Ever since I found out that He Xubei also lives in Xingfu Community, I have one more thing to do on my way to and from school every day.
I deliberately set the alarm clock half an hour earlier, got up early and waited at the intersection of the community. I waited for He Xubei to come out and then followed him quietly.
I used to rush out as fast as I could after school, but now I always dawdle and stay until the last one to leave, because in the past it was He Xubei who always left last.
I did this only because I could pretend that He Xubei belonged to me now. Following behind him, I even felt that just looking at his back was a small happiness.
When I told Jingyan this little secret, she couldn't help but burst out laughing: "Yi Ping'an, you are too cowardly. If He Xubei finds out one day, he will think you are a stalker!"
I threw two "sanitary balls" at her at that time: "You are a person who is nourished by happiness and you don't understand the sadness of a secret admirer!"
When I just started my "secret love journey", Jingyan had already had two small relationships. She was beautiful and cheerful. Not only did she have a good family, but she was also good at studying. There were so many boys who liked her that they could line up Changqing Street. However, no one could explain why a top student like her would be willing to be friends with a poor student like me.
Jingyan's boyfriend is called Gu Feng, and he is said to be one of the top three male idols in Y High School. I was very disdainful of this title, and when Jingyan brought Gu Feng to me and said he was her boyfriend, I sneered: "It's too unworthy of the title."
After Jingyan and Gu Feng dated for a while, I became more convinced that they were not suitable.
Visually, Gu Feng has red lips, white teeth, clear eyes, and a pair of peach blossom eyes that are like a small generator. Any girl who sees them will feel like being electrocuted. Intuitively, I think this person is unfaithful and cold-hearted, and is not a good person.
When I expressed my opinion seriously, Jingyan grinned and said, "An An, why don't you take a small stool and sit on the overpass to tell people's fortunes..."
When I said these words, I never thought that one day they would come true.
On the weekend, Jingyan asked me to accompany her shopping. When I arrived at the agreed place, the two people in front of me were drinking a cup of purple rice milk tea with two straws. Their intimacy made me feel sick.
I couldn't help but joke, "You two are showing off your affection here, have you ever considered my feelings?"
Jingyan immediately hit me: "Are you envious? If you are, then go confess to He Xubei! If you like someone, you should say it out loud. What if he happens to like you too? If He Xubei accepts, you can show your affection to him like this!"
I really want to say that she is just talking nonsense. If I confessed to He Xubei, I would not necessarily show my affection here, because the premise is that my confession would not be rejected by the male protagonist.
Every noon, the girls from Y High School would get together, eating and gossiping about their "male idols" and "school hunks". Jingyan and I would sit behind them, watching them go crazy with laughter.
"I say, it's a shame that He Xubei from Class 2 doesn't become a star. He is still a 'fresh meat' after all!"
"Yeah, yeah, he's handsome and has good grades, it's really enviable!"
"Most importantly, he has such a gentle voice!"
"An An, let me ask you, is He Xubei really that good?"
Jingyan said she wanted to lose weight recently so she ate less. She was fiddling with her nail clippers. I was still struggling with a bowl of hot egg drop soup. I replied without even looking up, "Whether it's that good or not is none of your business. You're already taken."
"So what if he has an owner? Can't you just ask?"
I finally raised my head and said with a fake smile : "Well, I can ask, aren't you afraid..."
Jingyan glanced at me, put down her nail clippers, held my soup bowl with one hand, and said through gritted teeth: "If you dare to say that, just try it!"
"Song Jingyan, don't drop your nail clippings into my bowl!" I rushed to grab the soup bowl, and as I pulled and tugged, the beautiful celadon soup bowl flew out of my hand, and after doing about five side rolls, it landed on the edge of the table. Following the water marks on the table, I saw the last bit of soup in the bowl spilled onto a pair of white sneakers.
Fortunately, fortunately, the bowl was not broken.
Oh no, oh no, it seems like someone’s shoes were dirty!
As the troublemaker, the first reaction is either to flee the scene or to apologize. But I chose the third option and lowered my head and pretended I didn't see it. The reason is that I was too embarrassed to see the owner of the shoes.
"Yi Ping'an, you are such a trouble maker!"
The owner of the shoes said something that sounded strange, then walked away with a smile.
When I raised my head, I saw Song Jingyan retract his gaze, which had been following He Xubei, and then looked at me.
She took my hand and said, "Well, An An, what does 'troublemaker' mean?"
I told Song Jingyan about the last time He Xubei helped me and Yangguang. After listening to me, she suddenly realized: "So it's a scene of a hero saving a beauty - although this 'beauty' is not that beautiful, the 'hero' is still a hero!"
"Song Jingyan, are you looking for a fight?" I pretended to hit her, then moved closer to her and whispered, "Yanyan, if I confess to He Xubei, will he accept it?"
For someone like me who has no ideals, no good looks, and not very good grades, the greatest pleasure of going to school now is seeing He Xubei.
On the first day of the new semester of the first year of high school, the school prepared a welcome party, and He Xubei was one of the hosts as a representative of the freshmen. He Xubei spoke Mandarin very well, with a slow speed like a mountain stream in spring. His handsome and gentle appearance and faint smile made many girls in the audience stare at him.
I pulled Song Jingyan's ear and said, I like that He Xubei.
Jingyan looked at me with shining eyes, thinking I was joking. After seeing me nod firmly, she covered her mouth and pretended to be surprised: "Oh my God, the spring of 'female men' is here, Yi Ping'an will also like someone!"
Song Jingyan urged me to confess my feelings. She said that if you like someone, you should act quickly. She said, "Do you understand? Just like when Gu Feng liked me, if you like someone, chase him! Besides, as the saying goes, 'a girl chasing a boy is easy'. He Xubei will be yours soon."
But in the end, I still didn't do what she said. I, who was fearless and dared to fight with boys, didn't even have the courage to let someone know when I liked him.
Jingyan was very disappointed and said, Yi Ping'an, you are so useless.
It was useless for me, so I had to lie on the desk and secretly watch He Xubei every day, imagining that he had become my love hero, and then go home to record every little thing about him and how I felt about him.
But now, Jingyan didn't answer me quickly. She propped her cheek up as if she was thinking about something. When I thought she would remain silent until the bell rang, she spoke slowly: "An'an, I'm not trying to discourage you. I asked you to confess before, but now I clearly realize that there is a sea of ​​distance between you and He Xubei."
I have never seen the sea, so I don't know how far the sea is. Song Jingyan pointed at someone's name on the bulletin board with one hand, poked my forehead with the other hand, and said disdainfully: "It's about the distance between a top student and a poor student..."