Chapter 10: Pet Owner Happiness 3
After seeing Lu Zhan and Xiao Huihui off, I continued to take care of Bai Xiaocong.
I took Bai Xiaocong's hand and wiped his hands with a hot, wet towel.
Maybe I would only do this when he was asleep, wiping his face and hands with a towel.
Liking someone is really a very strange thing. You are obviously good friends who can play together, study together, make fun of each other, and comfort each other.
But once you fall in love with someone, you will become afraid to get close to him, afraid to look into his eyes, and speaking becomes unnatural .
"Hey, how long are you going to sleep? Bai Xiaocong, you know, when I knew you had a terminal illness, I was really scared. But now, I feel much calmer, because I believe that a kind person like you will live a long life. I have always believed that a miracle will happen to you... So, please wake up quickly, let me see a miracle happen..."
I used a towel to wipe Bai Xiaocong's forehead and carefully looked at his delicate features, his slightly pale lips, his straight nose, his eyes covered by thick eyelashes...
"You know what? These past two days, I've been living with great ups and downs in my emotions. First, you rejected my confession, and I cried my heart out. After I finally consoled myself a little, Abaibai told me that you had a terminal illness, and I continued to cry... I've almost run out of tears for you in the past year... Bai Xiaocong, can you open your eyes? Like before, we chat, and you say some strange but profound words... I like listening to you talk, and I also like helping stray animals with you... I feel uneasy without you by my side. Please don't lie down anymore, okay?"
I grabbed Bai Xiaocong's hand and pressed it against my forehead.
"Um……"
A slight moan was heard.
I raised my head, and Bai Xiaocong's eyelids trembled for a moment, then slowly opened.
"Bai Xiaocong, Bai Xiaocong! Are you okay?" I pulled his hand in surprise and wiped the tears from my face.
"I'm sorry, Xiaoduo, I made you worry. Don't cry, I'm fine."
When Bai Xiaocong's clear and dark eyes fully opened, my heart began to beat faster and faster, and I didn't dare to look into his eyes again.
"I'm fine, really fine. Thank you for taking care of me, thank you."
Bai Xiaocong looked at me weakly, and raised her body with effort, trying to get up.
"Hey, don't move, I'll help you. If you want anything, just tell me! Do you want to eat something, or drink some water?"
I looked at Bai Xiaocong's pale face and my heart ached. In fact, Bai Xiaocong still cared about me. She said such comforting words because she didn't want me to worry.
"I, I'm really fine, Xiaoduo, I feel uncomfortable lying down, can you let me sit for a while?"
"Wait a minute. I'll get you a pillow and help you out of bed. Just move slowly."
I quickly walked to the other side of the bed, pressed the button on the bed, then quickly took the back cushion from the sofa and carefully placed it on Bai Xiaocong's back.
"Xiao Duo, you don't have to be like this. I'm really fine now. I can get up now!"
"Don't move!" I looked at Bai Xiaocong trying to get out of bed, and I felt like a huge stone was hanging in my heart. He was so weak now, how could he get out of bed!
"What?" Bai Xiaocong stopped and looked at me with confusion on her face.
I looked up and met Bai Xiaocong's puzzled eyes. The moment my eyes met his, my heartbeat accelerated and a sweet feeling overflowed from every part of my body.
But more of a tension...
I lowered my head, the entanglement in my heart made me exhausted.
Why did Bai Xiaocong reject my confession? Why did he still look at me with such puzzled eyes when he was diagnosed with a terminal illness? What am I now? Xiao Xiaoduo, do you still want to be a little turtle hiding in your shell?
No, I don't want this!
I looked up at Bai Xiaocong, determined to tell him everything I knew and what was in my heart!
"Bai Xiaocong, don't hide it. I already know everything. I know why you rejected my confession, but I still want to tell you that I like you. No matter what you look like, no matter what will happen between us in the future, I just like you. I will always be by your side, and I will always be by your side until the last second of my life!"
After saying this in one breath, I took several deep breaths, followed by a feeling of physical and mental relaxation.
I finally said it out loud. I will never have any regrets again. Even if I am rejected again, I am not afraid! My love for Bai Xiaocong is my own business. I should be responsible for my feelings!
I raised my head and looked at Bai Xiaocong with wide eyes. His eyes were wide open, and he looked extremely surprised: "Really, really?"
"Can't you tell if a person is lying by looking at his micro-expressions? Now, I, Xiao Xiaoduo, am standing in front of you and confessing my love to you. Bai Xiaocong, use your brain that is beyond human imagination to analyze whether I am lying to you!"
Bai Xiaocong looked at me with his mouth wide open. After a while, his pale cheeks gradually turned red and then a little red. He adjusted his sitting position and his eyes were a little evasive.
"But, I, I...I'm sorry..."
Sure enough, another rejection? It turns out that I, Xiao Xiaoduo, am such a bad person!
Bai Xiaocong lowered her head, her body trembling slightly, as if she was hesitant and nervous.
My heart seemed to be dragged into a deep pool and was sinking little by little...
Suddenly, I felt like a superfluous person here. I was standing here like a fool. I was shrouded in a strange feeling. I really wanted to escape from here!
"It's okay, it's okay, you don't have to apologize to me. Actually... I just want to say what's in my heart, otherwise I won't be able to hold it in! Sorry to trouble you! I... I'd better go let the doctor check you out first!"
I pulled the door handle and prepared to go out...
"Xiaoduo!"
I stopped walking, but I didn't dare to look at Bai Xiaocong, I didn't dare to look into his eyes, I was afraid, I was afraid that there was disgust in his eyes towards me...
"I'm sorry, I didn't know I would hurt you."
Time seemed to stand still. My grip on the door handle loosened. I turned my back to Bai Xiaocong and looked at the beige door in front of me.
"I have a very high IQ, but because of this IQ, I am a freak in the eyes of others. I am the top student in my class, the top student in my grade, and even the top student in the whole school, but I have no friends. I am a good student in the eyes of my teachers and a good child in the eyes of my family."
"But I don't have any friends. Whenever I hear my classmates talking about a certain topic and laughing happily, I will ask: 'Hey, what are you talking about?' They will say: 'It's okay, it's okay.' It's like there is an unbridgeable gap between them and me. With the influence of time, this gap is getting wider and wider..."
"So I thought, don't study anymore. They reject me anyway. I'm so smart that I can teach myself, get the degree and certificate I want, and support myself. Just like that, I can stay by myself with the computer. Even if I die suddenly one day, the people I care about won't be sad. Isn't this what I want?"
The first time I heard Bai Xiaocong talk so much, a series of pictures seemed to appear in front of my eyes. Bai Xiaocong, wearing a school uniform, stood in the bustling campus. He looked at the people around him, but no one spoke to him.
nobody……
"Xiaoduo, until you appeared, you never cared about what I looked like. You never disliked me because of my strange dress, nor were you afraid of me because of my intelligence. Xiaoduo, you treated me as your true and trustworthy friend... and I... actually, I like you very much." Bai Xiaocong's voice became a little more relaxed.
"You're lying! If you like me, why would you reject me!" And twice.
Hearing an answer that was different from what I expected was like seeing a ray of sunshine in the darkness, shining on me.
"Because I'm a monster. Because I can easily see through traps, because I know too many things, and because everyone seems to be ashamed in front of me... So, to most people, I'm an alien, a freak..."
Bai Xiaocong's voice became very low.
"Some people like to become smart people who know everything, but I would rather be an ordinary fool, so that I won't be treated differently and alienated like a monster or an alien... I tried to go to school and tried to communicate with ordinary people. I tried many times... but all failed! So, I think... a weirdo like me should be quiet and not bother anyone until I die alone."
Because of Xiaocong's sad tone, I turned around and looked at Bai Xiaocong grabbing the white quilt covering his body with both hands. He lowered his head, with black hair and pale skin. He looked like an abandoned puppy, so pitiful.
"Hey, Bai Xiaocong, can you cheer up? I think you are the smartest person. You are not a monster, you are a very normal person! You are just a little smarter than all of us, but you are definitely not a monster, but a real genius!"
"The synonyms of genius are freak and lunatic! Xiaoduo, aren't you afraid of me like this? If I can see through all your thoughts and secrets at a glance, if I..." Bai Xiaocong paused, raised her head and looked at me, " They say that when you use your brain, Bai Xiaocong, we are scared! Xiaoduo, do you like me like this?"
I smiled as I looked at Bai Xiaocong's pale, unconfident face, slowly walked to his bedside, and took his hand.
"Since you can see through my thoughts and secrets at a glance, then haven't you seen through the biggest secret in my heart?"
I smiled and asked him.
"What?" Bai Xiaocong looked confused.
"I like you! I like you very much. Every time I am with you, I feel very happy. If I quarrel with you, I will feel depressed and angry with myself. You are so smart, why can't you see my feelings for you at a glance?"
In an instant, Bai Xiaocong's eyes seemed to be lit up by something, revealing a soft and bright light.
"I, Xiao Xiaoduo, have always been a very ordinary girl. If I hadn't picked up A Baibai, I wouldn't have met a boy as smart and kind as you, and I wouldn't have known that there would be a genius like you in the world. Just as you have never looked down on my ordinariness, why should I question you? Bai Xiaocong, you are not a freak, you are the most special person, and I will only be proud of you!"
Feeling some movement of the hand in my hand, I lowered my head and looked at that pair of delicate white hands, slowly grasping my hand.
"Thank you, Xiaoduo..." Bai Xiaocong blinked hard, gave me a silly smile and said.
I don’t know how to describe the feeling when Bai Xiaocong held my hand. I felt like crying and screaming. The scene I had dreamed of was happening right before my eyes.
My vision was a little blurry, and there seemed to be something spinning in my eye sockets. I looked up, and in my blurry vision there seemed to be many white onions, and each of them was smiling at me.
"Bai Xiaocong, whether you accept me or not, I will always be with you, so please cooperate with the doctor and don't give up..."
"Xiao Duo, I also... uh, wait, what do you mean by giving up treatment?"
What? I blinked my eyes, and the tears in front of my eyes disappeared. I looked at Bai Xiaocong in confusion, and he looked at me even more innocently and puzzled.
This is how the same thing?
