Chapter 100: Just Because of You (6)
"Why don't you answer?"
Seeing that Yin Yin didn't say anything, Feng Qinghan asked, which was unusual for him. He didn't know why he wanted to know. Maybe he just wanted to know subconsciously. This question surprised Feng Qinghan himself.
“…I don’t know how to answer that.”
Yin Yin did not avoid the question, nor did she notice Feng Qinghan's slight abnormality. Instead, she gave an answer that she did not know . However, the answer was incomplete. Yin Yin's eyelids drooped slightly and she continued: "I think no matter what the result is, this may be my last time to pursue what I have lost. Of course, what you said must be faced. Although I cannot answer it now, I think there will be an answer in the future. I have tried my best. If it is really not what I have lost, I don't think I need to force it. Although the result may be unexpected, all I can do is not to regret it."
"If he is not the one you are looking for, what will you do? Will you choose your other half again?"
Feng Qinghan asked calmly, his questions were very ordinary.
"…Maybe. Anyway, I am not a complete person now and I don't remember anything. Maybe it won't be difficult to find my other half."
For those who have no memories of the past, starting over is indeed not a difficult thing. If it were not unforgettable, they would not be so obsessed now; at the same time, as Yin Yin said, if there was no obsession, it would be easier to start over.
After hearing Yinyin's words, Feng Qinghan seemed very satisfied? Or was he happy? Feng Qinghan's thoughts hidden under his gentleness were really hard to guess. He certainly would not ignore the changes in Yinyin's expression, even a slight...
"If you leave, will you be able to let go?"
"It doesn't matter whether I can let go or not. Maybe, at least if I really want to leave, even if I can't forget it right away, I will forget it sooner or later."
"Then I wonder if I will still have this opportunity by then?"
"If I'm still alive."
Feng Qinghan's playful words were instantly drowned out by Yin Yin's calm voice, replaced by an unprecedented coldness. After a moment, the usual smile slowly returned to his face...
"What kind of life would you like after you leave? Peace? A life without conflict?"
"It's simple , right? But how easy is it to say? And as a woman, an ordinary person, I can't force it, so I won't force it."
"It seems that you like a quiet life?"
"There's nothing wrong with being quiet. At least I can stay away from the world and live in peace. When all this is over, maybe it's just like what you said. That's not what I'm looking for. I hope to go to a quiet and remote place and spend the rest of my life with my mother."
“It’s hard to find places like this these days.”
"Well, we'll see when the time comes. If it really doesn't work out, there's nothing I can do. I just want to spend one more day with my mother. Although 'Bi Shui Yi Fang' is indeed a paradise, it may not be suitable for me, although I like it there very much."
Yin Yin's words did not make Feng Qinghan feel unhappy. Instead, he felt nothing and continued to gaze at Yin Yin with gentle eyes.
"Speaking of this, I think I have never met the Prime Minister's wife. I wonder if I have the honor to do so?"
"Well, I think mother will be very happy."
Shan Yufeng would be happy if she knew that Yin Yin had made good friends outside. Yin Yin had a few friends, more or less, so one more was better. What's more, Yin Yin had no aversion to Feng Qinghan and had already regarded him as a close friend.
“Then I look forward to that day.”
His expression remained the same as always, without any sign of excitement. To Feng Qinghan, Yin Yin in front of him was everything. Nothing could compare to her, and nothing could shake him compared to Yin Yin.
The two of them fell silent, one stood looking into the distance, the other looked at the person in front of him with tenderness.
It took a long time.
"By the way—"
Yin Yin suddenly spoke and turned to face Feng Qinghan.
"You once said you were a killer?"
"Hmm? Why, do you want me to help you kill someone?"
Even though Yinyin's topic was too sudden, Feng Qinghan still responded as if nothing had happened, and even teased her. Yinyin shook her head: "No, it's just——"
Halfway through the conversation, Yin Yin turned her head away, as if she didn't dare to look directly at Feng Qinghan.
"I haven't killed anyone since I promised you."
Seeing through Yin Yin's thoughts, Feng Qinghan replied in a calm tone, because he didn't need to do it himself to kill someone. After hearing his answer, Yin Yin immediately turned around and looked at him, seeming a little unconvinced. She wanted to say something, but couldn't utter anything. She just looked at Feng Qinghan.
"I say, you doubt me so much, it really makes me sad. I still keep every promise I made to you."
"I…I'm sorry—"
Although she couldn't hear any unhappiness in Feng Qinghan's tone , Yinyin was still speechless. If she thought about it for a while, wouldn't she have the answer? He said that drinking was harmful to the body, and Feng Qinghan hadn't drunk a drop of alcohol since then, at least he had never seen it again when he was with her; he said that he didn't want Feng Qinghan's feelings to make her feel depressed, so Feng Qinghan wouldn't embarrass herself from then on; Feng Qinghan complied with such unilateral requests, so there was no need to doubt it, but...
"I'm sorry, I just felt..."
Yin Yin spoke in discontinuous sentences, and she didn't know why it was like this. She felt a little guilty towards Feng Qinghan. Since she hadn't finished speaking, Feng Qinghan didn't interrupt her and continued to wait for Yin Yin to finish.
"I just think that I... like you better now."
Yinyin's voice became lower and lower. After she finally finished speaking, her voice was so low that it seemed that only she could hear it. However, Feng Qinghan still heard it, so he was also stunned. This moment of stunned was only fleeting. Then, he approached Yinyin and left four words in Yinyin's ear...
"Just because of you."
Feng Qinghan's voice was very soft, so soft that it went straight into Yin Yin's heart, leaving her stunned on the spot.
