Chapter 10 Trajectory 2
I left the box to go to the bathroom, but when I came back, I never expected to run into Lei Zi. Unlike before, he seemed to have really changed for the better. When he saw me, he smiled awkwardly and said, "What a coincidence, we meet again."
I nodded and didn't want to answer him, but as soon as I took a step forward, I heard Lei Zi calling me. He asked, "Have you broken up with Chen Qiaoluo?"
When I first heard Chen Qiaoluo's name, I was stunned.
Seeing me like this, Lei Zi continued, "Don't mind what I said, but when I met him again this time, I found that he had changed a lot. After I met you on the roadside last time, he went to drink a lot of wine with me, and he kept calling your name when he was drunk. I don't know what happened between the two of you, but I can see that Chen Qiaoluo really likes you. If you have any misunderstandings, I would like to ask you to give him another chance."
In the past, I would never have believed that Lei Zi said these words, but now, looking at him like this, I suddenly felt a strange emotion in my heart. I think maybe we have all changed, not only Lei Zi and Chen Qiaoluo, but all of us.
We were the only two standing in silence in the narrow corridor. I don't know how long it took before Gigi Lai stumbled out. When she saw me, she hugged me and cried, "Yun, please don't go to America, okay? Just stay here with us, okay?"
What Gigi Lai said when she was drunk made me feel sad.
Tong Xiaotian came over and helped Li Zi over, and said to me a little embarrassedly: "She is drunk, don't pay too much attention to her nonsense."
I nodded and saw Lei Zi looking at us in shock. The person I wanted to hide the fact of going to the United States the most was Chen Qiaoluo. Thinking of this, I said to him, "Brother Lei Zi, I hope you can keep my going to the United States a secret from Chen Qiaoluo."
Seeing me say this, Lei Zi asked in confusion: "Why can't you tell him?"
Because I don't want to make him sad. I replied silently in my heart.
I was silent for a while before I said to him, "I want Chen Qiaoluo to forget me. I am not the right person in his life."
Lei Zi did not agree to my request, but just said "sorry" and turned away.
I received a call from Chen Qiaoluo at nine o'clock that evening. I was sitting in Xu Xuan's car and he said he was waiting for me at the door of my house.
When we returned, Chen Qiaoluo was standing there, his figure made taller by the moonlight. He seemed to have heard our footsteps and turned around. When he saw Xu Xuan and me, his body trembled slightly, but soon regained his composure.
It was unknown how long it had been before Chen Qiaoluo spoke first: "I heard, I heard that you are going to the United States?"
The sadness in his words made my heart tremble slightly. I nodded gently and said, "Yeah."
"Why did you suddenly make this decision?"
Chen Qiaoluo said it easily, but the bitter smile at the corner of his mouth still betrayed his true emotions.
Looking at him like this, I felt like my heart was about to die from the pain.
As if sensing my sadness, Xu Xuan spoke for me: "Yunhao's mother is in the United States, and we want her to live there for a long time this time. And I will go with her this time, and we have decided to get married there in the future."
I know that Xu Xuan's words were just to help me deceive Chen Qiaoluo. He knew that Chen Qiaoluo was my weak spot and the person I was most unwilling to face.
After hearing this, Chen Qiaoluo took a few steps back in disbelief. There seemed to be a large ocean of sadness in his eyes. After an unknown amount of time, he smiled bitterly and said, "Really? Congratulations."
Xu Xuan looked at him, pursed his lips and said, "Thank you."
As soon as he finished speaking, Chen Qiaoluo swung a punch at him. The punch was so fast that Xu Xuan had no time to react, and his face was slightly deflected.
I reacted quickly, supported Xu Xuan, and asked nervously, "Xu Xuan, how are you?"
"I'm fine." Xu Xuan patted the back of my hand comfortingly.
I stood in front of Xu Xuan, looked at Chen Qiaoluo who was already filled with jealousy with a sad face, and shouted: "Chen Qiaoluo, what are you doing?"
"Hello Zhu Yun, please get out of the way." He looked at me and said coldly.
"No."
As soon as I finished speaking, Xu Xuan pulled me behind him. He looked at Chen Qiaoluo and said, "Aluo, I know you hate me, but what can I do? Love can never be forced. I hope you can wish me and Yun well."
"Bless you? Haha." Chen Qiaoluo laughed as if he heard a funny joke. He stopped after a while and looked at Xu Xuan desperately said, "Do you know how many years I have liked her? All these years, I have always thought about being with her in the future, but what about you, Xu Xuan? You used to be my most admired brother, but what did you do this time? You snatched away the person I love the most, and you still want me to bless you?"
Chen Qiaoluo yelled like a madman, and every word he said hit my heart like a thousand pounds. I felt my stomach ache again. I grabbed Xu Xuan's hand and was about to say something when my eyes went dark and I lost consciousness. At that moment, I seemed to hear someone calling me.
In such a faraway place.
When I woke up again, I still saw the snow-white ceiling of the hospital. I looked around and there was no one in the ward. I felt dry mouth and struggled to sit up and wanted to take the cup on the cabinet, but accidentally dropped other things.
The crisp sound of something falling made Chen Qiaoluo and Xu Xuan rush in almost immediately. When they saw me sitting, they both ran over nervously and asked, "Hello, Yun, is there anything wrong?"
I shook my head.
Xu Xuan took a step back, glanced at Chen Qiaoluo and said, "You two should talk first."
Seeing Xu Xuan's attitude, I understood that Chen Qiaoluo knew about my illness.
After Xu Xuan left, the room fell silent again.
After an unknown amount of time, Chen Qiaoluo slowly spoke, "Xu Xuan just told me that you were sick and couldn't go to the train station to see me off that day."
I remained silent.
Chen Qiaoluo smiled bitterly again, stretched out his hand, put my left hand in his palm, and said, "I am really stupid. I almost knew your attitude in those days, but my inferiority complex made me doubt your feelings. I didn't expect to miss such a long time with you."
He said: "Yunhao, it's all my fault. I can't even imagine how you have been able to hold on for such a long time. In fact, there are some things I have never told you until now. I am humble in front of you. Maybe this is the feeling of liking someone. No matter what you do, you will be cautious. Before I expressed my feelings to you, I was afraid that we would not even be friends after I confessed to you; but after I really confessed to you, I regretted why I confessed to you. Just being friends like this, maybe I could stay with you for the rest of my life. During this time away from you, I thought a lot. When I wake up in the middle of the night, I always think of the way you smiled at me. It was so beautiful.
"During this time, I always wondered if I wasn't good enough, so you didn't like me, so I tried hard to make myself better. I told myself that when I appeared in front of you again, I must be someone worthy of you. But I didn't expect fate to play such a joke. When Xu Xuan told me that you had such a serious illness and told me that you left me because you loved me, I felt so stupid. I spent so much time changing myself, but forgot to stay by your side."
His tears kept dripping onto the back of my hand, and my heart was filled with indescribable pain. I sniffed and tried not to cry, but in the end I couldn't help but hug him and burst into tears.
Chen Qiaoluo sobbed and kept saying sorry to me.
The two of us were like drowning people grabbing a piece of driftwood, and neither of us was willing to let go.
I didn't go to the United States in the end. With my father's sad eyes, I called my mother to tell her my decision, stayed in the hospital for a few days and then returned home.
Chen Qiaoluo and I also made our feelings clear during this time. Neither of us mentioned being together, but it didn't seem to matter to us anymore.
It's already July, and the days I have left seem to be counted down to the minute. Dad has been sighing more and more recently, but he still acts very calm in front of me. I know he's sad, but I don't know how to share this with him.
Chen Qiaoluo took me everywhere to play. Every morning when I woke up, I could see him waiting for me downstairs. He planned what we would do every day and took me to complete them one by one, such as making cakes and playing with handmade ceramics. We tried very hard to grasp this last bit of happiness.
I decided to travel around the world in the last six months, and Chen Qiaoluo took a long leave to accompany me.
The day before I left, Xu Xuan, Li Zi, and Tong Xiaotian all came to my house to see me off. They brought me many things. Li Zi cried like a tearful person, she said she couldn't bear to leave me and was afraid that she would never see me again.
In fact, I am no different. These people are the most important people in my life. And for this trip, I have already prepared myself to die in a foreign land. The world is so big, I want to see it, without hesitation. I don't want to spend my limited life calculating how long I can see the sun every day.
After they left, my dad walked into my room with red eyes. He sighed, sat on the edge of the bed, and said, "My daughter, these past few nights I have been dreaming about how you looked like when you were just born. I remember that you only weighed six pounds and were very small. When I saw you at that time, I felt that this was the best gift God gave me. Later, you gradually grew up and called mom and dad. I will never forget that I was so happy that I cried when you called me for the first time. Later, you learned to walk, started school, and kept growing up. I really felt that the burden on me was so heavy. Every time I saw topics about minors in the news, I couldn't help but take a few more glances, fearing that you would go astray. Fortunately, fortunately, you grew up to be a kind girl. It's just that dad really doesn't understand why God wants you to suffer so much. How I wish I was the one who was sick. Why, why did he choose you..."
