Chapter 110 Brother, Goodbye
When she heard her brother's voice, Krystal wanted to stand up and run over, but when she saw her brother coming over and realized that he had seen her sister, she sat on the chair and looked at the two of them nervously, afraid that they would start arguing again, and she sat there extremely nervous.
Zheng Xiuheng didn't expect that someone would be waiting for him downstairs, let alone that it would be his sisters.
When she came in front of the two of them, Jessica Jung had already stood up from the bench. Because she was half a head shorter than Zheng Xiuheng, Jessica Jung looked up at Zheng Xiuheng. Her eyes were slightly red, her body was trembling slightly, and her emotions were unstable. She looked like she was about to explode.
Zheng Xiuheng also stood there nervously, feeling confused and puzzled, but with some joy in his eyes, thinking: "Could it be that girl told Xiuyan?" Although he was a little dissatisfied, it was the first time that the two met so peacefully. No matter how many thoughts Zheng Xiuheng had, he was always happy from the bottom of his heart.
“Xiu-jung told me everything!”
Jessica Jung's voice trembled slightly, and her words were filled with complex emotions. The look she gave Zheng Xiuheng did not change, and was still so complicated.
Looking at Zheng Xiujing who lowered her head, Zheng Xiuheng felt helpless, but since he had already said it, there was nothing to hide.
"I'm sorry, I..."
"so……"
Jessica Jung interrupted Zheng Xiuheng and looked at him with pleading eyes.
"Don't say you're my brother anymore, and don't come looking for me again, okay?"
"Ouni!"
"Bang!"
The soft whisper was like a sharp arrow that pierced Zheng Xiuheng's heart. Compared with the angry insults, such an expression and such words hurt Zheng Xiuheng's heart severely.
“W-why, I, I, I…” Zheng Xiuheng was a little panicked and at a loss for words, but his eyes were full of confusion when he looked at Zheng Xiuyeon.
The corners of Zheng Xiuyan's mouth stretched out to both sides, revealing a slightly sad smile. Zheng Xiuheng suddenly found that this sister was more beautiful than two years ago.
"I never I have always believed that we are a family. You are my brother and I am your sister. Although you have been receiving treatment in the United States, I am very happy every time I see you getting better. I love you very much, brother!"
Click, click!
Crystal clear tears fell, and Zheng Xiujing's eyes turned red. She didn't know why her sister said that, but she was extremely frightened in her heart.
When Zheng Xiuheng heard Zheng Xiuyan's words, countless beautiful memories about his sisters came to his mind. In the memory, the girl in front of him always liked to kiss his cheek and said sweetly that this was a sister's expression of love for her brother.
"It was really painful when my parents passed away. There was a moment when I wanted to put all the blame on my brother, but the moment I saw my brother at the door of our house, I felt only warmth, because Xiujing and I still have my brother, and we still have someone to rely on. Even if my parents are gone, my brother will still take care of us!"
"I had unlimited expectations and trust in my brother, so my complaints about him quickly disappeared!"
Jessica Jung's voice was gentle, and the look in her eyes when she looked at Jung Soo-heng also became gentle.
But Xiu Yan's gentleness and gentle words made Zheng Xiu Heng feel even more painful.
The next moment, Jessica Jung's tone changed, and her eyes became dull. "So, when my brother joined those bad guys who often harassed our family, I felt betrayed and the world collapsed. I felt it was not worth it for my parents. I'm not stupid. I also thought that maybe my brother joined to pay off his debts, but even so, I can't forgive such behavior. I think of everything in the worst way, so I hate you, I hate you very much!"
"I'm sorry!" Zheng Xiuheng replied bitterly with red eyes. At this moment, he was a little confused. Was his behavior really right? For the first time, he realized that he seemed to have only considered everything from his own perspective in the past two years.
Zheng Xiuyan's expression returned to indifference, tears still falling, looking extremely beautiful, looking at Zheng Xiuheng she shook her head and said coldly: "When Xiujing told me the truth, do you know how I felt ?"
Zheng Xiuyan's eyes were filled with tears and her look was a little hazy, but it seemed to penetrate Zheng Xiuheng's soul, which made Zheng Xiuheng instinctively dare not look, so he could only lower his head.
“It hurts, it hurts so much!”
Covering her heart, Zheng Xiuyan said in pain.
"In the past two years, it was painful every time I saw my brother, and it was painful every time I said bad things to you. I was worried every time I thought that you might be living in a dangerous gang, but I had to force myself not to worry, force myself to hate you, to hate you. My heart was in a mess, and I kept thinking about so many things about you. The more I thought about it, the more painful it was!"
At this point, Jessica Jung suddenly took a step forward, got close to Jessica Jung, looked at him, raised her voice and asked angrily: "Why didn't you tell me the truth at the beginning? Even Xiujing could do it, but why can't I? Two years later, I suddenly know the truth. How do you want me to face you? Thank you for the sacrifice you made for us, thank you for everything you have done for us?"
"I'm sorry, I can't do it, I can't do it!"
"Now, I don't understand why I have been suffering and living in pain for the past two years. Is it just because you think you are doing it for my own good?"
"What do you think family is?"
Zheng Xiuheng took two steps back helplessly. Facing Zheng Xiuyan's questioning, she was speechless. At this moment, he also asked himself in his heart: "Is it really true?"
But Zheng Xiuyan seemed not to want to let him go. She took a step forward and said again: "Now that I know the so-called truth, when I think about every time I insulted you, when I think about your life in the past two years, when I think about everything in the past, do you know how I feel?"
"I am in pain, really in pain. Your love... brings only pain to me now!"
"So, please forget about me and give up on me as your sister. You can continue to be Xiujing's brother, and Xiujing can still be your sister, but I can't. I don't want to face you again!"
A salty taste, tears streaming down the corners of his mouth, at this moment Zheng Xiuheng seemed to feel Zheng Xiuyan's mood, which was so complicated, painful and entangled.
I once thought that all of this was a way of loving, and that everything was worth it in order to protect my family.
But human beings have emotions, they have joys, sorrows, anger, and happiness, they have their own world, their own maturity, and their own understanding.
With a guilty heart, Zheng Xiuheng always struggled in the darkness. Now that he had cleared away the darkness before his eyes, he could see the reality clearly.
It turns out that what I thought was love was actually pain for others.
"call!"
After sniffing, Jessica Jung reached out to wipe her eyes, and once again tried to curl the corners of her mouth, revealing a heart-warming smile.
"Brother Xiuheng, this is the last time I call you brother. Maybe we will meet again in the future, no matter where we are or what we are doing, but by then I will be Zheng Xiuyan, and you will only be Zheng Shouheng to me!"
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"By the way, I heard from Xiujing that my brother seemed to have given up the piano. I think it's a pity, but I believe that everyone has their reasons for their choices, and I respect my brother's choice. It's just... if possible, my brother can play a song or sing a song for me, as a parting gift!"
"I should go back now. As for Xiujing...you should comfort her!"
After touching her crying sister, Jessica walked past them. Jessica closed her eyes in pain, thinking that she was special and that she was working hard for her sisters.
But in fact, he had never tried to understand them at all. The cold voice reached his ears again, and Zheng Xiuheng trembled all over, and his whole heart seemed to be broken.
"Brother, goodbye!"
