
Luo Xun said: "The dean of this company has some connections with me. They must be very sad when they just found out that their child is gone. The environment in the multi-person ward is noisy, so they will feel more comfortable if they live in a quieter place."
Chi Xia supported her chin with her arms and stared at him.
Luo Xun laughed: "Why are you looking at me?"
"Captain Luo, why are you so nice?"
Luo Xun laughed even harder, and when he looked over he realized that there was no mockery on her face, but rather seriousness, as if this was a problem that really bothered her.
"Love the house and love the dog." Luo Xun turned her head away: "Don't you like Uncle Gen very much?"
Chi Xia smiled: "I also love the house and the dog."
"Qu Bai?" Luo Xun asked.
"Probably." Chi Xia leaned his head against the car window: "When I was in Yuji, I remembered a lot of things."
"If you don't want to say it, then don't say it." Luo Xun thought of the dwarf man and stopped her.
Chi Xia was stunned for a while, looking down at his hands, but didn't say anything.
In those memories, she still wore those beautiful dresses and entered that huge cage again and again, in a state of infinite hunger or infinite tension.
The exquisite and tempting cakes mixed among the stale food attracted them like an oasis in the desert.
Children of her age or older gathered outside the cage, staring at the life-saving item with eager eyes.
They were extremely thin, but their eyes were extremely fierce.
The familiar voice spoke lovingly yet cruelly: "Xia, either defeat them or be defeated by them, you have to make your own choice."
The cage was opened and they swarmed in.
She had this confrontation day after day, sometimes being watched, sometimes trying to snatch, and sometimes crawling on the ground, begging for a drop of water or a bite of meat.
"I can give you the most beautiful clothes, or I can grind you into the dirt. You can have food and clothing, or you can be like them."
"Do you want to be my child, or be like them?"
Like those children, wearing tattered clothes, living in a dirty and crowded basement, waiting to be released, like a trained animal, responsible for improving her skills.
The place where she fought with them was either in that cage or in a smaller confinement room.
It's a life-and-death struggle, just like a machine. After a long time, she became numb and no longer felt guilty or sorry.
She just wanted to survive.
She remembered why Qu Bai liked pomegranates and persimmons. They were her spoils of war when they were occasional snacks. She carefully wiped the blood stains off them and gave them to Qu Bai as gifts.
And the lychee candy that she liked must also be Qu Bai's trophy.
"I'm not." She suddenly spoke in suppressed anger.
"What?" Luo Xun asked.
"I'm not an antisocial person." She looked at Luo Xun and said word by word: " Even if I am, I'm not a bad person, Luo Xun, I'm not a bad person."
Luo Xun realized her sudden change of mood. He stopped the car on the side of the road, grabbed her arms, and pried open her clenched fists one by one: "Even if they are antisocial people, they don't necessarily commit crimes."
"I checked."
He boldly held her fingers together: "The book explains that antisocial personality is that people in society lack the emotional power to resonate with society, and lack the ability to feel the friendship of others and return it."
Chi Xia looked at him in a trance. Did she have these things? She seemed to have them, but she also seemed not to have them.
Luo Xun added: "You know sadness, pain, likes and dislikes, and you are also just and brave. Chi Xia, you are a normal person, of course you are not."
"He is creating one." Chi Xia said, "Luo Xun, he is creating a base camp for antisocial personality."
" Why ?" Luo Xun asked, but soon answered himself: "There is no reason, right?"
"Yes, for no reason."
Chi Xia looked at their interlocked hands and said, "Antisocial personality is not necessarily a crime, but once an antisocial personality starts to commit a crime, he or she will show a strong criminal ambition. This kind of crime has no obvious emotional color. It is just a utilitarian purpose and the satisfaction of practical needs."
"Once the strong desire to commit crimes begins to manifest, it is difficult to curb it. Crime becomes as normal as people needing to eat. They have no sense of morality or right and wrong. Moreover, in order to show their criminal ambitions, they are extremely bold and arrogant when committing crimes, and their actions are full of performance. They look down on petty thefts and sneaky things. They prefer to be the center of attention and do it in broad daylight."
Luo Xun opened the car window to get some fresh air: "Besides, they are not afraid of punishment, right?"
Chi Xia nodded: "Yes, they think this is right. This is an achievement. The people who are chosen are the chosen ones."
"If that counts, I'm really a normal person, right?"
She knew she wasn't, but at this moment she desperately needed an answer that would classify her as a normal person.
"Antisocial personality is not wrong." Luo Xun said: "Criminal crime is wrong, you are doing things to reduce crime, even if you are, so what?"
Chi Xia was stunned for a moment. She looked at Luo Xun: "Maybe my dirty desires are just suppressed. Once my memory is fully restored..."
She paused and said, "Captain Luo, sometimes I also lack confidence."
"What confidence?"
“The confidence to suppress one’s desire to commit a crime.”
She said: "I never want to hurt innocent people, but I have a clear sense of similarity with a certain type of people, but I hate them very much. I always claim that I am different from them, but my difference is only that all criminal thoughts have not been put into action."
"When I was a kid." Luo Xun still held her hand: "Someone said I was a born criminal."
Chi Xia looked at him, slightly surprised.
Luo Xun smiled at her: "My master's master said that. He was a very famous criminal policeman at that time."
"Then what?" Chi Xia asked.
"Then I became a people's policeman who upholds justice."
He shook Chi Xia's hand vigorously and then let go, starting the car: "You have also become a people's policeman who upholds justice, haven't you?"
"No wonder." Chi Xia laughed.
"What's the matter?"
Chi Xia's previous emotions gradually dissipated.
She said: "No wonder when I first met you, I felt that we were the same kind."
