In the dark alley, there are dim lights above my head.
"What do you want to ask me?" Yang Xingxue, wearing a bunny girl costume, pressed herself against the wall. She looked shivering, not sure if it was because of the cold or fear.
The person in front of him was wearing a black baseball cap, revealing the cold lower half of his face. He was holding a mobile phone in his left hand and fiddling with the sharp switchblade with his right hand.
Liang Bo once joked that if Lv Aicao became a gangster, she would definitely be the boss of the gang. At this moment, Lv Aicao perfectly verified Liang Bo's words. Even though she was a thin girl, the deterrent she exuded now was more oppressive to Yang Xingxue than a man the kind of oppressive feeling that would tear you apart even if they both died.
"Don't you know what I'm going to ask?" Lu Aicao walked closer and pinched her chin as if to crush it. In his other hand, he held a switchblade and slowly slid it to her throat.
"Lv Aicao...if you have something to say, say it now! Stop scaring me here!"
"Scare you? Haha!" Lu Aicao acted as if she had heard a funny joke. "I never scare anyone, not before and not now."
Yang Xingxue was stunned because she saw Lu Aicao's cold and desperate eyes hidden under his baseball cap.
"Xuyuan is dead, are you satisfied?" Lu Aicao grabbed her neck fiercely, gritting her teeth, and scared Yang Xingxue so much that she screamed "Wow".
"You went to Make a Wish School a few days ago and pretended to be my friend to send her something. You took the opportunity to get my home address. Do you think I don't know? You hired someone to hurt my family. Do you think I can't deal with you because the police haven't found evidence yet?"
She shouted this at the top of her lungs, then let go of her hand and gave Yang Xingxue a loud slap in the face.
It was late at night, so no matter how loud the slap was or how sharp the scream was, no one would come to help. Moreover, Liang Bo's group of brothers had already surrounded the alley entrance in twos and threes on their motorcycles.
When Yang Xingxue saw this, she was so frightened that she fell to the ground.
"Xu Yuan is dead? Impossible! Xu Yuan will not die. Mom said she just wanted to teach her a lesson!" Yang Xingxue loudly refuted Lu Aicao, but saw the flames of hatred in Lu Aicao's eyes.
Lu Aicao took off her cap, revealing her cold and sinister face. Yang Xingxue felt that she was so strange, so strange that it seemed as if she had never known her before.
"Your mother? Hahaha, do you think I will forgive you if you put the blame on your mother?" Lu Aicao kicked Yang Xingxue hard.
Yang Xingxue hit the wall and fell to the ground.
"I was just trying to trick her into talking, I didn't do these things. Mom just said she would find someone to teach her a lesson, and I don't know anything else!" Yang Xingxue said crying.
However, Lu Aicao grabbed her collar and slapped her again.
"You know, when I found her, she was stripped naked, lying in the snow, with wounds all over her body, blue, purple, and red, and blood on the ground."
"She is only eighteen years old, eighteen years old! Why are you so vicious!" Lu Aicao grabbed her hair, got close to her, and asked her fiercely, "Does it hurt? Do you want to cry? But I wish that what she experienced is ten thousand times, a hundred million times more terrifying and desperate than what you have experienced!"
"I don't know! I really don't know! Wuuuu!" Yang Xingxue was fully aware of the seriousness of the problem. She was so scared that she wanted to kneel down and beg for mercy. The pressure of making a living had already bent her back.
"Now I want to know, who told you about Xu Yuan and Liang Bo?" Lv Aicao let go of her, but her breath became colder. A voice in her heart told her that it couldn't be Le You. Le You loved Xu Yuan as much as she did, and she would not do anything to hurt her.
"No one else told me, I saw it..." Maybe Yang Xingxue didn't have the energy to lie, or maybe she didn't want to cause innocent harm anymore, so she told the whole truth.
“Before the cocktail party started, Le You and Xu Yuan sneaked in and I saw them, but they had no idea that I had been following them out of curiosity and had heard their conversation.
"Le You brought her a lot of cakes that she couldn't normally eat, sent her away, and told her not to let you know.
"I was very curious when I heard it, because when Xu Yuan mentioned you, it felt like you were more familiar to us than anyone else, so I remembered her.
"After the incident, my family was broke and the court took away our villa. I had to work everywhere to make money. My mother became insane and said she wanted revenge. In order to appease her, I told her about Xu Yuan. She told me that I just wanted to scare her and teach her a lesson. I was also furious at the time, so I agreed. But I really didn't know that group of people would do such a thing, let alone that Xu Yuan would die!
"Artemisia! Artemisia, please let me go! I really didn't know this would happen!"
So that’s how it is…
Lu Aicao was stunned. It turned out that even if she had planned everything, she couldn't stop her fate.
Ai Cao's hand holding the knife was trembling. She had been hiding Xu Yuan's existence because she didn't want her to fall into all this filth, but she became a victim of all this!
"Aicao, how are you going to deal with her?" The leader of the group came over and asked. He was a well-known gangster among them and had the best relationship with Liang Bo. After learning about this, he wanted to find someone to deal with Yang Xingxue immediately.
Lv Aicao frowned as she looked at Yang Xingxue, who was curled up in a ball. To be honest, she didn't know what to do now. Reason told her that she should take Yang Xingxue to the police station, but the anger in her heart kept trying to control her brain. She wanted to return all the injuries and pain that Xu Yuan had suffered to Yang Xingxue, so that she could experience what it meant to live a life worse than death.
However, doing so would mean that he would be reduced to ashes along with them.
does it worth?
I don’t know, Lu Aicao doesn’t know.
But mom died, and Xuyuan also died.
Then, what about Le Chengyu?
He shouldn't be involved, and he couldn't bear to see himself in this state of being neither human nor ghost.
"Aicao, say something!" The boy touched her.
The cell phone, which was already turned on, started to ring. Lu Aicao picked up the phone subconsciously and heard Le Chengyu's voice.
"Artemisia, you finally answered the phone... Thank God!"
For a moment, she wanted to hang up the phone, but she couldn't bear it in the end. After all, that was Le Chengyu, the boy she loved the most. Even at this moment, she didn't dare to face him.
"Aicao, listen to me. I don't know where you are or what you are doing now, but I know that with your temper, you must be doing something dangerous. I beg you, I beg you to calm down. I am solving this matter now. I found Shen Ping in the hospital. She came here to harm Liang Bo, but we discovered her. She must be the murderer. She drove away. Le You and I are on our way to chase her. Find a place to wait for us and I will give you a satisfactory result..."
The voice stopped abruptly, and Lu Aicao heard a loud crash from the other end of the line. Then, Le You let out a loud scream, and there was the sound of a phone falling to the ground, and the call was hung up.
Lu Aicao held the phone stupidly, stunned.
what happened?
If the first time, when facing her mother's death, Lv Aicao was unexpectedly sad; the second time, when facing Xu Yuan's death, she was a mixture of despair and guilt; then the third time, when Lv Aicao sat on the back seat of the motorcycle, the cold wind blew into her clothes, she felt that everything was a dream. And now, she just wanted to fall asleep quietly and never wake up again.
Or wake up and nothing has changed.
She is still a good student who is working hard to prepare for the entrance exam to Guangning University. Her mother always secretly does handicrafts to make money. Liang Bo, the gangster next door, got hurt in another fight, and her sister made a wish and got the first place in the exam again.
She didn't know Le Chengyu, nor did she know Le You. She was not friends with Yang Xingxue, and she didn't have a father named Yang Jianye. She was just Lv Aicao, a simple 17-year-old girl who didn't have any extra expressions every day, had a simple mind, and just wanted to live a good life.
But, as I said before, if only if, there is no way back in time in this world.
She went to Huaying University, and her mother passed away before she could get treatment. Liang Bo from the next door was stabbed unconscious, and her sister made a wish and went to another world with great shame.
She fell in love with the rich boy named Le Chengyu, and got along well with his sister Le You. She beat Yang Xingxue, but she was not cruel enough to die with her.
She had a father named Yang Jianye, and she sent him to prison with her own hands.
She was no longer the simple Lu Aicao. She was full of wounds, exhausted, and like a heartbroken evil ghost, wandering in the world.
And now, the person she loved most, the only person who could bring her light and warmth, was also on the verge of life and death. The TV in the city building was broadcasting a major traffic accident that had just occurred on Huiyang Road in the south of the city. Two cars collided, and a total of three people in the car were seriously injured, one of whom died on the spot.
Lv Aicao saw one of the cars that was familiar to her but now had become deformed. She had sat in the passenger seat countless times and complained that Le Chengyu had tied her up. Now she just wanted to reach out and tell him, "Go ahead, no matter where you are, as long as you are by my side."
She had no time to be happy about Shen Ping's death in a car accident. She didn't even care why or how she died. She just wanted to run to Le Chengyu as quickly as possible, see him, hold him, and beg him not to leave.
There's nothing to lose but you.
So, don't leave. Because then, I can't find the meaning of going on. Let me, Lu Aicao, be selfish for once and tie you up with myself.
She didn't remember how long it took her to get to the hospital. She ran as fast as she got off the car. No matter what, she wanted to see him. She had to see him. In this way, he would not want to leave.
Perhaps fate had pitied Lu Aicao too much. As soon as she ran into the hospital, she saw Le Chengyu lying on a stretcher and being pushed into the operating room. He was lying there unconscious, covered in blood, like a sleeping prince. Behind him was Le You, who was crying on a stretcher. She was just crying, but she was not injured.
Without thinking, Lv Aicao rushed to see Le Chengyu, but was stopped by medical staff. During the period, the doctor said that type A blood was needed, but the blood bank was out of blood. Lv Aicao didn't care how bad her condition was at the moment, and told the doctor that she could do it.
Not to mention blood, she could even give him her heart, liver, spleen, lungs, and kidneys.
Without having time to look at the person on the stretcher, Lv Aicao was dragged into the ward by the nurse to have her blood drawn. When the thick needle was inserted into her pulse, she didn't feel any pain at all, and she even told the nurse that it didn't matter how much blood was drawn as long as it could save him.
Watching the blood bag getting fuller, Lu Aicao's heart also felt fuller, as if it was Le Chengyu's vitality.
When she drew 400cc, the nurse told her that she couldn't draw any more blood. But Lv Aicao could see from her expression that if she didn't draw blood, there might not be enough blood. Although the nurse said she had already found someone else to donate blood, Lv Aicao was still worried.
She would never allow Le Chengyu's surgery to be interfered with by any factors.
"Please draw more blood, nurse. I beg you!" Lu Aicao held the nurse's hand tightly and refused to let go. "Please draw more blood, so that he will have a better chance of survival!"
"But if you keep on beating me like this, I won't be able to bear it!"
"Just don't die! Nurse, I beg you!" Lu Aicao couldn't hold back any longer, tears burst out like a flood, "I'm willing to die for him, I beg you, I beg you."
"Okay... I'll get you some sugar water then."
The needle was inserted into her slender arm again. Lu Aicao didn't have time to wipe the tears from her face. She smiled awkwardly and gratefully at the nurse.
The nurse shook her head with some concern.
At least at this moment, Lu Aicao felt calm.
There was no more hatred in her heart, she just wanted Le Chengyu to wake up.
People are like this, they always know to pull back from the brink only when things have reached the worst possible time, and then they hold on to the last glimmer of hope, just like praying for the last straw.
However, she didn't know that fate would not let those who were not satisfied off easily. It would always punish them severely, letting them know how unforgivable their past hatred and desires were. For example, it would destroy the last glimmer of hope of Lv Aicao.
When the blood was half drawn, Lu Aicao saw the surgeon coming out of the emergency room and shaking his head at the other doctors.
At this moment, Lu Aicao felt that her brain was lacking oxygen. She wanted to sit up, but she stopped because she was afraid that it would affect the blood draw. She could only tell herself that Le Chengyu was not that fragile and that he would be fine. As long as her blood flowed into his body, everything would not be over. She comforted herself like this, but she felt nauseous and wanted to vomit, but she couldn't.
At this time, the nurse who drew her blood came in and wanted to remove the needle.
Lu Aicao couldn't hold it in any longer and asked breathlessly, "That boy..."
"Little girl, please accept my condolences." The nurse said these six words with difficulty.
Lu Aicao looked at her in confusion, but the sadness in the nurse's eyes could not be deceived.
Please grief……
impossible!
How can it be?
Le Chengyu is strong and healthy, how could he just leave like that?
It must be a lie, it must be a lie!
Lu Aicao sat up regardless of anything. The needle pierced her and a lot of blood was on her body, but she didn't care at all. She just cried sadly and screamed out of control.
The nurse tried to steady her, but she pushed her down. Then several doctors rushed in and held her down as she lost control.
Lv Aicao sat helplessly on the cold floor, being held tightly by a group of strangers. She cried like a child abandoned by the whole world. The doctors sighed and looked at her, but no one interrupted her.
Because she cried so hard, so hard that no one knew how to comfort her. No one asked what her relationship with that boy was, but everyone could feel the bond between them.
Lu Aicao didn’t know how long she had been crying until she couldn’t breathe and her brain was deprived of oxygen, and then she gradually calmed down.
However, a deep male voice in her ear gently asked her, "Are you awake?"
She nodded, feeling stupid and foolish, but her heart ached so much that it seemed to be bleeding.
"Now that you're awake, go see him. Don't cry here alone. He wants to see you, too." The surgeon patted her shoulder.
"Okay." Lu Aicao didn't know why she was so obedient to the doctor. Maybe it was because he was old and had authority, maybe it was because he seemed to understand Lu Aicao's pain, or maybe it was because he looked like someone who had experienced it.
She followed him quietly, walked in front of Le Chengyu with steps as heavy as a thousand pounds, and gently lifted the white cloth, as if she was afraid of waking the person below from his dream.
His face was pale, but still so handsome. She gently stroked him, his heroic eyebrows, his high nose bridge, his lips that seemed to be smiling, his thin chin. Lv Aicao held one of his hands, and then put her face on his chest. There was no sound there anymore, no warmth there anymore, but she still couldn't bear to leave.
Large patches of tears soaked the shirt on his chest. Only then did Lu Aicao realize how luxurious the hugs he gave her were and how wonderful the warmth he gave her was.
But she just discovered it now.
She was the one who abandoned him and let him down.
I still remember the expression of surprise and shyness on his face when she smiled and said to him that day, "I've always been yours", and then he picked her up and kissed her hard.
That was the deepest kiss between them. They wished they could melt into each other's bones and blood, and tie their lives together forever.
However, Lu Ai broke his promise.
She chose hopeless revenge and endless darkness. She forgot her promise to him, but lost him forever.
It was he who taught her love and redemption.
But the price she paid for learning all this was losing him.
Le Chengyu, I love you.
But this sentence comes too late, will you be angry?
If there is a next life, let's not meet again. If you hadn't met a girl named Lv Aicao, you would still be a sunny boy from a wealthy family. You would have a bright future and find a gentle, quiet and beautiful girl to spend the rest of your life with. You don't have to encounter darkness, dirty your hands, or wait at the gate of hell, just to save a stubborn person.
Le Chengyu, you must drink the Mengpo soup on the Naihe Bridge. Forget about the Lv Ai grass and all these unbearable things.
Le You was discharged from the hospital a month later.
City Z in February was much warmer than other cities. On the day of discharge, Le You chose to secretly handle the formalities without telling her parents because she wanted to see someone. This person was Lv Aicao, who had not appeared since her brother passed away.
Le You asked someone to look for her for a long time before she got any news about her. Then she knew that the person who secretly changed her flowers every day was Lv Aicao. Every day when Le You fell asleep, she would come to visit secretly.
She feels guilty.
Le You knows this better than anyone else.
At first, Le You also blamed her. She thought that if her brother hadn't fallen in love with Lv Aicao, there might not be any complications. Especially when her parents were sending their children to their graves, she resented Lv Aicao's appearance even more. But later, Yang Xingxue said that it was her negligence that killed Xu Yuan. So, for a long time, she couldn't forgive herself.
Yang Xingxue was not arrested by the police, and Lv Aicao did not report her. Although Le You did not report her, they also cut off contact. As for Le You's parents, they hated Lv Aicao at first, and the low-key father who had been tough all his life could not help but shed tears. But after knowing the cause and effect of everything, he suddenly felt that Lv Aicao could not be blamed for this matter. After all, it was Shen Ping who wanted to die with them and deliberately bumped into them.
In fact, no matter what, choosing to forgive is better than choosing to hate.
After all, the dead are gone, and the living should cherish their lives.
Le You was very proud of herself for figuring out this truth, so she planned to explain it to Lv Aicao. Fortunately, Lv Aicao kept her promise and came to pick her up as promised. However, what surprised Le You was that Lv Aicao was completely different from before.
She cut her hair short to her ears, her face seemed rounder, and she smiled more easily than before.
This made Le You doubt whether she really liked Le Chengyu. How could things turn out like this just one month later?
But she also saw the tattoo on Ai Cao's collarbone and the many deep and shallow scars on her wrists. Those scars were obviously made by her. Because she knew that physical pain could more or less divert psychological pain. And the number tattooed on her collarbone was the day her brother passed away. She chose not to forget him for the rest of her life.
"Today I prepared fragrant lilies. Do you like them?" Lu Aicao handed over the bouquet of beautiful flowers, and then stroked Le You's head like an elder sister.
"Hey, I won't be used to you being so gentle to me." Le You rolled her eyes.
Lv Aicao smiled indifferently. Le You and Le Chengyu were very similar, so for a while, Lv Aicao would always come to secretly see her in the middle of the night. Every time she saw her face that looked like Le Chengyu, she would feel a little better.
"After you are discharged from the hospital, study hard and don't get into trouble again. After all, your health is not as good as before, and I... can't take care of you anymore."
"Don't worry, I haven't been in trouble for a long time. Hey, wait, what do you mean you can't take care of me?" Le You realized something was wrong.
"I... dropped out of school." Lu Aicao smiled faintly.
"You're crazy!"
"No, I just feel that I still can't adapt to my current life." Lu Aicao shrugged pretending to be strong. "You know, every time I open my eyes, I will think of him, and then... it's hard to do anything else. I don't think I should be like this, at least he doesn't want me to be like this, right?"
Le You suddenly felt her nose sore. She could see that Lu Aicao was just holding on, but she was still forcing herself to smile.
"I think I may never forget him in my life." Lv Aicao smiled mischievously, then stood up, walked to the window and opened the curtains. It was sunny outside, and the morning light covered the ground.
"I went to visit... my father in prison a while ago."
"Ah?" Le You was so shocked that she couldn't close her mouth. No matter what, she could not imagine that she would call Yang Jianye father.
"I thought he would hate me and didn't want to see me, but that wasn't the case. He was very happy to see me. He was thinner and older, but he became kinder. And I suddenly felt relieved. I told him that people died and were hurt because of my willfulness, and I felt I deserved to go to hell. But he said that as long as I started over now, it would not be too late. After all, it wasn't me who did something wrong in the first place."
Lu Aicao thought of the man whom she had never called father. Through the thick glass, there was a kind light in his eyes: "Aicao, don't put too much pressure on yourself. I really can't let you go."
"I have decided to leave this city." Lv Aicao breathed a sigh of relief. "I have already contacted a welfare home in another city and will be a teacher there. I think I will stay there for a few years."
"But..." Le You still didn't want her to leave, "You are my only friend here."
"Le You, you are grown up now. You are so good, there will be many people who like you and want to be your friend. And I have something to ask of you. Liang Bo has woken up and is still recovering. Please take good care of him in the future."
"Why don't you tell him yourself?"
"Because I'm scared too." Ai Cao answered easily. She stopped trying to be brave. "Liang Bo would definitely be angry if he knew I was leaving. Just think of it as helping me."
"Okay." Le You sighed, "When are we leaving?"
"Tonight's train."
"What?"
"I have packed my luggage and came to see you."
"This is too fast. I still haven't given you something." Le You said as he took out an envelope from his wallet.
"This is..." Lu Aicao was a little stunned.
"It's a parting gift. Don't worry, it's not money. I won't give you money. You can read this letter with peace of mind after you leave."
Seeing Le You's mysterious look, Lu Aicao had no choice but to obey her, put the envelope into her bag, and continued talking to her.
When the time was almost up, Le You sent Lv Aicao to the train station and complained bitterly about Lv Aicao being too thrifty. In fact, it was mainly because Lv Aicao refused to reveal which city she was going to.
Before leaving, the two of them gave each other a big hug. They talked a lot along the way, so they didn't know what to say when they left.
However, they all know that this is not the end. They will meet again and all the stories will begin again.
After everything was settled, Lu Aicao remembered the envelope Le You gave her and took it out. She opened the envelope and found that it was actually a letter. She recognized the familiar handwriting on it at a glance. It was written by Le Chengyu himself.
Seeing the words is like seeing the person. Lv Aicao's heart subconsciously rose to her throat, and she was indescribably excited. Looking at the date on it, she knew that it was written the day before her birthday, which was the day of the accident. He gave her a kiss when he left the house that day, but she...

My dear little girl:
Hello.
When you read this letter, you will be 19 years old. Here, I want to wish you a happy birthday! Although this is a cliché, I really hope you can be happy every day. I am really happy that I am with you on your first birthday as an adult.
Do you still remember the first time we met? Actually, you don't know that I had feelings for you from the first time I saw you. It's just that you were just a high school student at that time, and I was an adult, so I couldn't do anything out of line. But fortunately, I met you again later. I had a headache for a long time to get close to you, and even called my friends. But I didn't expect that you rejected me so bluntly before I even made a move. I was really embarrassed at the time, thinking that this girl was so weird besides being beautiful. But I also thought that if she was so hard to get close to, then I must have no other rivals, hahahaha.
Fortunately, you finally fell in love with me. I still remember the first time you leaned on me, my heart was beating like a drum, but you were so frightened that you were overwhelmed.
When reading this, Lu Aicao cried and laughed. It was the first time she discovered that Le Chengyu was so cute, and even this confession letter was written so cutely.
But as she laughed, she could no longer hold back her tears.
Okay, now let’s get down to the real sentimentality.
Ai Cao, I have always known that you are a very special girl, with a special life and special experiences. You are destined to have a harder life than others. But I have always known that you are kind. You just want justice, for your mother or for yourself. So, I have always supported you. Moreover, I also want to tell you that no matter who you meet or what happens, I will always stand by your side. If you go to hell, I will accompany you to hell; if you go to heaven, I will accompany you to heaven. But even so, I have only one purpose, which is to hope that you are happy. Even if your happy life does not include me.
I don't want to see you waking up from nightmares again and again. I don't want you to change the channel awkwardly every time you see a family living in harmony on TV. I don't want you to work day and night just to earn your tuition.
You deserve better than that, and you already have me completely.
Please don't carry everything on your own in the future. Please don't forget that you still have me. And don't do anything stupid. Only fools do stupid things.
Wormwood, I love you.
You never let me say it, but I know you want to hear it.
Just like I've never heard you say it, but I know you love me.
So, no matter where you are now, I will spend my whole life waiting for you to come back.
Le Chengyu

Big tears rolled down her cheeks, blurring the words on the letter.
Lu Aicao quickly covered the letter. She was really afraid that she would ruin the only thing that Le Chengyu left for her with her tears.
Turning her head, she saw a wheat field passing by outside the window. Lv Aicao looked at her blurry image on the glass window, and smiled with tears in her eyes.
She suddenly felt that all the pain she had encountered in her life was insignificant because she met such a good person.
Yes, Le Chengyu, I love you.
I will also spend my whole life remembering you and waiting for you.
Although, you will never come back.