Chapter 10 Happiness will eventually fill the gap 02
"ah--"
A crisp slap landed on Lin Mobai's face, hurting He Qingkong's heart.
Fortunately, after He Qingkong painfully scratched him with his palm, Lin Mobai, who was screaming and collapsing due to the nightmare, finally opened his eyes.
After waking up, Lin Mobai's heavy breathing was still rapid.
Then, her eyes slowly swept across the bedside, and in addition to He Qingkong, she also saw Zhou Shiqing and Lu Yanqi.
Although everyone pursed their lips and dared not speak, their presence had gradually cleared away the panic and fear in her nightmare. So, after a few seconds, she finally calmed down and her breathing rate gradually returned to normal.
Then, He Qingkong opened his mouth slightly and asked, "Xiaobai, how are you? Did you have a nightmare? Does your face hurt? Are you feeling uncomfortable anywhere else?"
Seeing her calm down, his red eyes gradually became misty and he gently stroked her face with his hand, his tenderness filled with heartache.
The nervousness and concern in his words warmed up the frightened heart a little. Then, Lin Mobai raised his head slightly and met his eyes, with a faint smile on his lips, but it was bitter.
I only heard her say: "Qingkong, I remember now."
Hearing this, everyone was stunned, as if they were somewhat confused about her words and therefore unable to react.
The air froze for two seconds, and then, as if understanding everyone's confusion, Lin Mobai quickly added: "I remember, I remember what happened that year, and I remember the murderer's appearance!"
As she added, she looked at Lu Yanqi, her eyes still full of apology.
Then, before she could tell the memory, He Qingkong embraced her.
At this moment, He Qingkong's heart was filled with pain. He finally understood that the reason she had collapsed and screamed was because she was trapped in that dark memory.
Thinking of her grief-stricken look, he felt a heart-wrenching pain in his chest, and the moment he hugged her, the mist lingering in his eyes had quietly turned into tears and gently slid across his face.
The sudden hug, his neck pressed against hers, the temperature was so hot that it could burn away the remaining fear in the nightmare.
Lin Mobai was longing for such a hug, but at this moment Lu Yanqi was frowning, nervously waiting for her memories.
So, she had no choice but to gently push He Qingkong away, gave him a faint smile, and slowly recounted the accident four years ago: "That day was Monday, and the mock exam papers were handed out. I only got 49 points in physics. I was very unhappy, so Youyou stayed to help me with my studies..."
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After a long time, Lin Mobai's memories came to an end.
As she reminisced, the whole ward was filled with deep sadness. Finally, after a moment of silence, Lin Mobai gritted his teeth and silently shed tears, blaming himself again: "I'm sorry, it's all my fault. If I hadn't watched her die without helping, Youyou would have..."
"What nonsense are you talking about!" She was choking with sobs as she spoke self-blame. Zhou Shiqing felt so distressed that she interrupted her and said, "Fortunately you didn't come out at that time, otherwise you would have suffered the same fate. So, don't blame yourself anymore, Mo Bai, maybe you remembered it wrongly, maybe she wanted you not to come out, not to save her!"
"No, I heard it clearly. Youyou was asking for help. She was asking me to save her!" Lin Mobai shook his head to emphasize, and his sobbing finally turned into crying.
Zhou Shiqing was at a loss, so she reached out and pinched Lu Yanqi who was standing beside her, and gave him a wink when he turned his head towards her.
Then, Lu Yanqi took a deep breath and said, "How could you have saved Youyou by yourself at that time?"
Just now, as she was telling him the story, he had been recalling what he was doing at that time. Then he remembered that he had already made an appointment with another school's basketball team to compete, so he left with the basketball team members after school that afternoon.
When Lin Mobai and Ding Zhiyou got into trouble, he was eating and watching a football game.
When I think of that smile back then, all that remains is irony and guilt.
Although there was a hint of disdain in the words of comfort, they were also full of sadness, apology, and understanding.
Because he finally understood that all along, he regretted not accompanying them after school and not being able to save Ding Zhiyou when the accident happened. Even in the same time and space, when Ding Zhiyou died in pain, he was enjoying life happily. Therefore, he could not face himself like that, and he subconsciously chose to push all the resentment onto Lin Mobai.
He escaped for four years, but Lin Mobai carried the sin for four years.
Looking at the surprised look in her heartbroken eyes, he felt deeply sorry and regretful, but he could never easily say "I'm sorry".
The next second, just as the atmosphere fell into silence again, a nurse knocked on the door and came in.
So, taking advantage of the short break when the nurse was examining Lin Mobai, everyone tacitly calmed down their emotions.
After the nurse left, Zhou Shiqing started joking to lighten the mood. She poked Lu Yanqi and winked at him, saying, "That little nurse seemed to be interested in you. Her eyes never left you. Come on, don't say we are tactless. Do you have any interest in her? My phone is charging in their lounge. How about I give you a chance and get it back for me?"
Hearing this, Lu Yanqi rolled his eyes and said, "She didn't take her eyes off me, so did she use the back of her head to check Mo Bai?"
As soon as he finished speaking, Lin Mobai and He Qingkong both burst out laughing.
The atmosphere suddenly relaxed a lot, but Lin Mobai seemed to suddenly remember something and asked quickly: "By the way, where is Xujun? Why can't I see her? She was with me this morning. Is she okay?"
However, as soon as the caring words were spoken, silence returned to the ward.
"Why do you care about her?" Then, it was Zhou Shiqing who spoke up. She looked indignant and cursed, "If it weren't for her, would you be lying in the hospital? I knew she was not a good person, but I didn't expect her to be so vicious! Mo Bai, I'm telling you, don't have any contact with her in the future, understand? People like this deserve to be friendless and lonely all their lives!"
"Shiqing, don't say that. Xujun has no ill intentions..."
"Lin Mobai, can you please use your brain?" Just when Lin Mobai thought Lu Yanqi was going to defend Shi Xujun, the other party rolled his eyes at her and condemned Shi Xujun, "If you didn't have any ill intentions, you wouldn't have put sleeping pills in the water. If you didn't have any ill intentions, you wouldn't have taken your phone away."
"Yes." Lin Mobai was stunned, but he heard He Qingkong's response, "People like her are not worth your protection at all."
Seeing that even He Qingkong, who was always gentle and peaceful, showed anger on his face, Lin Mobai became even more shocked.
But then, she reacted quickly and said, "Okay, no matter what, I'm fine now. She...just think of it as helping me regain that memory, but the method she used was too radical. We grew up together, and I understand the pain of losing Youyou. She...she just didn't think it through at the moment, so she did this...let's just leave it at that, okay?"
Obviously, she was the one who suffered, but her every anxious word was to protect Shi Xujun.
They all fell silent in the ward, lost in thought.
At this moment, Shi Xujun, who was standing outside the ward, was shocked but deeply moved.
She didn't expect that Lin Mobai would speak for her. After all, even the gentle-tempered He Qingkong and Lu Yanqi, who had always stood on the same side with her, could not accept her for doing something wrong. Instead, they helped Zhou Shiqing to drive her out of the ward.
Thinking of this, Shi Xujun bit her lip, turned around and left silently.
After walking out of the hospital building, Shi Xujun took a deep breath and then slowly exhaled.
It was already late, and only a few wisps of orange-yellow glow remained. In the increasingly dark sky, her heart seemed to have been swallowed by the darkness first.
Then, the head that was raised up lowered, and the three little girls who were swinging on the swing not far away also fell into his eyes.
There are only two people on the swing. Among the three, one can only push the other. It seems lonely, but Shi Xujun feels that the one swinging alone on the swing is the loneliest.
Just like her.
So, memories couldn't help but come flooding back.
Moving forward in time, there was no Lin family in the courtyard at that time, and Lin Mobai was just a name that Ding Zhiyou often mentioned.
In the huge courtyard, He Qingkong, Lu Yanqi, Shi Xujun and Ding Zhiyou, the four children are the best friends. Among them, because of the characteristics of girls, Shi Xujun is closest to Ding Zhiyou, and the two can be said to be inseparable.
However, the year she entered elementary school, the Lin family moved into a courtyard house, and so Lin Mobai changed from a name to the girl standing between her and Ding Zhiyou.
Compared to Shi Xujun, Ding Zhiyou prefers to be with Lin Mobai.
Although she did not exclude him intentionally, the person she was inseparable from became Lin Mobai. She would only confide all her worries to Lin Mobai, and every time, Shi Xujun was accidentally forgotten.
After Lin Mobai's appearance, she became alone.
In the past, her appearance took away Ding Zhiyou, and now, her existence took away He Qingkong and Lu Yanqi.
But every time, when she felt that Lin Mobai had taken away everything from her, Lin Mobai would suddenly come to her side and help her with a smile.
Like in the past, when Ding Zhiyou accidentally left her behind, Lin Mobai would jump up to her, hold her hand, and say with a smile, "Let's go."
Like this time, He Qingkong announced that he was no longer friends with her, but Lin Mobai rushed to defend her and even accused them of being grateful to her.
Frame after frame of memory flashed through his mind, and his emotions became uncontrollable. Shi Xujun couldn't help but raise his head and burst into tears.
She has always felt that no relationship can tolerate a third party, whether it is friendship or love.
She also always thought that in the relationship that she cherished so much, Lin Mobai was the third party who robbed her of everything .
But now she suddenly realized that she was the third party with the least value of existence.
