Chapter 194: Fantastic Thoughts
Xu Dahai was furious. He couldn't believe and couldn't tolerate that his precious daughter, the star daughter he had always been proud of, was actually the mistress of an insignificant, ordinary man like me!
He stood up slowly, and I could even feel his strong and tall body trembling slightly. He looked at me with a stern look as if he wanted to kill me. I thought, if he had a gun in his hand at this moment, he would definitely shoot me without hesitation.
My heart sank. I felt that there would be countless obstacles to my love for Xu Shu. Not to mention Jingjing and the Hua family, I might never be able to overcome Xu Shu's parents alone!
Thinking of this, I straightened my chest. Xu Shu used her life to prove her love for me, and I am willing to use my life to prove my love for her. If a couple in love can even give their lives for each other, then what power in the world can stop our love?
I didn't feel frustrated or scared, but smiled. I said, "Uncle Xu, your daughter stood in front of me without hesitation when I was in the most dangerous time. But if it was your daughter who was in danger, I would also stand in front of her without hesitation. This is the relationship between your daughter and I! It goes beyond the love of my own life! You only think that your daughter is just my mistress, then you...really misjudged us, I have nothing to say!"
"You!" Xu Dahai took a step forward, his hair and beard all standing up, and pointed at me and was about to explode. At this time, Xu Jian saw that the situation was not good, and hurriedly stepped forward to support his father, shouting: "Dad! I know Tang Qian's character, I believe he will definitely not play with Xiaoshu's feelings. I think there must be some misunderstanding. Xiaoshu hasn't woken up yet, wait until she wakes up and tell you herself! Dad, your heart is not very good, don't get angry now!"
Xu Dahai was a general after all. Although he had a bad temper, he was magnanimous. He took two deep breaths and said, "Okay! I'm not angry. Xiaojian, if he is your friend, then go and ask him, since he and Xiaoshu love each other so much, why did he marry Hua Qiming's daughter? Isn't this a joke?"
Xu Jian nodded and said, "Dad, please sit down first. We will figure things out eventually. Leave this matter to me. You can take a rest first!"
Xu Dahai sat down angrily and didn't even look at me. Xu Shu's mother hurried over to pat him on the back and told him to take care of himself.
After Xu Jian calmed his father down, he turned around and said to me, "Brother Tang, shall we... go out for a walk?"
I nodded and bowed deeply to the two old people before leaving.
Xu Jian and I strolled slowly on the lawn of the hospital. The reporters who wanted to follow us were yelled at and stopped by Xu's bodyguards, so they could only stand far away and worry.
Xu Jian took out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket and handed me one. I smiled and shook my head to refuse. He was very surprised and asked, "Why? Did you quit smoking?"
I said, "Well, your sister, she doesn't like it!"
Xu Jian stared at me for a long time before he sighed, put the cigarette in his mouth, lit it and took a deep breath. He exhaled the smoke and said, "The power of love is so great! I never thought that Xiao Shu would risk her life for a man. It's really... surprising!"
I looked at Xu Jian and said sincerely, "No matter how difficult , I will never let Xu Shu down for her deep love for me. I will use everything I have to protect her and love her forever!"
Xu Jian nodded and said, "If that's the case, why do you want to marry Hua Qiming's daughter? Don't you feel that you are letting Xiao Shu down by doing this?"
I sighed and said, "Sometimes, fate is beyond our control. Xu Shu and I have come this far with so much frustration and regret. We ourselves are unable to make the right choice."
Xu Jian said: "Can you tell me about it?"
I nodded. Now that things had come to this, there was no need to hide anything any more. I told them everything that had happened between Xu Shu, Hua Jingjing and I over the past few years.
Xu Jian said nothing, and smoked ten cigarettes in one breath while listening to me. I spoke for more than half an hour, but I still only gave a rough outline. However, the main situation was explained very clearly.
After listening to me, Xu Jian threw away the cigarette butt in his hand and said to me, "A real man should make decisions! If you drag it on like this, it will only hurt two women! Brother Tang, I'm not saying anything bad about you, but you are really confused about this matter. If you really love Xiao Shu, then no matter how difficult it is, you should consider her wholeheartedly and try your best to make Xiao Shu happy. If you feel that you can't abandon your promise to Hua Jingjing, then you must bravely give up your feelings and be a responsible man! But now you have neither made your lover happy, nor have you been an irresponsible man. I think, as a man, Brother Tang, you are a failure!"
I lowered my head, speechless with shame. I knew I was indeed a failure. My character was too weak, and I couldn't be as free and unrestrained as Xu Jian. Deep down in my heart, I didn't want to hurt anyone, but my weakness and incompetence deeply hurt all the women who loved me.
Xu Jian asked me again: "Brother Tang, now things have become clear, and the choice is once again placed in front of you. My father is a traditional and upright old man. He can't bear to see his children do wrong things, and he can't bear to see his children being hurt by others. Now he has a prejudice against you. If you want to be with Xiao Shu, you must make a decision that will satisfy him immediately. Do you understand? Of course, if you choose the Hua family, then I advise you to leave here quickly and never see Xiao Shu again. Lest you hurt others and yourself, once my father is really angry, even I can't persuade him. Brother Tang! I hope you make a decision that you won't regret. I believe you should be able to take it! Let it go!"
For a moment, I was really confused and in a dilemma. I knew I should make a choice and decision, but no matter what I chose, I would hurt others. I had no choice and no courage. I was really afraid of this moment.
But seeing Xu Jian's determined and expectant eyes, I knew that I could no longer escape. I took a deep breath and exhaled heavily. I said to Xu Jian: "Brother Xu, you have always been the person I admire the most. I know you are always right. I already know what to do, and I will not let you down!"
Xu Jian looked at me deeply, patted my shoulder fiercely, and said, "That's good to know! No matter what choice you make, you should be more like a man! Don't worry about my father, I will settle it for you!"
He turned and left, I watched him leave, my heart was filled with mixed feelings. This moment has finally come! I looked up at the sky, lost in thought. Choice? No matter from which aspect, Xu Shu is my only choice. It seems that I have nothing to worry about. But if I think about it carefully, if Jingjing loses me, she will immediately lose the motivation to live, and in grief and despair, she may even do something stupid like committing suicide. But Xu Shu is different. Xu Shu is more sensible and mature than Jingjing. Although she will also be heartbroken if she loses me, I believe she will definitely live on with strength.
If I consider this, it seems that the only choice is Hua Jingjing. But... let me give up a woman who doesn't even care about her own life for me, and I love this woman so much. If I lose her, can I... still live strong?
Oh, God! What should I do? Please tell me! I screamed from the bottom of my heart. I was in so much pain that my internal organs were dislocated, and I was shaking with fear. It seemed that the end of the world was coming, and no matter how I tried to hide, I would die!
At this time, a dozen reporters came over without knowing whether to live or die. "Sir, I am a reporter from XXXX newspaper. Can you accept my interview?"
"Excuse me, I'm from XX TV station. May I ask what is your relationship with the famous star Xu Shu?"
"Excuse me……"
"I am……"
For a moment, everyone was talking at once, making my head hurt. I was already depressed, but suddenly I got angry and yelled, "Get out!"
Then, I ignored everyone's surprised expressions, pushed the crowd away, and strode out.
I searched for a long time before I saw Hua Jingjing by the fountain in the hospital garden. She was sitting quietly by herself, with the light from the pillar not far away shining softly on her face, clearly showing two tear marks flickering.
I stopped not far from her. Jingjing was not sure what she was thinking and did not notice me. But I could tell from her tears that she must be very sad at the moment.
Her smile just now was all fake. In fact, deep down in her heart, she must be very sad, very heartbroken, and very angry, right?
I can understand her feelings at the moment. No one can accept the fact that her husband and her best friend are having an affair. Jingjing didn't want to get angry when Xu Shu was seriously injured. In order not to embarrass me, she pretended to be indifferent. But in fact, she was really sad! Only when no one was around would she secretly feel sad.
My heart ached. I really didn't want to hurt this innocent woman! Jingjing had never done anything wrong, but she had to endure so much pain. I... I am such a worthless person. All the mistakes were caused by me. I am the most damned sinner!
Jingjing finally saw me. She immediately turned her back to wipe away her tears, then turned back and said with a forced smile, "Hubby, you're out? How was your talk with Uncle Xu and the others?"
I walked towards her with a sad face. Jingjing seemed to have sensed something and immediately stood up from the pool. I just called out, "Jingjing!" and reached out to hug her tightly in my arms.
Jingjing in my arms was trembling. She said in a trembling voice: "They... forced you to make a choice, right?"
I was in so much pain that I could only speak in a hoarse and extremely sad voice: "Jingjing, I... I'm sorry!"
Jingjing suddenly understood, and she burst into tears again, curling up in my arms and sobbing helplessly, "No...you can't...you can't!"
I was so sad that I couldn't stop myself from crying. I had never hated myself as much as I did now. I felt that I was even more cruel than killing Jingjing. I was a beast, not a human!
Jingjing immediately burst into tears, and the sound of her crying made me want to break my heart into pieces. I wanted to kill myself immediately to forgive my sins.
Jingjing cried endlessly. I held her and sat by the fountain, unable to say a word of comfort. I don't know how much time passed before Jingjing gradually calmed down, and the sky was already slightly bright.
Jingjing was still sobbing in my arms. She raised her head, looked at me with resentment, and said angrily, "Is this your decision? If so, I won't interfere with you. Let's get a divorce at dawn!"
I reached out my hand sadly to wipe away the tears on her face, and said softly: "Jingjing, if possible, I am willing to give everything for you! Just yesterday, I thought about no longer having an affair with Xu Shu. I really want to be wholeheartedly with you and live a happy life for the rest of my life! But, Xu Shu...she has done this for me, I can no longer give her up, can you understand? I am in pain, both of you are the best women in the world. Both of you are so affectionate and loyal, it is hard to give up. I made this choice, my heart is bleeding, if allowed, I am not willing to give up any of you. But...reality is always cruel, how can I have two women alone? So..."
Before I finished speaking, Jingjing suddenly grabbed my arm tightly, as if she had grabbed a life-saving straw. She said in a trembling voice: "Husband, if... I am willing to have you with Xiaoshu, can you consider taking back your decision? Don't... be so heartless, I... can't accept it!"
I was shocked and cried out, "What? How... can this be done?"
Jingjing was anxious, and she struggled to get out of my arms, saying, "Why can't I do that? As long as I am willing, you are willing, and Xiaoshu is willing, then it will be fine, right?"
I said with a smile: "But... this is China? Let's not even talk about whether your parents and Xu Shu's parents will agree. Chinese law alone does not allow it. Aren't you just... daydreaming?"
