Chapter 105: Staying Out of the Matter (6)
"I won't force you to say anything if you don't want to, but remember what I said. If I see you like this again, I can't guarantee that I will do anything. Got it?"
Although Zhou Yan's words and methods of comforting her seemed very overbearing, Zhou Xinxin still nodded with a gratified smile; with this kind of aura coming from Zhou Yan at such a close distance, Zhou Xinxin suddenly felt that she had never known Zhou Yan before. Now Zhou Yan made her feel strange but very friendly. Could it be that this was all because of Yin Yin? It was undeniable. Thinking of Zhou Cheng again, he also changed because of Yin Yin. Could the power of loving someone be enough to change one, two or even more people who could not be changed?
Seeing the two brothers who have absolute power around her, Zhou Xinxin never thought about who they would change for. To this day, Zhou Xinxin still wonders how Yinyin attracted her two brothers to the point of turning against each other. Zhou Xinxin never hated Yinyin because everyone has the right to choose whether to love or not, but she doesn't think there is anything special about Yinyin that can make people with supreme power fight for their lives. It's not that Yinyin doesn't have such qualifications, but it's strange why Yinyin can attract so many people without doing anything. Who does Yinyin love? It wouldn't be surprising if she chose any of her two brothers, but she chose to leave? Is she trying to escape?
Zhou Xinxin unexpectedly discovered that she actually began to feel jealous of Yinyin in Zhou Yan's arms? Yinyin didn't have to do anything to attract so many people, so what about herself? She couldn't get it no matter how much she tried to express it, so Zhou Yan saw her vulnerable side. She resented that God was unfair, letting all the love gather on one person. They were obviously the same, but they were very different in terms of feelings. It was as if Yinyin was born to be loved, but what about herself?
After constantly thinking about the gap between herself and Yin Yin, Zhou Xinxin realized that she might really hate Yin Yin. She didn't dislike her, but she couldn't help hating her because her two most important brothers turned against her and her most beloved person was also moved by her. On the surface, Zhou Xinxin could always hide her resentment towards Yin Yin very well, so well that she didn't even notice it, but once she calmed down, she was shocked to find that she hated her to the point that she couldn't believe it. If Yin Yin was right in front of her at this moment, she might kill her.
She closed her eyes painfully and buried her face deeply in Zhou Yan's arms, not letting her tears flow out, because she could no longer control it, but she still buried the long-standing repression deep in her heart. She really didn't want to hate, but reality forced her to hate. She hated everyone who only showed their gentlest side to Yin Yin, including her two brothers and the one she loved...
"Will my royal brother leave me one day?"
Zhou Xinxin murmured softly in Zhou Yan's arms. Even though she knew that her two brothers doted on her to some extent, and that she might be happy in the eyes of , this made her feel inexplicably desolate. She was over-protected, and had many things that others could not do. She had no more freedom. Anyone could be happy with a life bound by invisible shackles, but only the person involved knew the desolation in it.
"...There are many things that cannot be decided now. You will get married eventually, and then your husband will protect you instead of us. Of course, if he dares to bully you or treat you badly, I will never let him go."
At first glance, these are all very ordinary topics. Zhou Xinxin can understand them, but that doesn’t mean this is what she wants to hear.
"Does that mean you'll leave one day?"
"I'm not leaving, I'll just be there for you whenever you need me."
"May I?"
"I promise."
After receiving Zhou Yan's affirmative tone, Zhou Xinxin buried her head deeper again.
"How about comparing with Sister Yin Yin?"
Zhou Xinxin's voice suddenly became very small and a little suppressed. She knew she shouldn't ask the question, but she couldn't help but say it. When Zhou Xinxin finished saying this in a very low voice, she clearly felt Zhou Yan's body tremble, followed by Zhou Yan's silence. Suddenly Zhou Xinxin laughed at herself, laughing at herself for becoming so narrow-minded, and laughing at herself for coming to test Zhou Yan for such a thing.
At this moment, Zhou Xinxin suddenly felt that Zhou Yan's arms around her tightened a little?
"You and she are different, so don't make it hard on me. I won't compare you to anyone, and I won't compare her to anyone."
If it were any other question or to any other person, Zhou Yan would never explain, let alone to this extent. Even Yin Yin is probably no exception. It's not that he doesn't want to say it, but that he can't say it. Yin Yin is the person Zhou Yan loves, the only person he loves with all his heart, and Zhou Xinxin is his sister, a blood-related sister. The reason why he dotes on her is of course not just because of this relationship. There may be too many reasons. If I have to say something, it is that Zhou Xinxin is the one who deserves Zhou Yan's doting, as a brother and sister.
"Is that why you left me out of this?"
Once the suppressed problems burst out, they could no longer be controlled. She knew that the topic should be ended but it was continued. Zhou Xinxin knew better than anyone how important Yin Yin was to Zhou Yan or Zhou Cheng because she had been watching. When did it all start? She seemed to have long been a bystander, a person who was not involved in Yin Yin's affairs, and a complete outsider.
