Five years passed in the blink of an eye.
After I left Tianyin College, I dropped out and worked odd jobs to supplement my family income. Later, with the financial support of relatives and my father's early release from prison, the family's situation gradually improved, and I was able to return to school two years later to continue my studies. After three years of hard work, I finally got admitted to my ideal university and became a college freshman.
University life is rich and colorful, but I am not interested in participating in campus activities, but in various part-time jobs. One day, when I was looking for part-time job information online, a news pop-up window popped up, and the eye-catching title instantly attracted my attention.
——"Ao Shi Fei Xian" ends the legend of the online game empire and will officially announce the closure of the service tomorrow. For details, please click XXXXX
My pupils suddenly contracted and the hand operating the mouse became stiff instantly.
"Ao Shi Fei Xian" is actually going to shut down... Yes, five years have passed, a period of time that is neither long nor short .
Five years is enough for a virtual network empire to go from prosperity to decline, but it still cannot heal the bottomless black hole in my heart. Sometimes in the middle of the night, I can still think of the time I spent in Tianyin Academy, the past of fighting and laughing at the heroes in online games, and... the person who I want to forget but can't.
I think this may be an obsession that I will never be able to get rid of, and I will never be able to let it go for the rest of my life.
Although I had vowed not to play online games again and even refused to learn any information about them, for some unknown reason I clicked on the link after the news and entered the relevant special page.
After all, "Ao Shi Fei Xian" was a popular online game The suspension of service naturally attracted much attention and discussion. But the official also released news that the end of "Ao Shi Fei Xian" was because the company wanted to put more energy into their latest fairy-tale online game called "Fantasy Jianghu". Currently, this online game has been officially launched and is likely to surpass the prosperity of "Ao Shi Fei Xian" back then. Unfortunately, I no longer have any interest in online games. I just browsed it hastily and clicked on the forum link of "Ao Shi Fei Xian" to see the reaction on the forum.
The game forum of "Ao Shi Fei Xian" was also very lively at this time. The large picture on the header was the login interface of the first version of "Ao Shi Fei Xian" that year, with a line of large characters below - "Ten Years of Ao Shi, Recalling Fei Xian".
The popular posts floating on the forum were all old players posting about their experiences in "Ao Shi Fei Xian", which was also a remembrance of the good memories of the past. Among all the posts, a post titled "To My Girl" was highlighted and pinned to the top, with the most clicks and replies. Driven by curiosity, I clicked on this post, but after just a few glances, I was stunned.
This is a player's self-narration post. The whole article is narrated from the perspective of "I". The text is soothing and plain, but the emotions are very real.
To My Girl
I haven't played this game for five years. I only came back after hearing the news of the server closure. Seeing many players on the forum talking about their past and memories in the game, I couldn't help but think of some past events, some feelings, some sadness, and more of a regret that I can't let go. I have an impulse in my heart to turn these thoughts into words, just as a commemoration of our youth that will eventually pass away.
What I want to tell you is a story about love. But perhaps it can't be called love at all, because this relationship died before it even began to develop.
The story takes place when I was in high school, and the heroine is a schoolgirl two years younger than me.
The first time I saw her was on the first day of high school. On that day, many clubs would set up booths in the student square to attract new members by showing their club characteristics. One of the clubs was called the E-sports Club. The main project at that time was the PK field of "Ao Shi Fei Xian". Their president personally set up the ring and said that as long as you beat him, you will get a prize. Because I was also playing "Ao Shi Fei Xian" at that time, I paid more attention to this booth when I passed by. The president's operation was indeed good, and all the people who went up to challenge were defeated. Just when everyone was complimenting the president's powerful operation, the junior girl appeared.
When she sat in front of the computer, no one took it too seriously. In the world of online games, girls' operation skills are generally worse than boys', and even though she later logged in with a male account, it did not alert her opponents.
Then, the president was completely defeated.
It is no exaggeration to say that the scene was completely silent. Many people did not react because the speed and rhythm of the girl's operation were so good that the opponent did not even have time to fight back. In the blink of an eye, his HP was reduced to zero.
"I took the prize."
She seemed unaware of the astonishment of the people around her. She took the prize and disappeared into the crowd.
On the stage, because this junior girl chose "anonymous", no one knew her real ID in the game, but I was standing behind her at the time, and when she logged in, I could easily see her login ID from her computer screen.
Drunken dream late.
I remembered this ID and checked it back, and found that this was the tenth character in the server's master PK list. But this account was very low-key, never turned on the friend switch, and never joined any guild or organization. He was a recognized mysterious master in the online game.
But unlike her low-key performance in the online game, this girl was very high-profile in real life. Just one month after entering school, she became a "celebrity" in the college, and the way she became famous was - "loving money". Some people even gave her a nickname, "Miss Gold Digger".
Her passion and persistence for money really stunned everyone. She could think of any idea and do anything to make money. I was the president of the student union , and she used the student union's activities to make money, which aroused public anger. When I went to negotiate with her, she even turned the tables on me. She was a typical person who would take advantage of others' opportunities and refused to give in.
In the ivory tower of the pursuit of knowledge on campus, "loving money" is never a good sign. There are countless people who hate her, and even I have a terrible impression of her and I hate her very much.
But unexpectedly, one day in the game, "Zui Mengchi" suddenly came to me on his own initiative, with the reason being: he was itching to PK with a master.
If I didn't know her in real life, I would probably think that "Zui Mengchi" was just looking for trouble because she had nothing better to do. But thinking about her love of money, I think this PK must be very complicated. Maybe she accepted some assassination mission to take my life.
I accepted the challenge.
After the challenge, I didn’t cut off contact with him. Instead, I kept making trouble for Zuimengchi, forcing him to not even dare to go online.
Thinking about it now, besides venting my anger for losing in the real world, I was actually more excited and happy to meet a worthy opponent. I have never encountered any setbacks since I was a child. After living a smooth life for a long time, I will inevitably have boring thoughts. Until she rushed into my life, my life finally became turbulent.
Coincidentally, in addition to the intersection in online games, an accident in real life allowed me to catch this girl's handle, and we began to have frequent contact from then on.
A lot of things happened later and we went through a lot.
During this process, I found that she was not the kind of girl who was only interested in money. She had many valuable qualities, and I was attracted to her involuntarily until I felt moved. This was the first time I had such a strong liking for a girl. I thought, I probably fell in love with her.
The birds in the sky love the fish in the sea, but the birds cannot understand the vastness of the ocean, and the fish cannot imagine the freedom of the sky. Even if there is love, people in two different worlds will eventually have conflicts because of their lack of understanding of each other's world. Because of one thing, there was a serious disagreement between her and me, which directly led to our cold war and our relationship dropped to the freezing point. I felt really bad during the days when we were strangers. I wanted to find a chance to talk to her, but I found that she had disappeared from school.
The next time I heard about her was from the game forum of "Ao Shi Fei Xian" - she was going to publicly auction all her game accounts.
I know she is a game mercenary, and selling her account means she will get rid of all her game assets and retire from the game. Among those accounts, there is one that I value the most - it is our exclusive private account. I even regard it as a symbol of our relationship. It is my first love, pure and beautiful, and inviolable.
However, that account was also put up for auction.
It’s hard to describe the feeling.
It was as if the most beautiful dream was ripped apart by someone. The first thing that came to my mind was not anger, but embarrassment. I even thought that maybe it was just my wishful thinking from the beginning to the end. What she loved the most, valued the most, and trusted the most was always money.
I didn't attend that auction.
But to my surprise, the person who bought the account was actually one of my classmates. She and the girl agreed to trade on campus, and on that day, I rushed to the scene in advance after hearing the news, trying to save the relationship for the last time, but the result was a complete failure.
After all, love was no match for money, and I finally had to admit: this was a failed unrequited love. She never acknowledged me or trusted me from beginning to end, and I was never allowed to truly enter her world, never.
This story ends here. The heroine of the story has disappeared from my world since then, and there is no news of her ever since. However, even though the story ends abruptly, life still goes on.
I did not take the college entrance examination in China, but went abroad to study. Two years later, during the summer vacation, I went back to my alma mater to visit my teacher and accidentally heard about a story - the schoolmate's family had encountered misfortune, and the debt collectors came to collect the debts. She had no choice but to drop out of school and move away with her mother. This happened at the time when she sold her account.
"If I hadn't visited her home, I wouldn't have known her family situation was so complicated." The teacher said with emotion, "I have met some children in similar situations. The cowardly ones are mostly devastated and confused; while the strong ones are very independent. As long as they can handle it themselves, they will never ask for help from people around them. This is like an instinct. Ordinary people may not understand it, but it is indeed an important principle for them to behave in the world."
It was not until much later that I gradually understood what the teacher said. Especially after entering society, I realized it more deeply. It is difficult for a naive student who has no worries about food and clothing to understand how terrible the pressure of life and reality is. What we take for granted may be the best efforts of others. The choice of that girl was not wrong, but I was too idealistic and arbitrary. If I had been more patient and tolerant at that time, and could consider more from her perspective, perhaps the future development would be very different.
Over the years, I have been asking about this girl, but unfortunately there is no news. I am posting this today, on the one hand, to commemorate her, and on the other hand, I am holding a little hope that she will see this post and contact me. After all, five years have passed, and I no longer have the extravagant hope of changing the ending of this relationship. I just want to know if you are doing well now, and at the same time, I want to say something to you.
sorry.
It was not until everything in front of my eyes became blurry that I realized that I had already burst into tears. The poster of the post was named "风萧水寒". Among the many comments from readers below, some old players who played with us during the same period cried, and some kept asking questions.
——Original poster, are the “Feng Xiao Shui Han” in “Fantasy Jianghu” the same person as you?
--yes.
After wiping away my tears, I downloaded the client of "Fantasy Jianghu" as quickly as possible and registered an ID named "Shanshanlai Chi".
The stagnant gears of fate seemed to start turning again. After entering the game, I immediately added "Feng Xiao Shui Han" as a friend. The application was quickly approved, and private messages followed one after another.
[Private Chat] Feng Xiaoshuihan: Is that you?
[Private chat] Shanshan came to Chi: Yes.
[Private Chat] Feng Xiaoshuihan: You are really late.
[Private chat] Shanshan Lai Chi: It's not too late, right? Actually, you don't have to say sorry to me. Besides... I have lived a good life these years.
[Private Chat] Feng Xiaoshuihan: You still owe me an answer.
[Private Chat] Shanshan Lai Chi: It’s been so long, is it too late to answer you now?
[Private Chat] Feng Xiaoshuihan: Of course, I have been waiting for five years. Do you still want me to wait?
I laughed silently, but my eyes were wet again. I had never been so cautious before, I even held my breath and typed out that line of words on the keyboard. It was a desperate confession that would only happen once in my life.
"Ling Hanfeng, I like you. I have always liked you from five years ago until now."
There was silence for a while, and then a message came: "Give me your phone number."
As soon as I sent the phone number, my cell phone rang. After I answered it, I heard a man's charming voice.
"I want to tell you once in person that I like you and want to be your boyfriend. Are you willing?"
"If you can find me, I'll give you my word."
"See you tomorrow then." The other side laughed softly, as confident and cunning as ever, "Have you forgotten that there is such a thing as a number's location? I have booked a flight to your city."
I once read a sentence: If the ending of the story is not good enough, it is definitely not the end yet.
I have lost, been afraid, been frustrated, and been sad. This world has long made me no longer believe in fairy tales, but at this moment, I want to smile from the bottom of my heart and tell everyone.
I finally waited for the best ending of this story .