Extra: A Glance for a Thousand Years Four
Before I could tell you where our story began, our ending had already ended.
——Hanako Yin
Regarding the things between Hexue and I, I actually don’t remember a lot of things, and even if I remember some of them, I don’t want to mention them again.
I only remember that it was a midsummer night, and my desire to get close to Xihe was rekindled. I was still brooding over the fact that someone had written a love letter to her, so I finally couldn't help but pick up a pen and write a love letter to Xihe, and asked Hexue to pass it on to her the next day.
I was conflicted and in pain. I wanted to risk everything and tell Xihe that I was Mr. Longevity Noodles, but I was afraid that I would lose her forever. I was so conflicted and timid that I didn't have the courage to sign my name at the end of the love letter. I just said, "When the tung flowers bloom, I will wait for you at the foot of Qingzhi Mountain."
I was hoping that if she went, I would tell her; if she didn't go, I would continue to be her longevity noodle chef.
I waited eagerly until dusk, when Hexue finally came back, but the news he brought was Xihe's flat rejection.
She said she would never go.
It was strange that when I heard the news that Hexue relayed, I didn't feel sad, but instead I breathed a sigh of relief.
He Xue looked at me, wanting to say something but stopping herself.
I turned my head to hide my face in the shadow of the street lamp, smiled and said, "It doesn't matter. Anyway, I can still be her longevity noodle man."
But she suddenly said, "Hanako Yin, can you be the leading actor in my life movie?"
It was like a bolt of thunder out of the blue. I felt uneasy, but I didn't know how to refuse her because she was Xihe's only friend.
"You know, I don't have a good reputation in Baisha School." I tried to be tactful and clear, "So, I can't be your leading man."
"I said that at the time because I didn't understand you like most people. Now, I know that you are the most loyal person in the world."
I feel compassionate. If even Hexue can understand my heart, then in time, Xihe, will you understand my heart?
I smiled at her apologetically: "You know, I have someone I like."
But she was very persistent: "But Xihe doesn't like you."
"It doesn't matter, as long as I like her."
I thought I had rejected her thoroughly enough, but I didn't expect He Xue's obsession was even stronger than mine.
In fact, He Xue is a very kind girl. She sees through the loneliness and lack of real friends in the heart of the arrogant Xihe, so she is wholeheartedly and shamelessly trying to be friends with her. She is also cheering because Xihe finally accepts her as a friend.
But even so, she chose to lie about the fact that the person she liked liked her cherished friend, and even used Xu Yun, her friend who grew up with her, as a shield.
Maybe when you like someone, you will be so reckless and unable to control yourself.
Just as Hexue loves me, just as I love Xihe.
Perhaps because we shared the same suffering, I couldn't bear to be cruel to He Xue, which led to a disaster.
Long, long time later, the details of that day are still vivid in my mind.
The typhoon howled as if someone was crying, and the heavy rain poured down, extinguishing the candles that Hexue had lit on the grass downstairs. I stood on the teaching building and saw Hexue surrounded by a group of people, isolated and helpless.
Even though I didn't like Hexue, I couldn't stand Xihe's friend being bullied like this, so I prepared to go downstairs. When I turned around, I stood there in a daze, without the courage to move forward.
Because I saw a small red figure, it was Xihe.
She looked at Hexue across the crowd and the rain curtain. I knew that at this moment she must hate the person who made Hexue so ridiculed. What would happen if she knew that person was me?
That's why I hesitated.
When I came back to my senses, Xihe had disappeared, and only Hexue was standing in the crowd, looking up in my direction. Her eyes were so desperate, so desperate that it made me panic.
So when she pushed through the crowd and rushed into the heavy rain, I ran downstairs and chased after her almost reflexively.
I ran in the heavy rain, feeling very nervous, afraid that something might happen to Hexue, afraid that Xihe would blame me if anything happened to Hexue, and even more afraid that Xihe already knew that the person Hexue liked was me.
I stood at the crossroads, looking around through the white rain, and finally saw He Xue walking along the road by the river in a daze.
Later, every midnight of deep regret, I often made this assumption: If at that time, I had chased after him without hesitation and brought Hexue back safely, then, Xihe, would our ending be different?
Unfortunately, at that time, when I was about to catch up with you, I accidentally saw your small figure in the alley on the other side of the intersection; unfortunately, I was so cowardly and selfish when I liked you at that time. I was afraid that you would see me chasing Hexue, and I was afraid that you would know all this.
I naively thought that when you walked away and couldn't see me anymore, I would chase Hexue again, and it wouldn't matter. However, it was that moment of hesitation, that little bit of cowardice and selfishness that ultimately led to our eternal damnation.
When I turned around amid the exclamations of passers-by, it was too late. He Xue staggered and fell straight into the surging river beside the road.
Just like a high-rise building collapsed, my heart seemed to fall into an abyss and sank suddenly.
I rushed to the river bank, trying to grab Hexue's hand. A wave came, and the flood swallowed her up in an instant. I vaguely saw the moment she was swept away by the flood, she smiled at me, a tolerant smile without sadness or resentment.
My tears welled up and I wanted to jump into the river and pull her up, but a passerby who came over pinned me to the ground.
I screamed as hard as I could, but no sound came out. Rain water poured into my mouth, and my face pressed against the cold road, making me shiver with cold.
The flood took away Hexue, and also took away all possibilities for you and me.
Yes, Xihe, I know clearly that there is no possibility for you and me anymore.
I don’t know if it was the tears or the rain that blurred my vision. I blinked again and again, and then I saw your figure in the alley across the street.
I was pressed to the ground by a kind passerby, with my face watching your back gradually going away. I knew clearly in my heart that you and I were destined to drift apart from each other from this moment on.
How to do it?
Xihe, before I could tell you where our story began, our ending has already come to an end.
