Chapter 10 I Can’t Accompany You Until Old Age 02
When An Cenxi knocked on An Yannan's door, he was about to go to Shen Chuxue to see the plan she made. This was Shen Chuxue's first time writing a plan, so there would probably be a lot of problems. An Yannan didn't want the students to think that Shen Chuxue only got in because of his face and didn't have real skills, so he wanted to give her some pointers.
But when An Yannan opened the door, he saw An Cenxi standing at the door, and he was stunned.
An Yannan rarely let anyone enter his room, not even Shen Chuxue, so he always went to Shen Chuxue's place, although it was only a few steps. He stepped aside to let An Cenxi in, pulled a chair over and sat down, and asked, "What's wrong?"
"Cousin, did I... do something wrong?" An Cenxi asked after a long time, his hands tangle with the hem of his clothes.
In fact, the day Lin Jianluo ran away , An Cenxi knew that she had done something wrong, and she also knew that she should apologize to Shen Chuxue, but she couldn't bring herself to do so. Shen Chuxue also pretended that it had never happened, so she simply didn't mention it. But every night, she could see Shen Chuxue standing in the room in a daze, and Shen Chuxue like that made An Cenxi feel very uncomfortable.
Shen Chuxue's gaze at that time was as cold as the white moonlight, as if there was a layer of barrier around her that prevented others from getting close, leaving Shen Chuxue living alone in her own little world.
"Xixi, I never say anything to you because I know you will grow up. You did those things before because you were immature, and we can all forgive you. Just like when Shen Chuxue first came to the An family, you always played some tricks, but she never argued with you, not because she was afraid of you, but because she understood that living under someone else's roof always requires learning to be tolerant..."
But after all, a person's patience is limited.
"From Lin Jianluo's perspective, you gave him the truth. But Xixi, do you know that you only saw one side of the matter and did not understand the whole truth? Shen Chuxue did a lot of things. Every time she wanted to be cruel, she stopped because of Lin Jianluo. She did not send the last letter because she did not want to hurt Lin Jianluo. But you laid the so-called truth naked in front of him and even forced him to face it... Don't you like Lin Jianluo? When doing these things, have you considered his feelings?"
An Yannan's voice was so soft that no one else could hear it.
"Cousin, what should I do?"
"Instead of wasting time on meaningless things and being jealous, you might as well work hard. You will always meet the next person you like, and the better you are, the more you deserve a better person. Do you want to live your life casually? Xixi, you are so beautiful, you shouldn't be bound by this. Think about it carefully."
This was the first time that An Yannan praised An Cenxi and praised her for being beautiful.
In fact, flowers like Lin Jianluo and An Cenxi who grew up in a greenhouse and did not experience the dangers of human hearts too early are all very beautiful. An Yannan is also lucky. Even if his parents died, he still has an uncle to take care of him. And Shen Chuxue is a person who really grew up in the mud. With her scarred heart, she went through all the hardships. This may be the reason why An Yannan approached her.
Late at night, Shen Chuxue developed the habit of looking at the stars.
In a city like this, it was not easy to see the stars, and there were only a few of them. Shen Chuxue counted them over and over again, and sometimes she would even try to tell if the position of this star was different from yesterday.
A bit boring...
She always had to find something to do, otherwise the time before falling asleep would be very difficult to endure, and even An Yannan's milk was not effective.
"Hello." An Cenxi stood at the door holding milk, looking very unnatural.
Shen Chuxue raised her eyebrows, walked over and asked, "Why is it you who has to bring me milk? I feel uneasy when I ask you to take turns serving me!" She joked and took the milk from An Cenxi's hand and drank it all.
"Shen Chuxue, I'm sorry."
It seemed as if everything was resolved with the word "I'm sorry".
Although Shen Chuxue had never truly treated An Cenxi as her younger sister, An Cenxi was younger than her after all, and had been used to being arrogant and domineering since childhood, so it was unlikely that she would change all of a sudden.
Shen Chuxue smiled and tapped An Cenxi's nose with the milk cup: "Not bad, not bad, you know how to say sorry! You've grown up!"
An Cenxi suddenly felt shy, snatched the empty cup from Shen Chuxue's hand and ran away, with Shen Chuxue's laughter still ringing behind him.
Shen Chuxue always remembered that day, the day she learned that Lin Jianluo had left...
"Lin Jianluo has applied for a leave of absence."
When An Yannan told Shen Chuxue about this, she was walking towards the planning department with her plan.
He said that Anna had just brought Lin Jianluo to handle the formalities.
After hearing this, Shen Chuxue suddenly had no intention of doing anything else.
Shen Chuxue, with cold hands and feet, sat in the cafeteria holding a cup of milk tea . This cafeteria was the one she and Lin Jianluo liked to come to the most, but at this time, there was no one there, it was so empty that it seemed that a needle dropping on the ground would echo.
Is he gone?
Where are you going?
Suddenly, an idea popped up in her head. Shen Chuxue wanted to go to the Lin family and go back to see the room where Grandpa and Grandma Lin used to live. She didn't know what it looked like now, and her own room...
After asking for leave from the school and the student union, Shen Chuxue took a taxi straight to the Lin family.
I thought I could see Lin Jianluo, but it was Anna who opened the door. When she saw Shen Chuxue, her expression was a little unbelievable, but she still smiled and let Shen Chuxue in.
"What to drink?" Anna asked.
Lin Jingpeng had moved out a long time ago, and Lin Jianluo was not here either, so the whole house was deserted.
I still remember that when Grandpa Lin was alive, the house would be very chaotic whenever Lin Jianluo was there. Lin Jianluo was always noisy, causing Shen Chuxue to shout to hear him clearly. Then, Shen Chuxue got annoyed and told Lin Jianluo that he should learn to speak softly, so that girls would like him.
As a result, when Shen Chuxue met Lin Jianluo again in college, she found that his voice had become much gentler, and she would never forget it after hearing it once.
Come to think of it, it's also her contribution...
Looking at Anna who was serving juice to her, Shen Chuxue opened her mouth but didn't know what to say. She wanted to call her auntie, but the sobs were stuck in her throat and she couldn't speak. Shen Chuxue could only smile awkwardly, but Anna didn't care and suddenly reached out to hold Shen Chuxue's hand. Shen Chuxue shivered and wanted to take it back, but she held back.
Anna is also very pitiful, having been deceived by her husband for so many years. Lin Jingpeng wove a beautiful dream for Anna, making her unknowingly indulge him in committing so many mistakes.
The two of them sat on the sofa, and Anna asked, "Chuxue, it's you, right? It's you who sent the photo, right?"
Shen Chuxue nodded without hesitation: "It's me, I followed Lin... I followed him for a long time. When I was still living here, I found out that he had someone outside."
Anna sighed, but held Shen Chuxue's hand without letting go.
"Chuxue, I am sorry for you and Grandma Shen."
Grandma Shen was so good to them back then!
Grandpa Lin was ill that year, but they were all very busy - young people were either working or studying, and Anna was still working in the company at the time. There was no one at home to take care of Grandpa Lin, so they wanted to hire a nurse, but Grandma Shen said that others couldn't take good care of him, so she would do it. So she was busy all by herself, taking care of Grandpa Lin's diet and daily life, and she was busy until late at night every day before going to bed.
At that time, Lin Jingpeng and she were afraid that after Grandpa Lin died, Grandma Shen would stay at home, so they wanted to kick her out quickly. But later they thought that Grandma Shen had never spent their family's money and had always used her own private money to supplement the family.
Such a good person was actually forced to death by them.
Shen Chuxue's expression was indifferent. This was the ending, and the hatred had faded away. She had also visited her grandmother, so let it be.
Grandma said, forgive others when you can.
never mind.
"I heard that Lin Jianluo is going to drop out of school." Shen Chuxue asked.
Anna nodded and said, "This kid said he wanted to go to Qinghai to teach, and he wouldn't listen no matter how much we persuaded him. Chuxue, do you really not like Luo? At the beginning, I was also coaxed by Lin Jingpeng. He said that Luo would be corrupted if he was with you... I know that you sent me the text message. You actually don't want Luo to work in a bar where all kinds of people mix, right?"
Putting the cup on the coffee table, Shen Chuxue smiled, shook her head and stood up: "It doesn't matter anymore."
Seeing Shen Chuxue walk to the door, Anna hurriedly asked: "Chuxue, are you really with someone else? Is it the child of the An family?"
Shen Chuxue turned her back to Anna for a long time before finally nodding: "It's him. We have lived together in the An family for so many years, and we have been together for a long time, but Lin Jianluo didn't know."
After returning to the An family, Shen Chuxue opened the map, found the location of Qinghai, and rubbed her fingers back and forth on it.
Qinghai is so far away, Lin Jianluo, do you really want to go?
