Chapter 10 Your last beautiful lie 1
Have you ever seen a scene where the sky is falling and the earth is collapsing? I always thought it was an exaggerated scene in boring TV dramas, but now I know that sometimes a person really feels like the sky is falling.
I feel like the sky is falling now.
When I walked out of the archery competition, there were so many people along the way, but I didn't feel anything. I just felt that so many people were so far away from me. They all seemed to be in another world, and my world was empty, with only me here.
I walked home in despair, feeling as if the whole sky was collapsing.
So many words, with such beautiful eyes, speaking to me with rose-petal-like lips, so many vows from the bottom of his heart, and that heartbeat that would not lie, were they all just part of a lie? When I thought that they were all just lies, everything he had given me was a lie, my heart felt like someone had stabbed a huge hole in it, and the cold wind and the bone-piercing pain went through it, making it difficult for me to resist and bear it.
"Deep Cloud."
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"Shenyun!" Lin Yushan called me for the second time, and I remembered that he had always been by my side. It was really strange, how could I be like this, so slow that I didn't even notice that there was one more person or one less person around me?
"Shenyun, are you okay?" Lin Yushan looked at me carefully and asked softly in my ear.
He was too close, and I instinctively moved away from him. A hurt expression immediately appeared on his face. I didn't understand why, or maybe I just didn't want to figure it out now.
"Shenyun, maybe now is not the right time." Lin Yushan followed me and whispered to me, his eyes carefully looking at me.
In fact, I probably already knew what he was going to say, but it was strange, my chest felt cold, as if it had been frozen. There were no ripples, no jumps, nothing. It was just that cold, as if my heart was dead.
"Shenyun, I like you. I..." Lin Yushan glanced at me and said nothing more. I think the answer is already written on my face. My expression is like my mood, frozen by a lot of ice. I will never be happy again, I will never smile, and I will never be moved by anyone.
I obviously don't like him, and I obviously knew from the beginning that it was impossible for him and I to be together. Why did I feel so sad and painful when he resolutely left me?
All the words he said to me, every unreserved smile, are piled up in my mind, and I can't get rid of them. I still remember how he insisted on practicing archery alone in the archery hall. He was so persistent that he even insisted on quarreling with the Night Light God. In the end, he succeeded, paying such a high price, was it just for a game?
I don't believe it, I don't believe it! But all of this is true, it is the bloody fact!
"Deep Cloud."
Suddenly, I felt a warm sensation on my fingers. It was Lin Yushan trying to hold my hand. I shook his hand away as if I had been electrocuted.
"I'm sorry." For a moment, his expression was hurt.
"I should be the one to say sorry. Yushan, I'm sorry that you offended the YS trio because of me." I said silently. I was tired enough and didn't want to hurt anyone else.
"Actually..." Lin Yushan choked up and said , "Actually it's me. I'm not as good as I look. I've actually been fed up with them for a long time. If it weren't for you, I wouldn't be able to help but stand up and do something."
"Why do you dislike them?" I raised my head and looked at Lin Yushan's angry face.
"Because they all have good family backgrounds, and also..." Lin Yushan said hesitantly.
I shook my head vigorously and said to him, "In fact, they are really excellent. Just like what the Night Light God said, they are really excellent. They look so dazzling, not only because of their family background, but also because they work very hard, trying very hard to do better than others. And they all love each other and are willing to give everything they have to others without reservation, so they look so powerful."
"Shenyun, do you really think so?" Lin Yushan looked at me with eyes full of pity.
"I really think so." I nodded, thinking of those scenes: the Night Light God could become a feared demon king for Imeisan, and Mori Shiyue would actually speak to me gently for Imeisan and protect me carefully.
Yes, the person who can convince anyone is Yimeisan.
"Then how do you explain the fact that Yimeisan cheated on you?" Lin Yushan's words ended my beautiful association. Yes...
So, how do I explain that Imeisan deceived me?
I looked at Lin Yushan in silence. Yi Meisan, the girl that everyone could trust and look up to, had deceived me. This could only mean that I was a worse girl than anyone else.
I am not a superior student at all, I am just a selfish girl.
"I don't know, please don't ask me... I..." I wanted to speak, I wanted to say a lot of words to hide my heartache, but as soon as I opened my mouth, I started crying.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, Shenyun, I'm sorry..." Lin Yushan's apology kept coming from my ears, but I couldn't hear anything anymore.
"I really like Yimeisan, I really like him... What should I do? I like him so much..."
Although I offended the YS trio, I was not like the tragic heroine in “Let’s Watch the Meteor Shower Together” who was given a little red strip saying “Please bully me” by those hateful boys.
My life seemed to have calmed down for the first time. Every day passed naturally and peacefully. There were no text messages from Yimeisan, no calls from him, and no news from him.
In fact, the strange thing is that after the archery competition, Yi Meisan seemed to have disappeared from the school. Maybe it was supposed to be like this. YS College is so big, and our classrooms are actually far apart. If he hadn't insisted on coming to see me and pick me up every day, I would have hardly seen him, the big star of our school.
Now I can't see him, and he doesn't want to see me, which is actually normal. I thought to myself in a very Ah Q way, and kept thinking this way, but the uncontrollable heartache still eroded me like waves, making me feel uncomfortable and unable to extricate myself.
"Have you watched the news?" Before the bell rang, the girls in the classroom began to chat eagerly. I instinctively felt that the content of their conversation was related to the YS trio, because those three people were so special that you couldn't help but pay attention to them.
I didn't want to listen, but almost all the girls around me were discussing it, so I could only let those sad topics enter my ears.
"You may not know yet, but Senior Imi San has decided to transfer to another school..."
"What? No! If Senior Imeisan leaves, I'll die!" a slightly fat girl yelled. I immediately thought this was too exaggerated, but the stronger feeling was pain. Is Imeisan leaving? Is he finally leaving?
"No, Senior Imisan..." More girls wailed. In fact, the wailing in my heart was louder than any of them, but I couldn't shout it out.
"Shenyun!" Suddenly Lin Yushan rushed over from somewhere, grabbed my hand and ran out.
"What are you doing?" I yelled nervously. But he was so strong that I had no choice but to let him pull me outside.
"Where are you taking me?" I kept shouting behind Lin Yushan, but he just grabbed me and ran out without looking back.
I was dragged by him for a long time and came to the experimental classroom on the first floor. The news was broadcast on TV in that classroom, and the classroom was crowded with students watching. In fact, there was a TV in every classroom, but only the TV in this classroom could receive foreign TV stations.
The TV set is now broadcasting local British TV programs.
I listened to the host on TV saying: "After half a year of global auditions, the first batch of students for the Prince Course of the 'Perfect Student Development Program' created by the world's top professors at ×× University has finally been selected. They are..."
As the host called out the names of the lucky winners one by one, the faces of boys from all over the world were magnified on the screen.
The last one...is from Asia, China.
Imeisan.
"They will arrive in the UK in two days and take part in a garden tour to familiarize themselves with the UK before the course actually begins." The host on TV was still chattering.
And only one sad fact flashed through my mind.
He is really going to England, and he will leave tomorrow, not far away.
Imethicone was about to disappear from my life forever. Suddenly, those heartbeats that seemed to have been forgotten were like a flood that broke through the frozen valley, flooding every cell in my body, making my whole body tremble with pain.
"If you want to cry, just cry."
Suddenly someone said this beside me.
These words were like a key that opened the door that I had closed with all my strength, and tears instantly flooded my mind.
I……
I don't want Yimei to leave, I don't want him to leave. Even if all this is a joke, every word he said to me, the way he sweated and persevered in the archery range, every moment and every second are deeply imprinted in my heart. If he leaves here, then a part of me will be taken away, and from now on we will be separated by the English Channel.
That would be worse than death, and suddenly I realized that it must be worse than death!
"I don't want him to leave... I don't want... Mei to disperse..." I said to the TV, my eyes blurred by tears and my throat blocked.
"Then go find him and don't let him go!" Lin Yushan suddenly yelled at me beside me. I stared at him in amazement, my mind went blank.
Lin Yushan also looked at me. He seemed to be in pain and seemed reluctant to talk to me. But in the end, he glared at me, bit his lower lip and said to me, "Shenyun, do you really believe what that guy said? Do you believe that he did so much just to make you surrender to him and say 'I like you' to him?"
