Chapter 117 Let Go
"That's right!" Kim Tae-ho nodded. He felt very sympathetic towards his cousin Lee Hyo-ri. Plus, at Lee Hyo-ri's request, there was no problem in letting Jung Soo-heng make a cameo appearance. It wouldn't affect the filming anyway. On the contrary, wouldn't it create a more lively atmosphere if there was a pianist playing on the spot?
"What a joke!" Zheng Xiuheng frowned, turned his head and looked at Lee Hyo-ri and asked coldly.
This scared Kim Tae-ho and Kim Soo-ro, who was preparing to explain acting to Jung Soo-heng. They didn't expect that Lee Hyo-ri's cousin was so easily angered.
But Lee Hyo-ri was not afraid. Instead, she looked up at Zheng Xiuheng very seriously. Then she suddenly imitated the tone of Zheng Xiuheng's speech and said coldly: "If this kind of thing is considered beyond your limit, then you can get out of here and just treat your words as fart!"
Lee Hyori didn't want to know what the taboos were for Zheng Xiuheng when it came to things like playing the piano and singing, nor was she interested in knowing. She only knew that compared to what she had lost, if Zheng Xiuheng even rejected such a request, then she really didn't want to have any contact with such a person except for work. After all, they had different positions, and such a choice would be more like an insult to herself.
Zheng Xiuheng paused when he heard this, and his face became even uglier. Looking at Lee Hyori's unflinching and sincere eyes, Zheng Xiuheng was slightly shaken.
The atmosphere around them was a bit heavy. Kim Soo-ro and others had already stepped aside, and were observing the two curiously with Yoo Jae-suk and Jung Joon-ha.
After a moment, Zheng Xiuheng seemed to remember something, his expression suddenly softened, and a hint of sadness crept into his eyes.
Lee Hyo-ri's expression also returned to normal. Seeing Zheng Xiuheng's faint sadness , she suddenly felt a little regretful. Although the two had known each other for a short time, from the beginning to now, except for the sadness in Zheng Xiuheng's eyes in the past two days, his eyes were calm but not sad. He had obviously improved a lot before, but now it came back, but this time it seemed to be caused by her own arrangement.
"Tell me, if there is something you need to let go of, but you can't let go because of your responsibility, what will you do?" Zheng Xiuheng suddenly asked Lee Hyori strangely, which made Lee Hyori a little panicked because she was not prepared at all.
"What's all this mess?"
"Since you are required to let it go, just let it go. Why talk about responsibility? Why didn't you say anything when you really wanted to talk about responsibility? What's that look in your eyes? What I mean is that even if you talk to me about responsibility, I may not pay attention to you. It will be even more annoying if you keep making it up. But are you going to bounce back or not?" Lee Hyori asked angrily, not knowing if she was stupid or not, she actually answered like that.
After hearing what Lee Hyori said, Zheng Xiuheng was stunned. After a moment, his heart suddenly became clear and he was no longer so sad for Zheng Xiuyeon.
No matter whether it is a responsibility or a debt, since she is unwilling to maintain such a bond with him anymore, Zheng Xiuheng does not want to force it. It doesn't matter even if they never see each other again in their lifetime, as long as he can protect her secretly, it doesn't matter whether it is a responsibility or a debt, this is what Zheng Xiuheng wants to do and should do.
In fact, Zheng Xiuheng is also a normal person. Maybe he has an abnormal body, but his heart is normal. It is because of Xiujing's care that Zheng Xiuheng feels extremely satisfied even if he only has one sister. The comparison also makes him look at things lightly. Maybe in ten years when everyone is more mature, everything will be over?
At this moment, what Zheng Xiuheng cared about changed. It became very small, but very important.
Soo-jung > sister > career > revenge.
Because of this priority, thinking of Jessica Jung's last words and the persistence of the woman in front of him, Zheng Xiuheng could only say sorry to Li Xiaole in his heart and make an exception today.
"bomb!"
Zheng Xiuheng returned to his stupid expression and answered Lee Hyori decisively.
Lee Hyo-ri was slightly startled. She was actually a little surprised at this moment. She didn't expect that Zheng Xiuheng actually agreed. However, she was not in a good mood because she had used up the promise Zheng Xiuheng had made for such a reason. In addition, it seemed that she had forced him to do something he didn't want to do. Lee Hyo-ri felt that she was too bad.
Zheng Xiuheng didn't feel that Lee Hyori was forcing her. Since Lee Hyori knew so much about her musical ability, it must have been told to her by the Big Three. They probably didn't expect that Lee Hyori would use such a method to make her play the piano.
Zheng Xiuheng did not walk to the piano, but came to Jin Taeho and others.
"PD Kim Tae-ho, Director Kim Soo-ro, please don't shoot my face during filming. I don't want to be on camera!"
Zheng Xiuheng spoke in a very formal tone, as if he was having a business conversation.
Except for Kim Tae-ho, everyone else's reactions were slightly surprised.
"Don't worry, we will respect your opinion!" Kim Tae-ho also replied seriously, but he resisted telling Jung Soo-heng the truth, because there was no plan to give him a close-up. At most, when Jung Joon-ha was filming, Jung Soo-heng would take over and play for a while and then film it. As for Jung Soo-heng's playing now, it was mainly Lee Hyo-ri and Jung Joon-ha who were filming over there.
"Here is the music score, one..."
"No need, PD Kim Tae-ho, I'll take care of the performance!" Zheng Xiuheng interrupted Kim Tae-ho somewhat rudely.
If Kim Tae-ho had met an ordinary person, he would have been embarrassed and angry. However, when he thought of Lee Hyo-ri's cousin's story and mental illness, he was no longer angry. He thought about Lee Hyo-ri's assurance and strong recommendation. Anyway, it would be fine if it was cut out in the later stage. There would be no shots of him in the filming. Even if he played badly, there would be no loss.
"Well, you should get ready first. We can start once everything is ready here!"
"Thanks!"
After saying this, Zheng Xiuheng turned around and walked towards the piano. He gently stroked the piano cover with his right hand, a bitter smile appearing at the corner of his mouth.
If he couldn't get over the hurdle in his heart, Zheng Xiuheng would not touch this thing. After getting over this hurdle, Zheng Xiuheng touched it again. In fact, there is not much sadness for piano music, but only a little bit of emotion and helplessness.
Sitting in front of the piano, he lifted the piano cover, looked at the clean keys, a smile became natural on the corners of his mouth, closed his eyes, and Zheng Xiuheng just sat there quietly.
On the other side, Lee Hyori and Jung Joon-ha were putting on makeup and preparing for the filming.
…
At the same time, three furtive men wearing baseball caps and scarves appeared at the door of the store.
"It really worked. As expected of Lee Hyori!"
This familiar voice with a hint of vulgarity made it clear that it was Liu Xilie as soon as he heard it. This level of recognition is indeed amazing.
During dinner, Lee Hyori sent the address to the big three, explaining that filming would take place there that night, and the three of them rushed over immediately.
Zheng Zaixing was also a little excited and said, "I wonder which song they will play, or is it a new song?"
"New song!"
Yoo Hee-yeol's eyes lit up instantly, and the same happened to the steady Jung Dong-in.
The three uncles suddenly became so excited. Led by Lee Hyori's assistant, they entered the restaurant and sat down in a corner. This was a non-shooting area, so it did not interfere with the filming of the production team.
“Boom boom!”
“Ah! Ah!”
"OK!"
After the audition, the sound engineer gave Zheng Xiuheng an OK, and Zheng Xiuheng nodded. At this moment, he was a little confused. After thinking for a long time, he couldn't find a song to play, which made him feel helpless.
He shook his head, trying to keep himself awake, turned around to look at Lee Hyori who was already in position, but happened to meet Lee Hyori's eyes.
“Woo!”
Seeing this guy suddenly raise both hands with his thumbs down, as if mocking him, Zheng Xiuheng shook his head and smiled.
"Xiuheng, listen to my instructions. When I wave my hand, start playing and singing. It's better to sing a gentle song!" Kim Soo-ro called to Zheng Xiuheng while standing in the production team. It seemed that they were about to prepare for filming.
Zheng Xiuheng nodded to indicate that it was OK. On the other side, Jin Xiulu, after making sure that everyone was in place, also sat down and shouted with the microphone: "Xth scene, first time, Action !"
As soon as the performance officially started, Zheng Xiuheng entered a serious state. This was not an ordinary performance. He had no interest in being an extra. In some aspects of his personality, Zheng Xiuheng was a stubborn person. There were some things he was willing to do from the most basic level, but there were others he was not willing to do.
If Lee Hyori or Yoo Hee-yeol helped her become an MC, he would definitely be happy and grateful, but if he had to play a supporting role like this, Zheng Xiuheng would rather spend his time on more meaningful work.
But this is an opportunity.
"I hope you can hear me!"
Thinking quietly in his heart, Zheng Xiuheng saw Jin Xiulu on the right side began to wave. He didn't know what was happening behind him, but he slowly raised his hands and placed them on the piano keys very gently. His slender fingers looked very beautiful at this moment. Liu Zaishi, who was a little curious about Zheng Xiuheng, had been observing him. At this moment, he realized that this cousin had a pair of very clean and slender big hands.
“Boom!”
As soft, ancient-style music sounded, Yoo Jae-seok was surprised to find that his cousin Soo-heng seemed like a different person. His fingers seemed to have magic and danced softly. What beautiful music!
"when!"
Suddenly, a heavy bass sound completely ruined the atmosphere. Kim Soo-ro and others were so scared that they even forgot to call out "Cut".
“It shouldn’t be like this!”
Zheng Xiuheng suddenly laughed at himself, and at this moment he suddenly said that the music he had composed was basically gentle, charming, healing or very emotional.
None of these suited his mood at the moment, and he didn't feel like playing his own music anymore.
Suddenly remembering something, Zheng Xiuheng's expression became a little gloomy.
“Hoohoo!”
After taking a deep breath, Zheng Xiuheng's expression gradually became calm. Under the calm expression, there was only a hint of sadness in his eyes, very faint, very faint.
"Card!"
Just after Kim Soo-ro called out “cut,” bright notes rang out, attracting everyone’s ears. Lee Hyo-ri also looked over, but she suddenly felt a little nervous, and she couldn’t explain why.
The faint notes evolved into a faint sadness, very light and soft, without any psychological burden. Li Xiaole was also forgotten behind my mind. At this moment, I just wanted to fulfill one person's wish and express my inner feelings. There is no need for healing, just to fulfill her wish and give my response. Whether she can hear it or not is up to fate.
"I bid farewell to her like bidding farewell to the autumn birds.
After bidding her farewell, I came back and sat in front of the wine glass
Tears will flow
…
Bid her farewell, looking at the fading stars
The result that could not be achieved, tears flow down day by day
Can the painful love be forgotten?..."
The voice was not too special, just like Zheng Xiuheng's voice when he spoke, a little low, but it was unexpectedly full of emotion. The faint piano sound, the faint singing, the faint sadness, immediately attracted everyone in the room.
This was also the first time that Zheng Xiuheng sang with his emotions without reservation.
"One day when the rain was pouring down like the past
Become a sad person on the road and bow your head
I will hear her voice..."
The high-pitched voice fell to the bottom. When singing to this point, Zheng Xiuheng's voice paused, and the sound of the piano paused, as if emotions were brewing, and as if he was sad alone.
"Love that is too painful is not love!"
The singing voice was so soft that it seemed to float away, the simple and gentle piano music, the simple melody, the simple voice, at this moment made the eyes of some people around gradually turn red.
"The wind blows across my wet shoulders
One day of leaving
The tired past drips on the window
I'll feel disgusted with her
Love that is too painful is not love
I hope we don't come to this world because of love again
I wish I could bury the words I miss
Love without results
Love that is too painful is not love
I hope that love that is too painful is not love..."
The ending with a little bit of crying made Zheng Xiuheng close his eyes.
In fact, he is not good at singing and playing. He prefers playing. The feeling of his favorite music flying through his fingertips is joyful.
But everything doesn't always go the way I want.
When the song ended, some emotional female writers shed tears, not because they were moved by Zheng Xiuheng, but only because of the faint sadness and the stories that were evoked.
However, Zheng Xiuheng found relief after this song, as if he said farewell to the birds in autumn, gained a kind of sadness and let go of a kind of pain.
Standing up, Zheng Xiuheng took light steps and left the restaurant under the gaze of everyone.
Standing on the brightly lit street and looking at the world around him, Zheng Xiuheng felt his own presence.
“I want to live without any restrictions!”
At this moment, the three words "for myself" finally appeared in Zheng Xiuheng's mind.
Once you learn to let go, what you let go of is your heart.
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Note: Piano version: "Painful Love Is Not Love" by Jung Seung-hwan, original song by Kim Kwang-seok, and there is also a version by Ailee (Lee Ye-jin).
