Chapter 148: So Close Yet So Far Away
I chased to the elevator and saw the door of the elevator Xu Shu was riding in close and start to descend. I had no choice but to rush to the stairs. Fortunately, this was only the seventh floor, not too high.
I rushed out of the hotel door panting and looked around. Thank God, Xu Shu was walking slowly not far ahead.
I called out, "Xu Shu!" and then chased after him. Xu Shu pretended not to hear me and continued to walk slowly. I walked a few steps to her side, and seeing that she seemed to be still angry, I did not dare to hold her hand. I just said, "Xu Shu, I'm sorry! I wronged you. Isn't it enough for me to admit my mistake to you? Besides, you hit me so many times, you should have calmed down by now, right?"
Xu Shu turned around and rolled her eyes at me, but didn't say anything to me, just walked away. I followed her and said, "Xu Shu, don't ignore me! I really know I was wrong. If I do this again in the future, you can punish me by beating me to death, okay?"
Xu Shu pretended not to hear me, and didn't even look at me, treating me like air, and didn't even stop. I was very confused, because even though she was angry and hit someone just now, she didn't ignore me like she is now?
In my anxiety, I suddenly felt some discomfort on my buttocks, probably because she kicked me just now. This gave me an idea, and I immediately leaned over and touched my left foot, and shouted loudly: "Ouch!"
Xu Shu, who was walking in front of me, really stopped and turned around. I pretended to be in great pain, stroking my left calf and breathing in the cold air.
Xu Shu couldn't help asking me, "Tang Qian, what's wrong with you?"
I laughed in my heart, thinking, "Aren't you going to pay attention to me?" In order to make it look more realistic, I simply squatted down and said in pain: "My...my leg...was not completely healed to begin with, and you kicked me just now. It seems...it's not working anymore, and it hurts a lot now..."
Xu Shu was shocked, and hurried over to support my body, saying with great regret: "I...I am so damned! I forgot that you had broken your calf before. Tang Qian...I didn't...mean it. How is it? Does it really hurt? Then...I'll take you to the hospital right away!"
I said, "Hospital? I won't go! If you are still angry with me, I would rather die here in pain than have you ignore me!"
Xu Shu said anxiously, "Who... is still angry with you? You know I'm a thin-skinned person and I care about my reputation. Just now, others saw me and you fooling around, and I... I was just distracted and didn't want to pay attention to you! Don't say anything, it's all my fault! You must go to the hospital, otherwise I will hate myself to death."
Oh? After all this fuss, she wasn't angry, she was just shy. I laughed in my heart, this Xu Shu is so thin-skinned, there are few in the world, how did she become a big star like this?
I saw that it was almost done. If I continued to lie, it would not end well, so I said, "So you have forgiven me, right? I want you to say it yourself."
Xu Shu was extremely anxious, stamping his feet and saying, "Why are you arguing about this at this moment? Go and check your leg. What if it's really broken again?"
I squatted on the ground and said stubbornly: "If you don't tell me, I won't leave!"
"You... okay! I forgive you! That's all right, come on, I'll help you up."
I stood up as she pushed, and said with a smile, "How strange! As soon as you said you forgave me, my leg stopped hurting, as if it was healed again!"
Xu Shu was stunned. As smart as she was, she realized that I was lying to her. My leg was fine. She was stunned for a moment, then looked at my smiling face and said angrily and happily: "Tang Qian, you... dare to lie? I... I took it seriously! Good! I'm really angry, let's see if I will pay attention to you!"
She turned her back and ignored me out of anger. How could I let go of this opportunity? I reached out and hugged her from behind, saying softly, "Don't! If you ignore me, I'll be really anxious. If I don't lie to you a little, how can I know what you really think? Xu Shu, I know you love me, don't leave me, okay?"
Xu Shu blushed and struggled desperately, but she couldn't get away because of my tight hold. She hurriedly called out, "We are on the street! What are you doing?"
I felt nothing but tenderness, and the love that had been buried deep in my heart for a long time burst out. I hugged her tightly and said affectionately: "Xu Shu! I... really love you! Can you never leave me?"
Xu Shu stopped struggling. She thought for a moment and said, "Tang Qian, I... of course I want to be with you forever, but have you thought about Jingjing? She has given so much for you, can you bear to abandon her?"
My hand trembled and loosened. Xu Shu gently escaped from my arms and turned around. With pain on her face, she said, "Even if you have the heart, I will never agree. How can I steal my best friend's man? How can I face her in this life? Especially since she is suffering for you, how can I stab her in the back again?"
She looked at me with a sad look in her eyes and continued, "Tang Qian, I love you too. But I can't accept you. If I stay with you, I will live with the condemnation of my conscience for the rest of my life and I will never be happy. And what about you? Can you really abandon Jingjing? If you do this, will you be happy?"
I put my hands down. I knew in my heart that I could never abandon Jingjing! But! If I were to abandon you, my heart would feel like it was being cut by a knife. I would feel so painful that I would die!
Xu Shu sighed and said, "Maybe... what I did last night was a mistake. You would feel better if I didn't do that, but... Hey! Come with me!"
She dragged my hand, walked to the side of the street, and hailed a taxi.
I asked curiously, "Where are you taking me?"
Xu Shu got in the car first, and then said, "Come on, I know another reason why you came to the United States, isn't it to see Jingjing? I'll take you to find her now."
My heart trembled, and I said happily, "Really? Didn't you say... that we are not allowed to meet within three years?"
Xu Shu said: "I didn't say that I would let you meet. I just wanted you to see her from a distance. Take a closer look at how much pain she has endured and how much freedom she has lost in order to be with you. What kind of person has she become? Then you can make a decision!"
Jingjing lives in a very ordinary house in the United States. In fact, this is already the suburbs of Los Angeles. Usually, in American movies, there is a lawn in front of each house. The taxi we took stopped at the corner of the street. Xu Shu pointed to one of the houses and said, "That's where Jingjing lives. In ten minutes, she will come back from school. She must be followed by a driver who is also a bodyguard and a classmate who is also monitoring her. Jingjing's every move almost cannot escape their eyes."
Seeing that she calculated the time so accurately, I asked, "Did you plan to bring me to see her this afternoon?"
Xu Shu nodded and said, "I came to your room for this matter, and kicking you was just a side job. Didn't you see that I walked so slowly on purpose when I came out? That was so you could catch up. Also, just to be on the safe side, I didn't ask the production company to send a car to take us. Who knows if they will be bribed by Hua Qiming? He is a very cunning old man, and we have to be on guard against him. So we took a taxi here and watched from a distance. The bag can be done without anyone noticing, and no one will notice it."
I said gratefully: "Xu Shu..."
Xu Shu snorted and said, "Don't give me that!"
I looked out the car window at the house, and my heart was filled with sadness. I could imagine what Jingjing was like now, and how hard her life must have been. Even if she didn't bring me to see her, I would never choose to abandon Jingjing. But... I really loved Xu Shu, and it would have been fine if I didn't know that she loved me before. But now that I know that she loves me as well, I feel extremely unbalanced. I long to be with Xu Shu, and to love each other for the rest of our lives.
I... have a headache! On one side is Jingjing! On the other side is Xu Shu. Both are very important women in my heart. I will not be happy if I lose either of them. It is so difficult for me to choose. I can't choose anymore. And I know that Xu Shu has actually made her own choice...
Soon, a black car stopped in front of the house. Xu Shu pushed me and said, "Watch out, she's back!"
My heart tightened and I stared at the car. The door opened and a male driver got out first. He quickly opened the back door and a woman in her twenties got out second. Then, Jingjing appeared.
When I saw her, I almost cried. Jingjing! How did you become so thin? How much suffering did you endure?
In the distance, the unhappy Hua Jingjing got out of the car and used the book in her hand to shield herself from the setting sun. In the sunlight, her figure was lonely and thin. The woman followed her closely, and hurriedly walked with her across the lawn and into the house.
Seeing her for just a few seconds still made me so excited that I couldn't control myself. I wanted to get off the car and rush over to meet her, hug her tightly, and tell her how much I missed her and how much I hoped for her.
She was gone, but I was still staring at the house. My Jingjing was inside it, less than a hundred meters away from me, yet we were so far away from each other that we couldn't see each other. This kind of pain was unbearable.
I murmured, "Wife... do you know? I'm here to see you, I'm right outside your door, I... miss you so much..." Before I knew it, tears were streaming down my face, and I couldn't speak anymore.
Xu Shu sighed softly and said, "After seeing her, you should know what kind of life she is living now. Jingjing has made all the sacrifices and efforts for you. Her love is great. Would you abandon a woman who loves you so much?"
I reached out my hand to wipe away my tears and said, "I will not abandon her unless I die! No matter what happens in the future, I will never let her down. I want to make her the happiest woman in the world!"
Xu Shu smiled bitterly and said, "So you won't abandon her? Then why did you ask me not to leave you?"
I was silent for a while, then sighed, "Let's go, I already know...what to do!"
